saoirse dream

✱ track 7

mastered by @dossyx

ft 7aurenner

additional mixing by @daywaiter

~~lyrics~~

i make my friends upset

knocking on my door like "are you up yet?"

blowing up my phone asking where i've been

but my room's the only place i'm spending time in

what do i even tell them?

i can't keep on lying to my best friends

keep my mouth shut during the discussion

is it still the truth if i say nothing, nothing

i don't know

[7aurenner]

i get lost in the sound (crowd)

but in the silence i sometimes drown

this is the part where i run

but i got stuck here, frozen with no bounds

so tell me why

we're six feet under in all of these lies

i try to fall in love

well i don't know myself, or even try

guess that's my alibi

[me]

you showed up in my dream

we weren't making out

you told me it's fucked

we call this our house

in the blanket fort

power line fell down

you just held me close

and you kissed my mouth

i feel you breathe in deep

while you're on top of me

i see my arms bruising

i start to count to three

i'm stuck losing sleep, rapid cycling

bear it and grind my teeth,

no hurt in losing me

i make my friends upset

knocking on my door like "are you up yet?"

blowing up my phone asking where i've been

but my room's the only place i'm spending time in

what do i even tell them?

i can't keep on lying to my best friends

keep my mouth shut during the discussion

is it still the truth if i say nothing, nothing

✱ track 5

~~lyrics~~

(take it out out out

in the bath room room

keep it in your phone case

keep it close to you

take it out out out

in the bath room room

keep it in your phone case

keep it close)

i wish i fuckin worked right

i wanna take walks on the westside

without feeling like i might die

static tearing out the night sky

i wish i fuckin worked right

i wanna take walks on the westside

without feeling like i might die

static tearing out the night sky

i don't wanna wake you

i don't wanna bother

i don't wanna fake it

it's obvious i'm not her

caught in my obsessions

or just being honest

i'm a disappointment

say it's not ironic

i get kinda scared to talk sometimes

feel like i'm faking my whole life

and all the stupid shit that makes me cry

thinking i should let it pass me by

better people wrote all my best lines

and they're out there living their best lives

i'm so caught up tryna make up lies

out of people tryna have a good time

sometimes i wonder if they hear me

i'm quiet but i feel like i'm screaming

see how long i can live without breathing

and if i get it just right i can push those feelings

right down, forget about it

go out, get fucked up, shouting

"i'm alive for now because i found a way to kill myself"

i don't wanna wake you

i don't wanna bother

i don't wanna fake it

it's obvious i'm not her

caught in my obsessions

or just being honest

i'm a disappointment

say it's not ironic

i get kinda scared to talk sometimes

cause i know i'm taking my own life

why am i always so afraid to die

if it's not even the first time i tried

facedown, pavement, i'm not fucking playing

facedown, pavement, i'm not fucking playing

facedown, pavement, i'm not fucking playing

facedown, pavement,

✱ track 4

~~lyrics~~

we could have coffee, doughnuts

we could watch twin peaks, good fun

shouldn't move closer, no touch

shouldn't get caught up, no feelings

but that's what i want

i make it obvious

i'll throw my life away

for one good fuck

i want what i can't have

so i get what i don't want

i make it all no fun

i make it all blow up

i'm done playing fuckup

i'm done playing fuckup

i'm done playing fuckup

i'm done playing fuckup

i could take your t-shirt home

and never give it back

and make new friends

and put it all behind me

all behind me

we could have coffee, doughnuts

we could watch twin peaks, good fun

shouldn't move closer, no touch

shouldn't get caught up, no feelings

✱ track 2

~~lyrics~~

(i'm somewhere else)

find the portal, make an entrance

scratch the surface of something different

decide you hate it, know it hates you

let it bury, let it break you

life's an empty hallway

lungs feel empty always

stuff it in the crawlspace

treat it like a mistake

crush the pieces even smaller

cut the loose ends, block the caller

love the horror, burn the altar

wake up six feet underwater

"you're just fucked up like your father

you can't focus any longer"

discomposure ever present

it'll kill you if you let it

find the portal, make an entrance

scratch the surface of something different

decide you hate it, know it hates you

let it bury, let it break you

✱ track 6

mastered by @dossyx

backing vocals by @t0rr, @daywaiter, & @can-of-bliss

shoutout renner for the audio clips & cooper for the voicemail at the end

~~lyrics~~

to a better half:

(are those the words we used?)

you want a better start

but you know i love to lose

through the bitterness

you know you always win

you want a better part

but it's just like you said -

i wanna be just like you

i wanna be just like you

i wanna dress like you

i wanna act like you do

i see you in my dreams now

but usually you're just hanging around

a couple of times i think we made out

but we've never been in this house

"if it feels good, it doesn't mean that it's good"

is a lesson i learned and then misunderstood

so if it feels good, it doesn't mean that it's good

i heard it, i heard it, i wanna be just like you

i wanna be just like you

i wanna be just like you

i wanna trust like you

i wanna love like you do

i wanna be just like you

i wanna be just like you

i wanna trust like you

i wanna love like you do

i wanna be just like, just like, just like

i wanna be just like, just like, just like

i wanna be just like, just like, just like

i wanna be just like, just like, just like

updated 3/5/22 - "director's cut"

og mix 8/2/21 - https://www.dropbox.com/s/ji0iszfxg3pal0r/when%20your%20pizza%20rols%203.mp3?dl=0

samples list (abridged)

the 1975 - somebody else

frou frou - a new kind of love (demo)

kmoe - gloves

toby fox - undertale

justin bieber - yummy

the kid laroi - stay ft justin bieber

porter robinson & madeon - shelter

tisakorean - silly achilles

saoirse dream - just like you

underscores - girls and boys

@tropes777

@heartstopmiami

prod me

im the transgender porter robinson... portia robinson

prod me

@wishlane

shout out cody daywaiter and elliott e7ellie 4 the pic

prod & art by @can-of-bliss <3 <3 <3

backing vox by @wishlane

album ??? i think

inspired by https://soundcloud.com/mrspeepeepoopoo/weeniehut-emotional

caroline polachek - door (user-177606669 flip)

saoirse dream - idiot

paramore - misery business

webcage - actor

saoirse dream - weenie hut (p. can of bliss)

saoirse dream - ritual (p. can of bliss)

dltzk & fraxiom - if you make music, stop it

dolly - sixteen fourty four

death grips - takyon

sophie - faceshopping

leroy - copyright my fucking nuts

p!atd - i write sins not tragedies (hikeii flip)

underscores - bozo bozo bozo (groovy bot flip)

dltzk & kmoe - homeswitcher (sd flip)

queen - bohemian rhapsody

user-177606669 - can ü hear me maü5

can of bliss - closure (p. saoirse dream)