In this episode, I share about how I responded in recovery to a real life example where a coworker was underearning. “There are 1000 people between me and Oklahoma.” No! Wrong perception.

In this episode, I share my discussion and thought process in dealing with five people who I had written down on my Step 8 list. The Step 9 working is very clear in that in the act of “clearing off your side of the street”, if it is going to harm yourself or others in the process, don’t do it. We are not trying to stir up drama or any more history just to make ourselves feel good.

In this episode, I share how I would not sit with any kind of uneasiness back when I was drinking or drugging. I was the guy who would jump to the first available drug to cope with whatever was going on. Today, I use these tools and they help me stay sober one day at a time.

In this episode, I share about the amazing peace happening today around being able to share my spreadsheets with our accountant. As my wife and I prepare for a 2020 tax planning meeting, it was so peaceful to be able to simply send the spreadsheet to her without questioning my expenses. Being honest in the numbers and tracking properly has allowed a huge serenity today.

In this episode, I share how I was disturbed and spinning after a guy made a disturbance in the Saturday night business meeting and the. Sunday at the 1:30 meeting, he caused me to get really triggered and upset. I am digging deeper into this because I remember that if a person, place, or thing disturbs me then I am the problem. I need to dig deep and see what is it about what he said that was a trigger. Was it his energy? Was it his reaction? Was it because he reminded me of Abdul? What was it?

In this episode, I share how each day we need to step out of the train car and look at where the train has been and where the train is going. Focusing on what is most important in life is crucial today. I need to but the big rocks in the jar first and then let the sand fall around them.

In this episode, I share about the inner struggle of being able to set a simple boundary with my parents. Why is this so hard to ask to be removed from a text thread? Because when you stop people pleasing, people stop being pleased. I have been ridiculed by my parents and siblings before when I removed myself from their family threads. I simply left the thread. It helped me so much. I needed that distance. Today, I feel chained down to receive these text from my parents boat every day...twice a day. I pray for the courage to ask to be removed and set this little brick in place for a boundary. Do this for my inner wounded child!

In this episode, I share how it helped my recovery to share last night at the men’s recovery meeting. Being super vulnerable and honest about what I did as a child. It was my acceptance speech. Learning that for today, I am accepting everything exactly how it is, just for today.

In this episode, I share about a line that I heard recently in a recovery meeting “I’m the kind of guy who jumps into the pool before checking to see if there is any water.” I really can relate and share a prime example of what happened at work yesterday.

In this episode, I share about how we are strategically planning for 2021 this week at work. I share my concerns about not branching out in other areas of experience right now. With Covid-19 and the need to preserve cash a major reason, I believe we should focus our efforts on growing within the areas of experience that we currently operate. We have been selling cabbages and collards for 20 years and have one kiwi, which is our chemical engineer. By offering another kiwi and branching out into areas unknown for us would be a monumental task. My main goal is to fill Jennifer’s plate this next year. Let’s don’t overload on kiwi and exotic fruit right now. Let’s stay the path on what we know works.