The Leaves of a Victim never more with Steven Wilson

I am grateful for my life in America.  I am well aware of the cancer within this country, but that doesn’t keep me from acknowledging the benefits.

This episode is based off the happenings in another group therapy session between two members: one, he was speaking of the trauma of his dog losing a toy while, two, the second member was speaking of the loss of two members of his family in American wars (Vietnam and the War on terror). 

They both spoke in the group seemingly unaware of the content of the other.

This happens occasionally so we just sit through it, but I began to think to Walt Whitman and his poetry dealing directly with the civil war in the United States of America (1861-1865).

With Memorial Day coming up next week I thought it a good topic for this podcast.

I read Whitman’s poem “The Wound-Dresser”.

Perhaps it is true that those that praise war have never been in war, but all are brave that engage the human condition.

I am grateful, but that is all I can offer you any day of the year regardless of your place in this world.

This episode is based a group therapy game where everyone in the group picks one superpower they would love to have.  this is a form of linguistical Rorschach in that it tells a great deal about the person.

The reading is from HP Lovecraft “Dunwich Horror”.

I chose the power to bring back the dead.  Biblical in all.

Time.  the most precious thing in the universe ; and it is the heart of this podcast-unevenly.

In this episode I again speak of our group therapy discussions and deal with the war in Ukraine, and how the “victims” of a war touch the victims of sexual abuse.

I read from “Are prisons obsolete?” By Angela Davis.

I was always impressed with her critical thinking and how clear her writing style was in on topic she took on.  I thought about her book while in therapy session. 

this episode deals with myself revisiting NA.  I read from th blue book and find its opening salvo hitting the human self bulls eye.

I see each person as a recipe of sorts; needing just the right amount of certain things to exist and function.  obviously this doesn’t work for all of us as I am proof of dysfunction.

I embrace the recipe for myself and find it easier to exist in real form.

Tonight I speak about how one member of the group session and their testimonial about one of. The circumstances in which they were raped. 

The group member gave a testimonial about what happened while watching How the Grinch stole Christmas TV special.

I watched it this morning and it became a slight trigger for myself and afterwards I felt sick to my stomach.  It is rare that this happens to me.

I read “Christmas Trees” from Robert frost as it parallels to allegory of consumerism in Christmas and the removal of the reason for the season now identified as the trappings of Christmas: lights, egg nog n brandy, presents, parties, and trees.

Today’s podcast episode is a simple list of things I am grateful for in my life.

The list is not in any special order.  It is just a exercise we did in group therapy.  Everyone went around after having ten minute s to write out what the things in their life they were grateful for.

In this episode I go through my list and share other observations as we head into the holiday season.

Happy thanksgiving 

Art is my life now and has been for a long time.  this episode is about the types of art I do .

Visual art
Piano composition
Pyrography
Leather craft
Poetry
Fiction writing

I enjoy opera (Don Giovanni) and some ballet.  I attend many art exhibition openings.  

Art expression and creativity is crucial to my existence.

Www.Steven Wilson relations.com is my current website.  My online offerings are also on Amazon.

Today’s episode is based on Halloween and a few guys in group take on safety in modern America.

One of the guys in group got abused on Halloween by a man passing out candy.  this started the discussion about the changes society put in place to protect kids today from danger.  These things were not happening when I was young.

I also speak about the concept of life as a masquerade party.

this is not new, but my take on “costumes” on Halloween versus the “costumes” people wear the rest of the year.

In the Halloween spirit my reading is from HP Lovecraft “The shadow over Innsmouth”.

Today’s episode is again taken from group therapy and how two members are dealing with medication changes as well as dealing with the reality of being called patient even out of hospital.

America doesn’t treat mental illness with the same vigor or acceptance of physical or biological illness.  this reality is a harsh one indeed.

Coping with this business model is beyond confusing for most as you universal definition plays itself out in regards to being “mental patient”.  This confusion makes modes of treatment and the attainment of “being cured” beyond us all.

This episode is for my people: The Mentals.

Today’s episode is about my birthday and how I celebrate things.

The reading is from 1948 “Lost Son” by Theodore Roethke .  I read parts 4 and 5 this time.

I speak about how death and funerals have changed my view of myself and society in America.  I speak on virtue and other valuations taken into consideration for a life lived as well as funerals being more for the attendee rather than the deceased.


I speak about grief being about gratitude for sharing a life with the deceased.

Happy Birthday to all of You!!!