Meagan opens up about severe postpartum depression that turned into terrifying delusions, intrusive thoughts, and suicidal ideation. Even as an RN, she didn’t recognize how bad it had gotten. She shares the shame, fear, and silence so many women carry after childbirth but are too afraid to admit.

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Time Stamps:

00:00:00 — What happens when postpartum depression is ignored and left untreated?

00:01:38 — Why do so many mothers hide postpartum mental health struggles?

00:02:31 — How rare is postpartum psychosis and why is it so dangerous?

00:03:55 — How does upbringing and religion shape relationship choices later in life?

00:04:35 — How do purity culture beliefs affect red flag awareness in relationships?

00:05:51 — What does love bombing look like before you recognize it as unhealthy?

00:07:00 — How do toxic relationships quietly escalate while life looks “successful”?

00:08:51 — Can hormonal birth control trigger long-term emotional instability?

00:10:20 — What happens when medical decisions are made without proper care?

00:11:35 — How does betrayal trauma impact mental health before pregnancy?

00:12:45 — Why does emotional devastation lead to risky coping behaviors?

00:13:57 — What goes through your mind when you discover an unplanned pregnancy?

00:15:34 — How can family support instantly change pregnancy fear into acceptance?

00:17:18 — What does a “perfect” pregnancy look like before everything changes?

00:18:59 — Can extreme productivity mask emotional and psychological distress?

00:21:10 — What is a membrane sweep and how does it start labor?

00:22:36 — What does active labor feel like when you try to stay in control?

00:25:19 — What is it like giving birth when everything appears to go right?

00:26:59 — What does postpartum psychosis feel like the moment it begins?

00:27:53 — Why do postpartum psychosis symptoms feel spiritual or demonic?

00:29:24 — How do new mothers hide severe mental distress from loved ones?

00:31:20 — Why do auditory hallucinations happen after childbirth?

00:33:45 — Why are early postpartum psychosis warning signs often dismissed?

00:36:38 — Why can leaving the hospital feel more terrifying than staying?

00:38:25 — How can a familiar home suddenly feel unsafe after giving birth?

00:41:01 — Why do intrusive thoughts about other children emerge postpartum?

00:43:23 — What behaviors signal postpartum psychosis only in hindsight?

00:45:07 — Why do severe mental health symptoms get mistaken for laziness or sadness?

00:48:23 — How can family sense something is wrong without understanding it?

00:51:18 — Why does postpartum depression feel manageable with support but unbearable alone?

00:53:17 — What happens when a stranger notices postpartum mental decline first?

01:06:22 — How does untreated postpartum trauma resurface years later?

01:26:34 — What does long-term healing from postpartum psychosis actually require?

01:36:20 — What does life look like after surviving postpartum psychosis?

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