Isn’t life lived mostly in the meadows? Sometimes we hit high peaks in the mountains, sometimes we’re in a blue valley, but most of the time life is lived on an even keel for me now.

It’s hard to be ordinary, isn’t it? It’s hard to live in constant pain and it’s hard to live in the plains of life.

When you live with chronic abuse, you get addicted to the highs of the chaos. Don’t take that to mean that I liked the abuse, but the level of constant churning drew me in. Time and time again I found myself living out the riddle of the abuse cycle.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://prisonerbynocrimeofmyown.com/2021/08/04/the-meadows/