Sebastian LaCause, CHASING HAPPY

As my relationship with Red Speedo deepened and my Broadway career was booming, I slipped further into my identification with my external world, completely ignoring and repressing my emotions surrounding my HIV status or my uncertain future. With so much focus and attention on my outer world and appearances, my insecurities and deep rooted fear slowly began it's surge of self-sabotage. 



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Reference here!

• Shadow Work
• https://scottjeffrey.com/shadow-work/
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shadow_(psychology)
• Rumi Poem
• http://rumidays.blogspot.com/2010/05/pickaxe-2.html

Red Speedo was the beginning of a beautiful time in my life. But it came with a price. In this extremely exposed and vulnerable episode, I face a dark moment in my life that would set into motion a series of events that would change me forever, leading me toward a life of love that I never thought I'd experience and further away from the healing my soul was desperately craving. 

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References here!

• Abraham Hicks, https://www.abraham-hicks.com/

Receiving my HIV diagnosis was one of the most challenging moments of my life. Little did I know that the hard stuff was only just beginning. Processing this in the mind would prove to be my toughest obstacle. Nothing can prepare you for the stigma. The crazy part is that a certain level of the stigma came from my own mind. 

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• Abraham Hicks
• https://www.abraham-hicks.com/
• Dr. Joe Dispenza
• https://drjoedispenza.com/

As I began operating in the world on my own, I carried with me all these ideas of who I was based on my history, my upbringing, who and what the world had taught me I was. Unknowingly emitting a signal of lack and desperation to succeed to prove my worthiness to the world and to myself. When you operate from a state of lack, you create more lack, self-doubt and personal limitations. I was creating habits and behavior that were setting a rocky foundation. 

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References here! 

• Paul Selig, https://paulselig.com/
• Abraham Hicks, https://www.abraham-hicks.com/

Learning to re-know myself beyond my own programmed ideas of perfection, has been a struggle my entire life. Being the only person of color in a very large all white high school, wearing thick glasses and having too many teeth to fit perfectly into my mouth, created a lot of shame about my physical self. Then, discovering my gayness on top of all that, was almost too much for my young mind to process. They were the building blocks for a shaky foundation. It's when I began defining my value based on what others thought of me, and focusing too much on how I wanted to be perceived by them, leading me further and further away from my true self and deeper into my unconscious dream of fear and separation.

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References here!

• Paul Selig, Beyond The Known
• Dr. Mario Martinez, https://www.biocognitiveculture.com/

Even though I felt energetically prepared for the mindset required to process and navigate the quarantine of 2020, I wasn't prepared for the ramifications, a seemingly insignificant decision to watch some old footage of my younger self, would have on my subconscious mind. Opening a Pandora's Box of realization that would catapult me deeper into the journey of overcoming my past to liberate my present.

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References here!

Forgiveness Exercise
https://zivameditation.com/selfcare/
Dr. Joe. Dispenza
How to Break The Habit of Being Yourself