Lockdown has been affecting everyone in different ways. Some are productive & are able to continue pursuing tasks & goals as there’s a lot more free time, however for others this has been an exhausting & unproductive time which creates a lot negative feelings & shame. I personally have been managing to be preoccupied with tasks that I’ve been able to set myself, at the expense of it taking a lot of mental energy & determination to push through the resistance. Perhaps a lot of us are feeling this way, but the question is why? We’re able to set our minds to something that we’d like to do, but the body isn’t actually able to pursue with it. My experience of this is that lockdown has triggered unhealed parts of my self that have previously felt they had no control over the lifestyle at that time, which resonates to the current circumstances of being in the unknown. Hence why, lockdown has affected my mental health as it feels ‘stuck within time’ & I do feel it’s important to understand & differentiate the past experiences to the present, in order to push through mental resistance. Please feel free to comment & message me to share your experiences during lockdown & if you’ve had any insights of why you’re being affected. Instagram: @repairmymind. **Also I was on my mindful 1 hour walk today so please bare with the background noises & wind**

After having a break from social media including podcasting I had to ask myself what’s healing really about? It’s not a simple ‘okay I’m aware of my triggers, where they came from & how sad I felt so now I can close that door to the past’. A lot of our behaviours are engraved within us without being conscious & they’ve been created from an experience. To change our behaviours we have to revisit that painful time & feel what we did to consolidate last ourselves & let us know that we’re safe to change. Within the healing journey, we may continue to open and close these doors as long as we have a purpose for revisiting & we don’t stay too long. Check out my Instagram page @repairmymind for more posts & videos :)

A welcome back to ME, after a long but well needed break from social media. Sometimes we have to prioritise our commitments in order to achieve what we want, even if we don’t want to. It’s about realising how we can reach our potential when there are life factors that are holding us back & will continuously do so, unless we change something. How long are we going to make excuses? Follow my Instagram @repairmymind for more holistic, mindfulness & healing posts

Relating to my most recent post on Instagram @repairmymind ‘Do you want to start healing?’, an option I wrote was to go on a walk. This was my experience of the most conscious, longest, hilarious & emotionally intense walk of my life. I will never forget it. I spoke to my inner children & fully felt them beside me. I learnt about them & got to consolidate them, whilst exploring parts of nature. I took this long walk as an example of life: you start somewhere hopeful, you get lost & have to power through some unfortunate things, but you get there in the end feeling so proud of yourself. I hope you guys enjoy!

I posted a question on Instagram stories about what content to create & attachment styles is one I’m particularly interested in as I had a struggled childhood & I’m now aware of how this affected my relationships growing up. I’ve learnt about it in uni so this podcast will be about how I understand them from my interpretation. At the end I explain which one I relate to the most & why, which I think a lot of the listeners may be able to agree with. Please do your own research as well, don’t take everything I say as facts as this information is what I understand about Attachment theory. Happy healing guys

This is to give you guys a bit of a background of the family dynamics with my parents & what the relationship is like now. After the ‘letter to my parents’ was written I wondered what you guys thought of the relationship with them both, as I understand some people may not be in contact with their parents at all after writing a powerful letter like that. I am still in contact with them & if you listen to the podcast you’ll be able to understand what it’s like now with the added boundaries :). Please follow my Instagram: @repairmymind for more updated content

Relating to my most recent Instagram uploaded onto @repairmymind, I dug deep as to what was the root of my fear of being around people? I suffered deeply with social anxiety for years, but only came across the title when I stated my mental-health nursing training. Before that I thought that this was ‘just the way my body was’ & had to deal with overactive sweat glands & intrusive thoughts of what people assumed about me. Here’s to another aspect of the healing journey. Instagram page mentioned of what made me question my social-anxiety @seerutkchawla.

This podcast & my Instagram page @repairmymind talks about trauma, the ego, mindfulness & mental-health. But contemporary mental-health doesn’t discuss trauma or what it even is. Yet is is the MOST IMPORTANT aspect of mental ill-health. We all have had trauma in our lives, let that be a death of a loved one, an incident that occurred etc but do we ever resolve it? Or do we bury it under the ground & never think or talk about it again, in hopes that you’ll be fine. In this episode you’ll learn about what trauma is, how it affects your mental-health, the science & what it has to do with our childhood leading to the adults we are now. Instagram mentions: @mastinkipp, @the.holistic.psychologist & @seerutkchawla. Neuroscience book: The Brain That Changes Itself by Norman Doidge. Thank you for listening with my sore throat! Please feel free to leave feedback

As a struggling university student, end of the 2nd year failing assignments, not having financial capability, unregulated & difficult emotions, problems with relationships & parents, I took a step to resolve these life issues I was having. I wasn’t coping with my current life & I knew something needed to change but I wasn’t sure what. Whilst being a student mental-health nurse I knew that my mind was the first step needed to tackle. ‘I want to be a good mental-health nurse’ is the intention I had. Little did I know that, from that intention led me to the person that I am today. Follow my journey on Instagram @repairmymind. Also a BIG thank you to all those mentioned on my podcast who are on Instagram: @the.holistic.psychologist, @seerutkchawla, @lizlistens, @markmetry, @mastinkipp & SO MANY MORE that I am grateful for

Introduction as to why this first podcast was a spur of the moment creation today & the reason to why I’m starting one. Trauma has been embedded within my life growing up. As many of us have, I grew up in a closed minded environment, where dealing with life situations became chaotic. I dealt with people & circumstances very emotionally, to which eventually lead to my awakening during Therapy. Since then the healing or recovery has started & I now see the world in a whole new spectrum. Please leave comments & feedback as this will help in constructing my platform 🌸