My therapist says I'm more tired today than she's ever seen me. Here are some reasons my brain says I cannot sleep:

1. My boss might lose faith in my ability to manage projects. Something important might go wrong with my project (Inkhaven), and I am the only person on-call who has the context to fix it all. If I screw it up he might no longer be willing to give me big projects like this.
2. Annoying social drama. There was one yesterday, that made me anxious and unable to relax until it was dealt with. I had just come out of a massage supposed to relax me, and yet I was immediately un-relaxed for a few hours.
3. I associate being in bed with checking Reddit/YouTube. Whoops. Perhaps I should have better spaces to do this, so that I never do it in bed? Alas, I live in a single room with a bed and a desk, this is my private space. I have a hard time just going to sleep in bed.
4. There are 50-60 people on campus who I am responsible for. When people are around they ask you questions and to solve their problems. All. The. [...]

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