An ex-girlfriend of four years recently passed away and the news of this tragedy impacted me extremely deeply. To be completely honest, it's quite shocking how much sadness, shame, and regret this event brought up for me because we had little to no contact over the last five years. It just goes to show how she never stopped having such a huge presence in my life and how deeply rooted our experience together was. She has the only set of eyes, aside from God and myself, who witnessed me at my worst, and yet she still chose to love me. Track with me as I try to navigate and process this foreign territory of losing an ex love while trying my best to extract the hidden gifts from the grief and regrets.