[ ep 5 ] when facing obstacles, it is helpful to find ways to better yourself for the sake of establishing more inner peace. but, efforts for constant self-improvement can become counterintuitive if we never let ourselves have peace in where we are. today we’ll be discussing our need to allow ourselves to simply BE – to exist just as we are and to release all agendas and be immersed in the wonderful world of the present. 

we are taking rest from productivity within the self but ALSO from our outer world. the pressure we put on ourselves to be productive is the exact thing preventing us from being in a flow state of creation. this practice of “just being” is intentional time we set aside but can be applied in all moments through the art of not rushing. let's get into it :)

I love you very much, you beautiful creature

[ ep 4 ] come here. we’re going to group therapy. today I’ll be sharing a particular life struggle and sowing seeds of positivity and growth. I share vulnerable moments so you don’t have to feel alone if you’re experiencing similar times.

the other week I had dealt with an utterly overwhelming situation in a better way than I ever had. I'm experiencing utter burn out from being someone’s emotional crutch for far too long. Compared to before, I would have drowned in the emotion and gone to a dark place. I’m going to walk you through my exact process that allowed me to properly process these emotions without supressing nor letting them overrun me. this process included creating space between me and the emotion, intention setting and connecting to the light and love around us. this ultimately allowed me to go to bed in a relative state of peace.

more topics include:

- worry being your minds attempt to help you but recognizing when it’s counterintuitive.

- creating a positive and larger perspective on a situation we see as “negative” in the moment

- stillness being the answer

- improvement not being linear

- being there for ourselves even when it is uncomfortable and not choosing the easy way out 

- letting go of the need to learn and absorb information, and knowing that we are already equipped to practice or enact the tools we have

I’m here to give you the reminders to support yourself but also to challenge you to discover more strength and wisdom within you

[I never mentioned..but to clarify possible concerns, all of my sister's symptoms are a product of panic and extreme anxiety]

[ ep 3 ] I’ve been having invasive social anxiety at work worrying about other people having negative thoughts of me. these consistent worries have been draining me of my energy and I am aware how unnecessary it is. so I have been asking myself…WHY? why do I care so much? how can I stop this? a dream came to answer my question. it took me down a path of looking further into the ego and the way we relate to it and how we must change our relationship with ego to truly be free from caring about other’s thoughts and free as a whole

[ ep 2 ] if you're feeling overwhelmed in thought and emotion right now, you're not alone. today I am sharing the 2 ways I've been rewiring my mind to create emotional resilience and increasing quality of life. if you don't know how to help yourself right now, I think this is a good starting point because they can be applied at any time.

let's discuss our ability to challenge negative thoughts, disidentifying with emotion, and creating greater awareness of our mind's patterns.

[ ep 1 ] come for a chat with gentle reminders. today we are talking about getting back into our creative work without so much pressure on ourselves, following nature's flow and the abundant lessons to be gained from observing nature.

yes, maybe this was recorded as winter was beginning but it still applies okay !

(remember, the only thing that matters is this moment here right now. you're doing a great job. take a deep breath and just be right here. you are exactly where you need to be. if we can have peace in the present then we have everything we need.)

[ep 0.13] am I too resistant to the natural discomforts of life? is that resistance making my life harder than it needs to be? we all know that mindset is everything…but this is a complicated issue when you take depression and other human pains into consideration because we feel we experience discomfort enough. can we make room in our lives to accept that life is inherently uncomfortable? I think this necessary acceptance can allow us to face the inevitable obstacles and mundaneness of life. 

modern day life has offered us reprieve from the challenges our ancestors faced and has elevated the human experience…but where there is more pleasure, there is more pain

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[ep 0.12] I’ve been isolating. if you have been too…you shouldn’t feel bad about it. today I’ll share what my isolation has been looking like. 

being around people I can’t show my full self to is exhausting. I’m over here busy trying to keep my mental afloat which makes it hard to socialize or listen to other people’s unrelatable and relatively ordinary drama. would I prefer to have close ones to be with? of course! but finding good people that understand you is hard, and I don’t have the extra energy to expend to find them when I don’t even know that it will pay off. people have definitely made me feel bad about myself for living this way, especially as someone in their 20s, but I’m here to tell you that there is nothing wrong with it.

I care about you and I support you.

[ep 0.11] why are we here? why does anything exist? these questions are something that everyone has thought about and some more often than others. not knowing the meaning of life used to drive me into anxious states of panic. fortunately, i’m at a point where I have gathered enough questions, answers, and theories to form some grounding beliefs about life and the universe. today I will be sharing my thoughts to perhaps give you some answers, reaffirm your own beliefs, plant some seeds for new ideas, and pique some questions within yourself. of course, this will involve discussing the dynamics of modern day life and the human condition

time stamps: 4:11 - my theory on the meaning of life14:07 - why does it feel like we are chasing something?43:12 - God?1:01:26 - a higher power and metaphysics1:14:47 - existentialism

[ep 0.10] SOC=stream of conciousness episode. me unfiltered with no episode plan. just speaking my mind in what I can see now in retrospect was an anxiety episode. a night where I am so sick of feeling like shit. I'm trying my best to do better for myself and things go up and up and then I am back at the bottom again. how many times can I hit the bottom and still have the energy to get up?I'll let you into my psyche during this moment. you know why? because when I am going crazy, it would be nice to know that other people were going crazy too. I hope this makes you feel less alone in your crazyI talk about God, catastrophizing during anxious moments, my brain being convinced I can think my way out of my problems (when thinking only makes things worse), the war between 'what I think I should do' vs. 'what actually helps', deescalating from an anxiety episode, and lows being a fire under your ass that give you motivationyou're awesome for listening and know that you are my friend and are not alone.

[ep 0.09] we have 2 options in life - to resist what is happening to us or to accept it; I call this the 2 option dilemma. by conceptualizing our nature to toggle between the two of them, I better understand the way I operate. intellectualizing emotions helps to bring a greater sense of calm and control over my life because I am understanding my emotions and nature rather than being overwhelmed by a wave of it. resistance is usually me overwhlemed by the uncomfort of my reality and not wanting to exist at all and acceptance is when I am ready to persist and work for a better tomorrow. let's talk more about it. you don't wanna? ugh, well I think you should listen anyway