Discussing the importance of pushing your boundaries and seeking out discomfort in order to unleash your true capabilities, acquire new skills and expand your understandings to overcome obstacles.

Challenging yourself and taking productive steps forward for overall progression can be anxiety inducing, scary, cause an emotion of apprehension and possible overthinking - however approaching the unknown and removing yourself from  your comfort zone can be the most rewarding, life changing thing.

Today I’m joined with Jodie (@jodieseangrant), a London based 24 year old who studied a masters in nutrition at Leeds University.

Jodie opens up about her personal journey of disordered eating, how the harmful influences of diet culture lead her to a life consuming addiction to restriction and how social media’s unrealistic and unattainable perception of ‘healthy’ only fuelled this unavoidable desire to restrict. We also discuss the long and tedious process of having to rewire, relearn and discard of the obsessive mentality towards her body and food, which became so habitual to her.

We discuss the unfortunate reality of how D-list ‘celebrities’ utilize their huge platforms to promote severe deficits, glorifying unsustainable weight loss, only wanting to shrink their bodied and thus, negatively influencing their audience…. solely for financial gain and a ‘#ad’ caption on an overedited Instagram post.

Additionally, we rant about the exhausting and somewhat controversial topic of pyramid schemes (Herbal Life & Airbonne specifically), where the focus, again is on profit and revenue…. rather than promoting healthy sustainable lifestyles.  

I am again joined with Josceline (@HoneyAreYouHappy) to talk all things mental health, anorexia, our experiences and sharing our stories.

We discuss the identity crisis in association with anorexia - having to fight the overbearing critical voice, labelling and peoples perception of mental health.

Additionally, we talk about relationships and intimacy. How letting people in can be daunting and anxiety inducing, after a prolonged period of isolation - both literal and metaphorical. Anorexia, quite frankly is an emotional and abusive relationship with yourself, therefore learning to trust is certainly challenging.

We raise the topic of pro-ana websites and triggering content online - which is so scarily accessible for vulnerable and fragile mindsets, and how essential it is to navigate a safe online system. Prioritising staying safe from the content you're absorbing. 

In this episode, I am joined with Millie (@milliecvj) to discuss our opposing lifestyles. Millie, a bodybuilder, weighs herself daily, counts calories, macros, tracks her steps and even sleep hours.

Meanwhile, due to my past experiences of disordered eating and my ongoing recovery, I am unable to involve myself in a numerical and digital lifestyle, fearing relapse - therefore my lifestyle is unintentionally intuitive and holistic. 

Millie is able to utilise this information productively to achieve her goals. Her rationality, experience and education has solidified her mindset to view these numbers practically.

To contrast, I struggle with an overly emotional relationship with that numerical digit in which appears upon the scale. I haven't been able to weigh myself for over 3 years. I fear my previous anxieties towards that number will resurface... that it will possibly result in myself revisiting my past disordered tendencies of obsessively weighing myself. Similarly with calorie counting.

We discuss the benefits of both avenues, advice, what we've learned, and overall, share our perspective.

In such an image based society, nowadays, in the 21st century, the number of individuals feeling negatively about their bodies is a scarily quickly rising statistic.

I discuss exhausting continual comparison, unrealistic expectations and negative influences of social media. How it's vital to take control of what content we're absorbing - ensuring it provides a sense of empowerment, rather than solely encourages you to question your value and worth.

I discuss an abundance of topics and advice as to how to build a healthy, mindful and positive relationship with your body - ranging from removing the scales, rewarding your body, eliminating habitual toxic behaviour towards yourself and overall being kinder to yourself. Finding a balance with exercise - ensuring your implementing fitness into your routine to celebrate your body rather than punishing it. Focusing on your bodies abilities and practising a little gratitude towards it's functions.

And most importantly, I talk about the importance of evolving that inner dialogue - transforming it from chronic self criticism to a positive, authentic and considerate mentality.

Heidi Jane and I talk all things social media - the good, the bad and the ugly. 

We discuss exhausting pyramid schemes, brand collaborations and demonitzation. 

How authenticity has seemingly vanished, as creators focus more so on posting solely to adhere to the static algorithm - chasing numerical gratification rather than pursuing the creation of inspirational, positive and uplifting content - insecurity perhaps? 

Hopefully, this 'no filter' episode will open your eyes and enlighten you about the reality of your favourite 'influencer' and how their seemingly perfect life is quite frankly, only for the screen.

Welcome back to another solo episode! Today I'm discussing the complex and intricate process of my fitness journey. How I went from being bed bound, to running half marathons, to now strength training... and how beneficial maintaining a level of consistency within my fitness routine has been for my mental health, self confidence, social confidence and overall my sense of value and purpose. 

Embarking on this massive lifestyle transformation has allowed me to develop a far more positive and healthy relationship with my body - due to embracing my bodies abilities and strengths, and totally eliminating scales from my life. Learning to respect and celebrate my body, rather than abusing it.  

Additionally, I discuss the countless incredible opportunities which has come as a result, and why I have now decided to totally changed my degree and future career path.  

Attending the gym, keeping fit, setting goals, involving myself with like-minded, motivated individuals has been the key to not only my physical recovery and progression, but also my mental growth, sense of self, identity and has ultimately become such a valuable and healthy coping mechanism  - which I hope I am able to explain and justify within this episode.

Welcome back to another episode! Today, we're going solo. 

Just a simple, classic Q and A, where I discuss weight gain and the emotional effect of having to buy bigger clothing, adjusting my mindset to prevent myself from seeing numbers as defining digits to represent my worth, and also my advice on binge eating recovery. 

I also chat about how to transform negative life experiences to lessons and avenues for unexpected, yet beneficial growth and maturity. 

Confidence is also a key topic in this episode, discussing the importance of prioritising yourself, rather than focusing on others' judgements or perceptions.

I am joined by Josceline (@HoneyAreYouHappy), a psychology graduate who has worked with countless mental health and eating disorder charities to raise awareness, due to her previous experiences of mental health conditions, including anorexia. 

In this episode, our conversation focuses highly on the brutal and traumatic reality of living with an eating disorder, discussing the exhausting misconceptions and stigmas attached, the development of anger, frustration and anxiety triggered by the recovery process and it’s detrimental effect of familial relationships. 

We discuss the true severity and addition of the disorder. How life can become very dark, emotional, seemingly valuless and the process of losing your identity to the anorexia. 

We raise the topic of re-feeding, experiences of hospitalisation and having to face these overwhelming phobias of food. Josceline spent a prolonged period of time as an inpatient, unlike myself, therefore it was massively insightful and educational to hear about her difficult and complex time as an inpatient. 

We also talk about our ‘light bulb moments’ and Josceline opens up about her experiences with CBT and having to open up about her traumatic childhood. 

Overall, we have a very open and raw conversation about our experiences with anorexia. How our stories both relate and differ. 

Today I am joined by Millie Cvjetkovic (@milliecvj) A chemist working in the nuclear industry, ibd warrior, a previous powerlifter whom is now embarking on her bodybuilding journey. 

Millie opens up about her complex life journey - her previous experiences of trauma from a young age, disordered eating, binge eating disorder and her diagnosis her chronic illness of ibd – inflammatory bowel disease. 

Despite her countless struggles and challenges she has had to face, she has grown and flourished into an incredibly intelligent, inspirational and beautiful young lady. 

She speaks about her journey of development, progression, self acceptance and self love, and how her previous difficulties have only built her into the resilient, determined and confident Millie we know today. 

We both talk about our individual experiences of eating disorders, discussing our relatable stories – so I just want to warn due to possible triggering conversations.