In this Teisho, given the first full day of Autumn Sesshin 2019, Rinzan examines Case 46 of the Mumonkan: "Step Forward the Top of a Pole." The paradox of spiritual life is that we are seeking that which is already manifested in full. The dual action In practice, of throwing our whole life into what rises before us while at the same time cultivating Great Doubt (“What is this?”), opens us up to realize there was nowhere to go and nothing to do from the get go. If this is so ... how do you show it?