This week we're exploring one of my favorite parts of the parklands, the Moss Gibbs Woodland Garden! The bottlebrushes are blooming this week and I wanted to capture them before they're gone! I also talk about harm reduction when dealing with thoughts resurfacing from a past addiction. Sometimes, when you go deep enough into the murky waters, the thoughts and cravings never truly leave you. You just learn to deal with them in healthier ways! I hope you're having a good day whenever and wherever you happen to listen to this! 

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Today I decided to go out to a part of Iroquois Park that I normally don't go to but since it's a bad tick season this year, I have to walk Sheba on paved areas out in nature! I've always enjoyed this section and there are no cars to worry about as well! It's been a wild adventure as far as the therapy goes for this past week; I've been utilizing meditation and visualization in a seemingly productive way. Those methods aren't as instant as ripping a dab as far as creating a positive, liveable headspace for me. However, with continued practice I hope to achieve a state where the meditation is easier to achieve and has longer lasting effects. I continually struggle with the "coming down" that Ram Dass speaks of, but I don't let that stop me from trying to live a positive post-mortem life.

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This week I am taking advantage of the new traffic patterns around the waterfront here in town to capture a stream of consciousness about my new addition to EMDR. My therapist recommend a combination of EMDR and Ketamine and so far this week it seems to have a synergistic effect on my mood and my dreams/sleep quality! Set, setting, and intention make a world of difference compared to when I used to do K back a couple of years ago. I talk a bit about the pharmacology of it and also a bit about a funny memory from Forecastle since I was at the place where it happened; it wasn't funny at the time but looking back on it it's funny now!

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This week we have a very corny title for a very philosophical episode lmao. 
Last week I felt compelled to buy a copy of Be Here Now by Ram Dass and there was a section of that book that heavily related to my life so I decided to share it with y'all here today. The coming down portion is valuable insight to anyone out there who's experienced in traveling. It's not the end all be all of wisdom, but it is a good diving board to jump from to explore further! I hope you all are having a good week whenever and wherever you happen to listen to this!

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This week we're at Riverview Park to explore and catalogue more of the Levee Trail with Sheba! This environment always inspires nostalgia for me and reminds me of a simpler time in my life. It's been very rainy around these parts so I'm grateful for the opportunity to get outside and enjoy the sunshine! Cactus Carl is also continuing to grow at a good rate, it wont be long until the propagation episodes! I hope y'all are having a good day whenever and wherever you happen to listen to this.

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This week I'm exploring a section of the loop in Turkey Run park while I was waiting to get my AC unit fixed and reflecting on how grateful I am to have functioning AC when it's working. Once it gets up to 80+ degrees in the house I begin not sleeping as well and it also makes my dreams strange, like a half fever dream. 

This combined with the continuation of the EMDR process led to a few wild dreams this past week and I talk about one of them. I also discuss the guided meditation experience that I had in therapy this week and how that can be used as a tool to increase quality of life.

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This week I began the first of the many experiences with the EMDR process and it's been a heavy week to say the least. It seems like this process has taken a lot of repressed memories and brought them to the forefront for reprocessing; this ultimately will be good. However, right now it's difficult to deal with and has been affecting my sleep. This is to be expected though and I feel like I have to trust the process and continue to put the work in. I'll be cataloging how this goes over the next few weeks!

Also! Around the 8 minute mark, there's an alligator snapping turtle on the ground by the fence that I didn't notice. I hope that it's doing alright because they aren't usually land critters.

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Today I'm shaking off some of the heaviness that I've been feeling since last week's near death experience by hiking a few miles in the woods of Jefferson Memorial Forest. I go over some fun memories of hiking out there a few years ago as well as a wild experience with an Amanita Regalis mushroom. I also do my part to help clean up nature by picking up a bottle of red Rhotos that I found in the middle of the woods. This week makes 6 months off of cannabis, I'm halfway to the year long goal that I set for myself. I hope you're having a good day whenever and wherever you happen to listen to this!

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The other day I decided to go film an episode on my kayak at Floyds Fork after a big storm and the waters were too treacherous to handle. The footage is forever lost but I am alive. I got pinned under the water against a downed tree that made a strainer, but luckily was able to make it out. After I got out of the water the adventure really began. I'm grateful to still be here! 

I also share some thoughts on the finalization of cannabis rescheduling + the approval of psychedelic therapies for people with various mental illnesses!

Thank you all for the continued support and I'm glad to still be able to make episodes!

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Today's (yesterday) Earth Day and so Sheba and I went to a trail that I don't hike on very frequently! I also talk about my bicycle day ride and the weaponization of ticks! It's a beautiful day to get outside provided you have the health and means to do so! Cactus carl is also doing well, and the new growth is a couple months away from being ready to propagate! I hope you have a good day whenever and wherever you happen to see this!

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