Part one of a two-part conversation with Heather Tracy on memories of child sexual abuse, meeting satanic ritual abuse survivors, a minefield of memories, dysregulation & internal emergency, trauma & libido in a marriage, traumatized masculine meets traumatized feminine, hooks of the masters, Heather’s Texan ancestors, Eastern Star Masonry, meeting her abuser, being groomed at age ten, dangerous charisma, an inner circle of esoteric intelligentsia, Journey to Ixtlan & sorcery, dried abortion blood, parental complicity, a demonic controller, Vulcovich the mother-slayer, a demonic controller, the threat of murder, a notorious artist & charming transgressor, a gift of grey horse, the creation of a monstrance.

Heather's site: https://thicketworks.com/

Songs: “Knob Wobbler,” by Gib Strange; "Elsie Paroubek" & "Sideways"  by Little Teeth; “Manic,” by Kirk Pearson & Julia Egan.

Return conversation with Gib Strange, on writing the diary of an incel, gaining power through powerlessness, the pathos of Travis Bickle, the tragedy of unexpressed  libido, when two heads meet, self-help satire, toxic masculinity, high-status homosexuality, manufactured celibacy, shaping their species, shaping the species via controlled breeding, Spermageddon, gay frogs, Kek chaos magik, 4Chan & masturbating incels, critical voices in the head, back in uncanny valley, depersonalization & loneliness, sexual fantasy vs social reality, a paralyzed anima, mind control in nature, packaging for popularity, theory of public mind, right & left hemispheres of the public, Fabian socialism, opposition demographics, why socialism is a problem, a market base of involuntary celibates, knowing the enemy, non-player characters, Bill Marr grey-face, meme warfare, right-left polarity, dehumanization & video game culture, ideological possession, new puritanism, individualism & collectivism, when lesbians becomes TERFs, in-fighting among the left, the democratic principle, Trump party hijacks postmodernism, weapons against the left, thinking & feeling, The End of sex, the inaccessible libido, mother-bonded men, dating site for incels, womensplaining, the origin of Freddy Krueger, programmed pathology, shaved pubic hair & pedo culture, anal sex promotion, butt stuff, gender neutral “genitalia”, life hole & death-hole, species suicide, 3rd wave feminism as the erasure of feminism, the loneliness of a digital crowd, surrounded by simulacra, voluntary celibacy, the infertility goddess, a million semen, manipulation or temptation, a biological possession, instincts override, using porn, an impersonal agenda, the MacGuffin behind the MacGuffin, satiety vs. satisfaction, post-coital tristesse,  Zen sex, aging & libido, trauma-hijacked libido, ego frustrations, cheating to get free of being under control, knob wobbler.

Gib's site. 

Gib's theory of masturbation (the Infertility Goddess)

Songs: “Knob Wobbler," by Gib Strange; “Nothing Left,” by Brown Bird; "Primitive" by the Groupies; "Say What You Will" & “These Words Are Yours,” by Hazelwood Motel

Return conversation with Charles Upton, on electromagnetic spirits, the psychic mine-fields around Alexander Dugin, Putin’s berserker, poaching traditional metaphysics, postmodernism’s egregious contradictions, schismogenesis, symptoms of a split, traditional metaphysics as cure, Richard Spence & the Alt-Right, grasping for the ground, celebrating diversity, trashing Islam, who’s behind who?, dark spiritual forces, a question men have always asked, Dorothy Parker, nine truths to smuggle one lie, a parasite on truth, Dugin’s negative identity, inverting divine truth, high-level rationalizations, Crowley’s left-hand path, replacing God with chaos, Heidegger & the death of Logos, a coalition of chaos, when irony tyranny steps in, Stalin’s Friendship of the Peoples redux, a praxis of magic, exploiting demons, chaos magic, Austin Spare, postmodern magic, a new mutation of liberalism, the Borg, from classical to cultural Marxism, the pathologos, the goal of disembodiment, the Gnostic analysis, denial of immanence, cybersphere, a world of images, Elon Musk’s space shuttle to Mars, the compendium of all heresies, the Lucifer ruse, the traumatic blueprint, veils between us & God, the mercy of the latter days, God’s apocalyptic love, the little logoi, the reification of the idea of the world, getting free from ideology, ideological gang warfare, Frithjof Schuon, hippies communes, peeling away the layers of the world, seeking a concrete way via major religions, the limits of traditional metaphysics, Buddhism & the denial of the absolute, the divine frequency, the eternal reality of the sexes, what women want, Victorian morality reborn through liberal sex politics, the body’s wisdom, guided by lover, Dugin’s ethnic love, Husserl & the horror of eternity, appealing to the disempowered, Russians wounded pride, the new cold war, the true oligarchs revealed, Trump & the fall of the Empire, Red Ice, challenge to Dugin, the peoples of the sea vs. the peoples of the land, Leviathan & Behemoth, the Book of the Apocalypse, a mercantile empire, the Beast overthrowing Babylon, Rene Guénon ’s Sign of the Times, the Yugas, the psychic residues of the archetypes, embodying the Beast, living in the matrix, the ordeal of mercy, Dugin & Strieber as mirrors, thanking the darkness, the greatest illusion, born in the worst times, handbook for the end times.

Charles' site

Charles' YouTube channel

Songs: “Slouching Towards Bremen” by Geoff Berner; ” Fire” by Nate Maingard; "High Seas"  by Trailer Bride; “May We Die in Peace” by Greg Houwer; “These Words Are Yours,” by Hazelwood Motel

This one just for Spanish speakers