Hello! I have some deep insights from working through the de-activating of my survival mode this week. I am learning how to give to and nurture myself. Thank you for taking the time out of your life to listen and I hope it helps you find great insights into your own life. 

Welcome back! Season one was a bit of a mess! This season will be more organized, with an episode Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Each week will focus on one of the areas I am working on within my journal and healing process.

This week I am talking about my survival mode and how I discovered I have been living in it my whole life and that I create destruction in my life when I am in good places because 'safety' feels foreign.

It has been 6 weeks since I journaled and even though I didn't feel it right away my warning signs were trying to tell me that my self-care needed to happen. I want to get to a point where I can take part in the things I love and enjoy without a feeling of guilt around taking the time for myself. To view my self-care as a reward and not a punishment.

I have started my intermittent fasting journey again with new knowledge, passion, and drive. This process has also opened me up to learning more about my own body functions and how grateful I am to have a safe and happy home life. Recommended book: Fast, Feast, Repeat by Gin Stephens.

A lot on my heart today. I don't know if I like waiting so long between episodes! Talks about the herb Motherwort, my struggles to help my kids, and learning to be in a space of happiness and gratitude with freedom.

Knowing who we are and how we respond to stress is vital in living a happy and balanced life. Make sure to check out the app Co-Star and The Pattern, these are great tools in helping you get to know yourself on very deep levels.

Today I am feeling done. I am at peace with how things are happening and am trying to actively choose peace and harmony over being right. The big thing I need to let go of right now is the illusions of what I 'think' is right. My illusions are that people are working against me, or being unfaithful. But the truth of it is that these are my false illusions because I became accustomed to living in toxic situations.

So many times in life I have dreamt of living in a traveling caravan-type tribe. Where we all lean on each other and give each other the support and help that we need while migrating across the planet. I am also being called to organize my products and create a shop! So many exciting things because I am taking the steps instead of staying in place because it is scary.

It is on days like today that I realize how much of my energy I waste on anxiety, worries, and my own inner dialogues. Today is a good day, no worries or stresses are plaguing my mind. The issues are still there, but I am not focusing on them today and I have so much energy to do other things!

I am exhausted and don't want to do anything! But I did journal and found that my wealth lies in my family and at the end of the day the money really doesn't matter.