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In this episode I talk to the communication department of AFT in order to talk candidly about changes CTU (Chicago Teacher's Union) should make since they exposed themselves to not be that interested in supporting kids, instead "crickets" when I answered the question of "why did you go back there if you were so injured," & answered, "since there was molestation claims that were believable, was told point-blank by AP to not call DCFS & this student was using my bathroom since that was the scene of the crime, I did not trust these 'new' policies of allowing that child to use that restroom is absent because the school did not hire a substitute for kids with special needs, primary level, for an entire year," (detailed to me by parents who were not given minutes to their child & what prompted me to tutor often (& cheaply btw) I own every decision I made. Since teachers were given options to not pay union dues, you'd want all the information necessary to know what to do & because Jim Green (CTU lawyer connected to Robin Potter <--seed) who didn't even know the contract that he bragged repeatedly about writing/updating, securing necessary changes like including battery (physical assault) in addition to assault (intent) told me "the union will not support this," even after OSHA, EEOC (equal employment office Chicago) & others wrote incident reports documenting the violence that went uncheck & then covered-up.

To be told that by CTU allows me to absolutely state to colleagues asking that question now, in the past I'd say, "for the greater good, giving a little monthly helps all even if you never personally utilize these services," but now? I have a different answer.

We're starting over because #s are 50% secured meaning I do lose them day-to-day & have to practice them day-to-day. Ways to support #s : EXPOSE SELF TO #s & that's TWITTER. 

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I will update the YouTube video here at channel S . O . Smiley created from acute suicide created from ptsd, flashbacks, fear/anticipation of monthly meetings & 1-3 days practicing (no zzz) for meetings night before. This being the first time I was made aware of meetings since new year since attending the annual meeting was to see if J.H., who has a homeless foundation would show up. Hasn't in the last ___ years. Also, Peter Holsten. Our conversation ended with making sure to inform all residents of who works at PSOT and how this kind of works---since I see your name everywhere---and because no s/v/p should ever use their own. 

I will always use animals' names. If you receive money or have a business (can be google reviewed for example), I can use your name. Everyone else, no intent on sharing who you are, but if you want to share you identity (everything on LinkedIN will be revisited with those people because until I called them out using their words to me, did they finally respond---so I learned public V. private matters!)

I am doing the methodology LIVE.

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The quantity of writing has changed so I KNOW PTSD is a lot less. How else to know "if better" when the experts continue to say, there's not enough research or funding or people power when it just takes (a) knowledge & (b) desire.

To end trauma, return their ptsd, stigma & suicide to the individuals, tag twats (to discriminate between bad tag teams & good tag teams), groups, organizations like charities & companies that created it required me to isolate their strategies & remind, they do not work. Since we can't assume anyone has our experience, the use of experience in marketing (incessant clamor for feedback), let's go with something already in place---the standards, the idealist words e.g. work ethic & integrity, and the behind-the-scenes systematic abuse of power that seems to be very real for ONE POPULATION over & over & over again. Whatever color, creed, ethnicity, SES background, whatever, it all comes down to basic courtesy, the golden rule & knowing one wants to be treated well, not shoddy.

I didn't have the word "one" since it's a number, but it's necessary for writing. I am better since R side shoulder pain is better. L hip pain is better. Able to sit at computer (last 2 days ~4 hours) & make phone calls (4 in one day), hearing people better (in movies, too--first time without closed caption), dialing numbers & listening to automative reposes that talk way too fast (push 1, 2, 3 or "repeat these options") and definitely going to talk to that banker who used SOME STRATEGY that I may not understand completely, but I'm certain someONE out there can teach me, since you can't take advantage of disability & since they taught me it's all about money, let's press in there.

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I also created a YouTube video, of course & can be found here ---> __________.

Since this is the first time I've relistened to a recording in its entirety, to get here, I'll explain on sites I've connected mostly youTube. Instagram is not reliable in its technology & "censorship" because I need ALL THE WORDS to SPEAK about my [user] experience.

The internet, if not knowledgable in it, one can really be told literally anything & their ptsd words on replay (projection) are, "you have no idea what I do! You don't CARE about what I do!" & all I thought was, that's her, not ME! When someone really lets IT* out, especially if you've lost your voice (you hear everything) with a chronic pain condition & ptsd that further heightens sensory in order to survive since YOU MUST REMEMBER EVERYTHING TO KNOW WHAT TO DO & WHAT NOT TO DO (it's coercion! it's gaslighting! it's the 'ol change the narrative & if you're questioned, GET REAL ANGRY!!!

I don't keep secrets since I've been concussed twice & again, was shown how they do it--& why I really don't want it to ever happen to anyone again (survivor mentality & maybe guilt), but also, veterans with PTSD taught me a lot & I'd like to say thank you by ensuring their voices are heard, too. 

I don't know how I'm going to do this, since my body is not as sensitive, my muscles are coming back to life, my vertigo is mostly situational & flare-ups are quarterly, not daily, weekly, monthly so duration/frequency (not intensity nor severity) have decreased significantly & why when you start to feel better, you may forget who helped you & since this was very apparent when others CHANGE THEIR NARRATIVES I wanted to make sure I never did that. 

I left a lot of seeds so I NEVER FORGET VETERANS. I never thought I would, but when you're in fear 24/7 for years, that adrenaline becomes so familiar, that conditioning IS the re-retrigger* indicating a loop that does not end bouncing between multiple memories, places, faces & associations that can seem endless. It will not stop until confronted. If you can't confront, best to zzz...

zzz & ptsd.
zzz & chronic pain.
zzz & tbi.

The importance of sleep cannot be understated.

A new word "popped up"  to help describe trauma in order to end it. To re-retrigger means to relive something but with "conscious consent." You are awake (had to check, "am I asleep or dreaming?" It was hard to tell, both in dreams & when awake) & you are aware (that you are giving consent with enthusiasm so a "heck yes!"). The point is to see if by doing something, it diminishes the symptoms. If so, continue. If it makes it worse, abandon. If no change or neutral, reconsider trying again. The point is you are constantly reflecting, using The Dialectic & saying aloud, "this is your/their ptsd, trauma, suicide, neuroticism, rudeness, etc" since it's different for everyone. 

Let's say individualized & why the words of ACP is the origin. You can't use them! STOP.

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go to _____ <---youTube. 

When I find it*, I'll edit it.** 

This stuff is hard to do, but to end trauma is well worth it.

*the YouTube link
**this site to include it

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I broke up trauma by NOT doing what one may consider prolonged exposure therapy (PET) since sequencing 45 & 23 are triggers and made this season 5, episode 7, not 6.

This isn't the greatest thing to share--recovery from tbi/concussion--because it's so different, but it's the only thing I can do when healthcare stigma explained educational academic discrimination to me.

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Avoidance is pain to right side clicking & moving of the mouse (PT stigma) & without iMovie option, body is definitely out of trauma related to video because the threat was... & finally, I can talk about it, since it's been returned to THEM. 

The s/v/p really has to daily practice this phrase : "it's your ptsd, suicide, trauma & crap. Take it back. Thank you!"

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@s.o.smiley1096 or https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCcSS9uweUH1scCfYDA_MBaA for methodology to remove property manager & poor COVID practices that led to an outbreak & the words, "don't tell anyone" since "private health," and this connects to HIPPA. It's meant to protect patients, but what/when if/is used to protect the doctors/specialists?

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Dropping the seed for FOOD & the question on replay, "who pays?" (when you know the answer). FOOD is LOVE except when it's HATE & thank you for those who taught me. Both women & men & bachelors/bachelorettes & 2 ptsd memories [on replay] from bride & groom. ORIGIN : lying to face (really?) & how to put away, their "who pays?"

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HOW-TO END PTSD.

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