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Awareness changes things — even when you wish it wouldn’t.
In this final episode of GILY (for now), Devany and Meredith reflect on what awareness asks of us — and what it costs. Listening honestly to the body reveals misalignment, grief, and the courage required to tell the truth inside soul friendship. Together, they explore how one person’s no and another person’s yes can both be true — and how love doesn’t have to collapse when a form comes to an end.
This conversation traces the lived experience of awareness: how it arrives quietly, how fear and imagination rush in behind it, and how integrity sometimes asks us to let go of something meaningful with care.
GILY is closing in this form, but it isn’t ending — it’s wintering. We’re deeply grateful to this community for listening, reflecting, and walking with us.
Gentle note: strong language at times. Use care if little ears are nearby.
“Awareness changes things — even when you wish it wouldn’t”
Christy Lowry — The Parent’s Table
The Invisible Labor Workbook
GILY is wintering.
Devany — Illumine Within
Meredith — Hibernate Healing
Follow along on Instagram: @gily.pod
Change is coming — but you can’t see it yet.
In this episode, Devany and Meredith sit inside the “goo” of becoming — the uncomfortable, beautiful not-yet — and share how resisting the urge to rush their rebrand opened a third way forward.
They unpack the systems that make waiting feel unbearable — capitalism, patriarchy, and the myth of productivity — and offer practices that root us back into body and trust: Centering Prayer, the inner posture “I can wait,” and the slow medicine of time itself.
An invitation to stop forcing what’s still forming — and to believe that what’s growing in the dark is already on its way.
Join us for four cozy lunchtime mini-retreats with teaching, somatic practice, and community care.
“Waiting is not the absence of movement — it’s the place where new life takes form.”
Devany — Illumine Within: 1:1 sessions & Centering Circles
A gentle reminder: We share from lived experience and practice. This isn’t medical, mental-health, or legal advice. Use discernment, take what resonates, and leave the rest.
✨ We’re doing the holidays differently.
What if you could host yourself while hosting everyone else this season.
Join us on Zoom for four cozy lunch-break mini retreats — for rest, resourcing & care.
No performance, just presence. Probably some laughter...
We’re keeping it small and cozy —we would love you to come.
💌 Join our email list for early access at www.gilypod.com at the bottom of the landing page.
What happens when the words you’ve built your world around start to break open? Devany and Meredith talk about the courage to rename, the sacred alchemy in disagreement, and how language itself can evolve and heal.
What happens when the words you’ve built your world around… start to break open?
In this episode of The GILY Pod, Devany and Meredith explore how language shapes love, belonging, and who we’re becoming. What began as God, I Love You has evolved into The GILY Pod — a rebrand born from listening, humility, and repair. While God has timelessly been the name for the unnameable Mystery, it’s also a word weighted with harm — used through history to justify control, exclusion, and supremacy.
They share the messy beauty of disagreeing, staying in friendship, and finding a third way forward. It’s a conversation about naming harm without losing reverence and discovering that language itself can be a living, healing thing — if we’re willing to let it change.
A love letter to evolution itself: a reminder that change is the path of growth and a deep longing toward what is most true.
Gentle note: Strong language at times — use care if little ears are nearby.
“You can rebrand yourself as many times as you f*cking want.”
Rebrand — A conscious reshaping that reflects present-tense truth and integrity.
The Prophetess — Shalon Harkin (Closing Reading) → shalonharkin.com
Thomas Keating — Centering Prayer → contemplativeoutreach.org
We share from lived story and practice. This isn’t medical, mental-health, or legal advice. Use your own discernment and seek professional support as needed. Care for yourself as you listen. Take what resonates; leave the rest.
Come Home to Your Center (Illumine Within) — Devany walks with those reclaiming spirituality through the body, love, and deep listening. Join 1:1 sessions, circles, and shared practice at illuminewithin.com.
Energetic Support (Hibernate Healing) — Meredith offers energy work and spiritual guidance in Austin or online. (Rebrand in progress; sessions available now.) sparklecirclehealing.com
In this bonus episode of GILY, Devany and Meredith offer a warm welcome — in the old English sense: you are a desired guest. From that same spirit of hospitality, they share their stories. Meredith moves from evangelical certainty through postpartum collapse to energy work, the Fourth Way, and a living, clear-eyed Christianity. Devany reflects on her contemplative roots, a season inside evangelicalism after grief, and how stillness, Centering Prayer, and decolonially informed somatics continue to guide her home to her own voice.
Together they trace the spiral of deconstruction — funny, humbling, sometimes self-righteous — reclaim Jesus beyond punitive theology, and name their shared lens: we start where it hurts and stay for the healing — mind, body, spirit, community, and land. We hope you feel welcome in your own story, too.
Gentle note: Strong language at times — use care if little ears are nearby.
“We’re done tidying our souls for anyone.”
Devany’s somatic journey has been shaped by Sonya Renee Taylor, Staci K. Haines, Dra. Rocío Rosales Meza, and mentor Marisa Guadalupe, with learning also supported by The Embody Lab.
We also mention Thomas Keating (Centering Prayer), the Fourth Way, Four Winds/Andean-informed teachings, Human Design, and The Trevor Project (LGBTQ+ youth crisis support).
🌱 A Gentle Reminder
Invitations
Energetic Support (Hibernate Healing) — Meredith offers energy work and spiritual guidance in Austin or online. (Rebrand in progress; sessions available now.) www.sparklecirclehealing.com
In Episode 4 of God I Love You, Devany and Meredith explore how a “North Star” isn’t a job title or a five-year plan—it’s an inner alignment that quietly pulls you toward what you truly love. Devany shares the paradigm-shifting question from her spiritual director—“What if you’re not a tool?”—and the unexpected aliveness that followed when she let go of productivity as purpose and returned to choir, harmony, and embodied flow.
Through water and sky metaphors (rivers returning to the ocean, Polaris and precession), they name flow as those brief, luminous moments when body, heart, and spirit line up. They also get real about misalignment: Meredith reframes chronic plantar fasciitis as a painful but holy re-structuring—new growth needing new tissue. Together they land on a lived definition of purpose: notice what draws you, relax into it, and let alignment guide your next right step.
Gentle Note — We use strong language at times—listen with care if little ears are around.
*North Star
*Flow
*Attuning
*Alignment / Misalignment
“It is said that before entering the sea a river trembles with fear…
🔖 Note: These are our reflections-in-process. Engage directly with primary teachers and texts for the fullness of their work.
Ask, “What do I truly love?” Let it be small and honest (choir, harmony, story, yoga).
Detective of Aliveness: Notice where your body hums—people, places, practices.
Body-Honoring During Realignment: Support structures (rest, footwear, stretching, therapy/pt) when change shows up as pain.
Centering Prayer: Sit in silence; return to a sacred word; relax into Presence.
What we share comes from our lived stories and spiritual practices. It isn’t medical, mental health, or legal advice—please use your own discernment and seek professional support if you need it. Some episodes touch tender topics; care for yourself as you listen. Take what resonates, leave the rest.
Come Home to Your Center with Illumine Within — If you’re longing for support in stillness, quiet, and returning to deep self, Devany’s Centering Circles offer a guided space to practice. Each gathering includes somatic grounding, Centering Prayer, and reflective listening. Explore upcoming circles and resources at illuminewithin.com.
Relax into energetic support with Hibernate Healing — Meredith offers energy healing, shamanic practices, and spiritual guidance to help you release, restore, and reconnect with your deepest self. Sessions available in-person (Austin, TX) or online. Visit sparklecirclehealing.com (rebrand in progress).
Episode 3 — The One On Selfish
In Episode 3 of God I Love You, Meredith and Devany reframe the old “selfish woman” trope by exploring what it means to live self-full. They reflect on how women’s needs have long been mislabeled as “preferences,” and how meeting those needs with dignity changes the quality of our love, creativity, and presence.
Through the metaphors of plants and water, they explore thriving as creating the right conditions rather than chasing external checklists. Along the way, they wrestle with how cultural patterns shape our relationship with needs, how fear can act like a contraceptive to our becoming, and how hunger offers a compass back to true choice and aliveness.
This conversation is tender, grounding, and at times disruptive — a permission slip to stop performing love and begin listening inward with kindness.
Gentle Note - We use strong language at times—listen with care if little ears are around.
Sovereign
Self-Full
Our reflections on sovereignty and needs are shaped by the wisdom of teachers who’ve gone before us:
🔖 Note: What we share here are our reflections and learnings in process. We encourage you to engage directly with the work of teachers like Marisa Guadalupe, Kelsey Blackwell, Dra. Rocío Rosales Meza, Resmaa Menakem, and Christine Gutierrez for their full wisdom and guidance.
What we share here comes from our own stories, experiences, and spiritual practices. It isn’t medical, mental health, or legal advice — please use your own discernment and seek professional support if you need it. Some episodes may touch on tender topics; take care of yourself as you listen. Take what resonates, and leave the rest.
Come Home to Your Center with Illumine Within — If you’re longing for support in stillness, quiet, and returning to deep self, Devany’s Centering Circles offer a guided space to practice. Each gathering includes somatic grounding, Centering Prayer, and reflective listening. Explore upcoming circles and resources at illuminewithin.com.
Relax into energetic support with Hibernate Healing — Step into a sanctuary where your body, spirit, and heart are met with care. Meredith offers energy healing, shamanic practices, and spiritual guidance to help you release, restore, and reconnect with your deepest self. Sessions available in-person (Austin, TX) or online. Visit sparklecirclehealing.com until the rebrand is complete.
In Episode 2 of God I Love You, Meredith and Devany explore the antidote to burnout: watering self. They unpack what “water” means—both literally and as a metaphor for the life-giving essentials that sustain us as women. Desire becomes a compass back to life, guiding us toward true nourishment instead of numbing.
Through personal stories—from hammock naps and garden watering to basement dance parties and high-art resets—they show how tending your “favorites list,” listening to your body, and learning to host yourself can bring you back into flow. Along the way, they name the shame that creeps in when we rest, the danger of “overwatering” ourselves with what drains, and how to trust that what you want, wants you.
Practices Mentioned
Come Home to Your Center with Illumine Within — If you’re longing for support in stillness, quiet, and returning to deep self, Devany’s Centering Circles offer a guided space to practice. Each gathering includes somatic grounding, Centering Prayer, and reflective conversation and listening. Explore upcoming circles and resources at illuminewithin.com.
Relax into energetic support with Hibernate Healing — Step into a sanctuary where your body, spirit, and heart are met with care. Meredith offers energy healing, shamanic practices, and spiritual guidance to help you release, restore, and reconnect with your deepest self.
Whether you need deep rest, emotional reset, or spiritual clarity, sessions available in-person (Austin, TX) or online. Visit and book at www.sparklecirclehealing.com until the rebrand is complete!
Why am I so dry?—a phrase that captures burnout and that “dried up” feeling so many women know too well when we’re overextended, under-resourced, and still expected to keep giving. In this episode, Meredith and Devany name how dryness can look like constant overdoing until there’s nothing left… or freezing in overwhelm because the weight of expectations feels crushing.
Devany shares how COVID’s forced stillness revealed her reliance on external validation and the belief that doing more made her lovable. Meredith reflects on her own dryness as a hollow, crispy version of herself—like the cicada shell left behind when you’ve been living in someone else’s story. Together, they explore satisfaction as a compass for self-trust, the red flag of justification, and why love is not transactional. They offer practical ways for women to reconnect with their “us-ness” and remind us that the soul is self-watering when we make space to listen.
burnout, women’s stories, emotional dryness, self-discovery, worthiness, external validation, satisfaction, love vs. transaction, us-ness, self-nourishment, spirituality, motherhood, somatic practices, neurodivergence, authenticity, boundaries, centering prayer, human design
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Resources Mentioned
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Relax into Energetic Support with Hibernate Healing — Step into a hideaway where your body, spirit, and heart are met with care. Meredith offers energy healing, shamanic practices, and spiritual guidance to help you release, restore, and reconnect with your deepest self. Whether you need deep rest, emotional release, or spiritual clarity, sessions are available in person (Austin, TX) or online. Visit sparklecirclehealing.com until the rebrand is complete.
Come Home to Your Center with Illumine Within — Step into a quiet, spacious circle where your embodied self is met with care. Centering Circles weave somatic grounding, Centering Prayer, and reflective listening, all held in compassionate presence. Whether you seek stillness, self-trust, or nourishing community, these circles offer sanctuary for your inner life. Gatherings are on Zoom or in person, with seasonal sessions and resources at illuminewithin.com.
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