The Jerry Banfield Show

This morning I woke up in a FOUL mood and within just a few minutes I was able to change it into an amazing feeling of JOY! Would you like to hear the story and exactly what I did? First, I honestly admitted I was full of fear, anxiety, and on the edge of another day filled with depression. Before getting out of bed, I prayed to stay sober and be unconditionally loving with the people in my life. In getting out of the bedroom, I spent around 30 minutes getting my daughter ready for the day from diaper change to a new outfit, reading, and play time. During this time, I felt so bad I cried on and off for half the time WITHOUT choosing a REASON that I felt that way. The feeling was there and rationally there was nothing wrong. Many times in my life I had fell into the trap of creating someone outside of me to blame when the truth is sometimes we just feel bad for no reason. After the miracle of not pointing a reason outside of me for how I felt, I took action based on what works for Tony Robbins to PRIME himself each day to be of maximum service as explained by Tim Ferriss in Tools of Titans which I read last night. With the way I felt, I was motivated to try something new in addition to what I already do. While spending time with my daughter, I started on thinking about 3 things I was grateful for, 3 things I wanted to accomplish, and consciously experiencing the presence of God as suggested by Tony Robbins based on what he does. I went in and made my bed. I made a cup of matcha green tea. I read my two meditation books I use with AA. I did ten pushups. Then, I made what seemed like a big leap of faith at the time. Strip down and take a cold shower for at least 30 seconds. Right when I was turning on the water, I experienced the height of the discomfort and started yelling as the water which probably was only 60 degrees Fahrenheit hit my skin. Immediately my gloomy mood broke and my body felt awake, alive, and happy. I walked in and recording this podcast as if the mood never happened amazed to see how easy it is to correct rolling out of bed on the wrong side. My exercise for today is to watch for any more suggestions I receive from others which might help me make small adjustments throughout the day! Thank you for reading about day 138 of Happier People podcast and I hope you enjoy it!

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In my third song wait until the computer yells freak me!

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Hear how my endless quest to be a good person is based on the idea of a bad person and what I hope to do today to love unconditionally and be of service to you today during day 137 of Happier People podcast! My exercise for today is to keep looking as to whether I am doing something with the hope of being a good person or simply because I enjoy doing it?

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In listening to my second song which is a remix of the first EDM or electronic dance music I did, one viewer suggested the name "Cause of High" because after listening to this, you might need to alter your mood! Then, when asked, you might point to this song as the cause of your high!

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My Dash crypto videos are apparently so bad that hiring me to make more according to the masternode votes is worse than destroying the Dash and giving it to no one! Yesterday I submitted a Dash budget proposal to my fellow masternode owners for the April 2017 payment which currently has $450,000+ in Dash cryptocurrency which will be BURNED if it is not given to anyone. I asked for the same amount of 215 Dash another proposal is currently prepared to receive in exchange for making 2 videos per week about Dash on YouTube at https://www.dashcentral.org/p/dash-detailed-2-shows. This is an awesome show which I voted yes on to fund the proposal. In my proposal at https://www.dashcentral.org/p/discoverdash I accepted that I am newer to the Dash community and offered to spend the majority 51.6% of my funding on Facebook and YouTube ads on the videos I made. Using the data from my previously funded proposals, voting yes on this proposal would likely share Dash with 6 million people online.

While I thought this makes an outstanding proposal against a budget with NO COMPETITION, the initial votes are 25 Yes / 75 No / 14 Abstain including my yes vote! IS THIS CRAZY OR WHAT? The Dash will literally be deleted and no one else is offering to do any online advertising when the budget guidelines specifically state that this is one of the primary purposes of the budget.

Wait until you see the comments! I have not read them yet and I will do so live! I bet they are amazing!

My exercise for today is to accept that my fellow Dash masternode owners are really helping me EITHER WAY! The no votes encourage me to stop making videos about Dash and to instead focus completely on making music. Seeing the response from the community is also a chance to offer unconditional love instead of judgement which is challenging me to grow to say the least!

Thank you for reading about day 136 of Happier People podcast! My exercise today is to remember that I trust my fellow human beings and that we all are really trying to help each other. The harder it is to see, the more potential I have to grow wise!

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With the cost being $500+ to submit a Dash budget proposal at https://www.dashcentral.org/budget and with me having failed receive funding on 4 out of 6, am I crazy to try another one today? In my newest Dash budget proposal, I am asking for the same amount as an existing proposal by Amanda B. Johnson that has received overwhelmingly positive feedback at https://www.dashcentral.org/p/dash-detailed-2-shows. In my proposal, I am going to offer to make the same amount of videos and spend 50% of the budget advertising the videos I make on Facebook and YouTube. Honestly I have been scared to do this which is why I am making day 135 of my Happier People podcast about this! What if the Dash masternode owners vote no again? What if I do get funding and it ends up being a lot of work I do not enjoy? What if I run out of ideas for videos? What if people hate my videos? Thankfully today I avoid making decisions based on fear thinking and I think about what I love and am grateful for. I love the Dash community for giving me a chance to be of service. I love you watching or reading this. I am grateful that even as a newcomer to the Dash community I received 68 Dash from the last budget for doing about half of what I hope to do on this new proposal. I am grateful I already have a great filming setup and can make videos about whatever I want. After facing my fears so many times, I have learned to do it afraid if I am doing it for the right reasons. The right reason to me is to take a leap of faith and make myself available for service. Asking for a smaller amount has been very tempting also because I hate getting rejected. What I have learned there is to ask for an amount I would be very excited to serve with even if the price drops 70% between when I make the proposal and when I get funding. It is in everyone's best interest that I either give everything I have to contribute or do not make an effort at all! Thank you for reading here with me today! My exercise is to remember in the face of fear what I love and what I am grateful for followed by taking appropriate action.

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Would you like to listen to the first song I made in FL Studio 12 with the help of hundreds of viewers online?

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Can music alter moods and talk to us? If it can, is making a change in how we feel as easy as shuffling the songs we listen to? After 14 years listening to music to fuel my rage, depression, anxiety, fear, and sickness, I discovered that if I stopped listening to certain kinds of music that my state of being would also adapt. Making a choice to play a song that helped me hate life versus listening to a song of love and joy suddenly seemed to offer more help than going to therapy. What shocked me was to notice how I unconsciously would just start listening to a song because "this is the song I listen to in the car" and then how my mood would drop. It took me getting frustrated a lot of times to see that maybe if I skipped listening to any music in the car I might arrive at my destination feeling better. For more than a year I have mostly stopped listening to music to make space to receive songs of love and joy in my life because these are the moods I wish to sustain and share with you. Giving up listening to many of my favorite artists was easier than I would have imagined and now today I am grateful to have my own songs to share with you! Would you like to listen to the beginning of the first song I have worked with hundreds of viewers to make at the beginning of this? Next I will share my experience in more depth with how listening to music helped fuel certain thoughts in my mind. Then I will explain how a choice in music IS a choice in mood. Finally, will you help me finish the song I played at the beginning? My exercise for today is to choose to listen and create the music that is the most helpful for you in your life today! Thank you for reading about day 134 of Happier People podcast which I am doing live on

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How easily do I forget what I was afraid of before now that it is gone today? Where are the greatest fears of my life now years later? Today would you notice how many of the crazy and scary ideas in my mind disappeared or never happened at all or were not that bad when I experienced them to help you see that next time panic strikes, you will be rid of it soon enough?

When I was in third grade or so I remember going on a field trip out into the wildness somewhere. After running out of the bus and being excited to explore, I tried eating some red berries I found growing on a vine. Later I got the idea these berries were poisonous and I could get AIDS from them. As I rode the bus home, I remember being terrified that I would come down somehow with AIDS and end up dying from having tried some berries in the forest. Twenty years later it sounds ridiculous of course but how often do things today seem just as serious that in twenty more years will seem just as far out?

In starting producing music, I was browsing the Image Line website this morning because they make FL Studio 12 which I am using to create beats. At the same time, I was remembering my need to get some more samples and desire to try some loops to make it easier to make a song especially starting out and to provide more sounds to play with. When I found the option to buy all the samples, loops, and additional presets in a bundle for a huge discount, I jumped on it. Enter your credit card the website said and suddenly I was gripped with the same fear as I had been years earlier about the berries. Would this purchase for $1,300 run me out of money? How much would I regret buying this later? Was I trying to force myself to keep making music or actually doing something good? Did I really NEED this or was it just an impulse buy? Why not just by later? Thankfully today I have rules for these situations which help out. The rules dictate for smaller purchases to limit decision making and if I need it, just buy it right away. However, this reached past the $100 or so smaller purchase limit and into the "I really need to think about this" category. The deciding factor was in facing my fear. This purchase surely would not be a part of bankruptcy and even if it was, so what? I would still find a way to eat and live. The question really was am I serious about what I am doing and will this have a high probability of helping me make music? I went ahead with the purchase because I also prefer to make a decision and move forward rather than giving into temptation to decide later. Reviewing my options, I chose to buy or to never consider buying again with making the purchase to license the sounds looking like the best choice.

Is it right or wrong? I don't know. What I do know is I am happier today making decisions consistently instead of backing out, putting things off, or being afraid to take a leap of faith on what feels right. Thank you for reading about day 133 of Happier People podcast! My exercise is to be grateful for surviving so many fears and to remember how quickly fear passes and looks foolish in my day today!

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What if being a rock star, actor, author, or anything I want to be today really is just as easy as making the effort? Being a gamer with amazing abilities was as easy as just trying. Graduating from high school, college, and getting a master's degree required me to make the effort. Earning over a million dollars online required I make the effort to start a business and keep trying at it. Why is it we often have such limiting beliefs that we are motivated not even to make the initial effort to get started? How would our world look if everyone gave following their dreams a try? After months of planning, preparing, thinking, being afraid, watching video courses, believing there is no point in trying, feeling like I am wasting my time, and not trying, today I will try to make music live for the first time! Thank you very much for reading about day 132 of Happier People podcast with me and I hope you enjoy it!

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