I was going to entitle this episode "I Made It Without You" I just felt like that didn't express what I've discussed well enough. As everyone can see I entitled it 'Sabotaging Support' instead. Have you ever come across someone who's withheld their support and hopes that you fail within success? I have and to those who can relate here's how I got through it. May this episode reach the ones that can relate the most and shift a problem to a solution. The biggest take from this episode shall be to be the support you wish to show up for you by simply showing up to yourself first.

How I get through is how I can help someone else get through in life. Life comes with challenges, however with those challenges come solutions. You have to be willing to seek it, accept it, or in some cases even create it. Either way like I stated within this episode, where there's a will there's a way. With that being said, I have found my way. Throughout all the mishaps within my life I can honestly say, it just so happens that I am stronger because of it. I turn my complaints to plans of action. May this episode enlighten and spark in someone the answer to their how.

I am highly covered from the undercover attacks from below. I've come too far to be pushed back farther than where I've become. I refuse to be anyone's stepping stool into fooldom. I will not be anywhere where those who have disposed of me left me. I am a reflection of the lessons that The Almighty, AliYah has gotten me through. My words shall not be in vain and may my words fill in the void of anyone who may listen to this episode within an empty cup. I am full of experience, an overflow of it. I have enough to fill more than just my own cup.

I wanted to do or speak on something that was very interesting and intriguing to me which is Aaliyah. Aaliyah is my favorite artist of all time and I'm always gravitated to the mysteriousness of Aaliyah. Astrology and certain other aspects of esoteric tools has led me to even being more fascinated about Aaliyah. It's interesting because we both have the same Life Spread. That's probably the reason why I feel like we were a part of a soul tribe from another lifetime. Moreover, for me to you here's my esoteric expression of my favorite artist.

If I don't do anything else; I am going to speak up and speak out. That's just who I am at my core. I was not meant to be silenced by force or no other means. I am a warrior by stellium of Aries and Capricorn energy, astrologically speaking. I am the voice of those who were silenced. The Almighty, AliYah has created ancestors for a reason. They are my soldiers of Yah. The ones that are pure and come from my Atumá lineage. With that being said, the unjust in the industry of entertainment is where I shall start in regards to speaking up and speaking out against wrongdoing in order for righteousness to take suit. - Sauma D Sidqa

I'm on a roll, even when the wheels fall off; I'm still going to keep rolling. Those who have fooled me once will never have the opportunity to fool me twice. I learn from my mistakes. I go through trials and errors and come out with solutions. I am the solution orientated soul that I've always yearned for. I am no longer the little girl that is bound by error. It is within my adulthood that I have found my equation of creating my own formula. To all the former abusers, it is AliYah I have to thank for using you as a warning sign to not be fooled again.

I'm so delighted I'm not where I used to be. I'm so gracious that The Most 'AliYah' gave me the strength to even execute. Instead of me saying "I didn't even feel like it" I'm going to embrace the fact that I even did what I already set out to do to begin with.

This elevated journey of mine is growing on me and it is growing pretty rapidly. This is something that I've always dreamed of. To see my dreams become a reality is in lighting the inner child in me. To my inner child, I won't let you down. You shall be lifted up forever and always. To New beginnings. May my comic lesson (K ♠️) uplift me and embrace The Omnipresent One that gives me fuel to do as such.

What's been on my mind lately is continuously breaking generational curses. I have to keep my mind focused on becoming and maintaining my higher self. This is all for the sake of my sanity. I am doing all these things in the mist of reclarifying and recentering myself into unindoctrination. I am doing all this through breaking through certain metrics within the matrix which includes rereading religious texts/scriptures. This is all to trace back in order to move forward.

Does purpose still exist? Stick around to find out. Well in my case, stick around and hear me out. I am advocating along with putting emphasis on purpose for the sake of purpose being the lead way to true success. If you're trying to accomplish something with money being your purpose, then that can surely lead down a path of sticky situations. Things get tricky when money is the end all be all of why individuals do what they do. As for me, money will never be my soil nor fuel to thrive within this realm. It took me to get tired of my circumstance to take a stance in creating a new one. What are you fighting for? ... If you're willing to fight ... What does that even look like for you?

The hardest thing I had to do in life so far is heal what I didn't hurt which is my lineage. I don't mind being the black sheep, lost sheep, or whatever sheep people want to call me. One thing I will not be is the damn sheep that carried out transgenerational trauma as if it's a trophy worth flashing out. All the darkness that has been hidden will be brought to the light. I am not protecting what have hurted many within my bloodline for years. The evilness ends with me. I am the change that I wish to have experienced within my bloodline. I am a new breed of a new family tree, rather I birth children or not. There is someone who will birth a pure bloodline because of my testimony which will sparked enough fire to cleanse theirs!