Terror, Bewilderment, Frustration, Despair. The Four Horsemen of the post-binge experience -- who have been cropping up again lately even without the booze. Page 151 of the Big Book.

Topic: pages 71-72 in the 12x12 - Step Seven. An important part of asking my Higher Power to remove my shortcomings is the part where I keep showing up to reach for character-building.

Topic: "Powerless," Daily Reflection for January 3rd. Talking a bit about step one and a lot about what there is to do once we've recognized we're powerless over basically everything.

Topic: "The 24 Hour Plan," pages 6-7 in Living Sober. In which I cry a bit and remind myself (and anyone listening) that we can totally get through this a day at a time.

Topic: "More About Alcoholism," big book page 30. A little thought experiment to unpack how my alcoholism is really about my obsessive thinking.

Topic: "How It Works," page 58 of the big book. It takes honesty to get sober but also to stay sober and stay out of self pity.

Topic: page 35 of the 12x12, step three. Placing the key of willingness in the lock and learning to make my bed and do the stuff to take care of myself. Like it or not.

Topic: pages 62-63 of the Big Book. Talking about the remarkable things that come to pass when we practice the 3rd step, along with some judicious editing of pronouns.

Topic: page 33 of Living Sober, "Fending Off Loneliness." Alcoholism is a disease of loneliness, and I have to take care of my loneliness just like I have to take care of my recovery.