Questioning my sharing of the numbers in my divorce story based on the fact that it might be a stumbling block to others

An idea for helping youth to desire a relationship with God using their favorite celebrity as an example

Using an illustration of Ricky Carmichael and Kelly Slater to help reach youth to desire God

The temptation to look at other women came on strong again during a time when I was feeling sick

Knowing Laura is at the local venue where I first met her and resisting the temptation to get ahead of God in this

Commentary about seeing Laura with a beer and how disappointed I was

Revelation on Heb 12 "for the joy set before Him" is actually partly about us, his bride.

The Lord gives me insight about not sharing the numbers yet in the main part of my story

More insights on seeing pride in my heart

Seeing the wonderful wisdom of God to continually hold me back and keep my waiting

My mother questions if I could be in violation of Jesus' command not to cause little children to stumble, by doing what I'm doing with my own children

Commentary: Discerning a counterfeit. How similar I am to David Koresh and what are the differences between my faith and his?

It's okay, to be not okay. Thoughts on weakness in the body and when it has nothing to do with your spiritual condition.

Commentary on sickness and how it has been a larger blessing to many of God's most blessed saints than even health has

Realizing my men's Bible study tonight was done in my own strength and realizing how I can't do anything apart from the Spirit's enabling

God shows me a 701 (Proverbs 7:1) right in the moment during the Bible study where I was struggling to remember where certain verses where

Dream about flimsy tri-pod at the beach that I could not get to stand up no matter how hard I tried. Then realizing I had been trusting in myself during the Bible study, not in the Spirit of Christ.

Two very timely donations of $100 that blesses me to keep going

A commentary about forgiveness for a woman who is teaching a Bible study and asked for my input.

Realizing a growing temptation to pride and self exaltation in the fruit which God is producing in my ministry and life.

Feeling weak in flesh and vulnerable in my spirit and realizing I need to be on guard

Commentary about the power of the Spirit to overcome the weakness of sickness

Faith must go far beyond feelings

I'm noticing an increasing amount of spiritual attacks from my efforts in the ministry

Seeing an increase in energy and joy for ministry work even though my circumstances are not changing at all

Perseverance is the key to the Christian life...keep going...keep trusting

Gustavo's small group serves an old man who felt condemned because he doesn't speak in tongues, the day after I made a message about this exact thing

Recognizing the small Providences of God to confirm my work and messages and bring about His will in my life

Shocked to discover that the Alpha course has embraced the terrible false teacher John Wimber from the "Vineyard Movement"

The Deuteronomy 13 test of believers with false prophets

How compromise on the word in small ways which lead us to big ways

A very hard talk with my children about my not being able to come for a visit and the slander that their grandfather is speaking against me

Commentary about God not answering my prayers about the children

Helping my children understand that my issue that is preventing me from seeing them is not willingness or desire, it is ability.

My daughter Chelsea asks me how I know that God is speaking to me

I will be kicked out of my parents house in two months and I have such peace right now

Incredibly timely lessons from a Charles Stanley Devotion on faith which gave me so much encouragement

Noticing more and more contentment regarding all my desires

My financial circumstances are still so bleak, but I see that a few people are being moved to help me in accordance with Galatians 6:6

My subscribers are really blessed by the quality of my videos, but my subscribers are growing very slowly

Having to be VERY careful not to take my eyes off of Jesus and put them back on my circumstances so that I do not start to sink

Commentary about how we are strengthened in our unbelief when we attempt to deliver ourselves rather than waiting on God for deliverance

Commentary about how God is using his judgments like Coronavirus the same way he did with Pharaoh, to harden their hearts, preventing them from being able to come to repentance in Revelation 16

Feel the fear of having to tell my children that I cannot come and see them again for Spring Break

The fear I felt of disobeying God after reading Numbers 14

A very encouraging meeting with a widower at church named Dwight

Commentary: Notice how God ramps up the guidance when my temptation is the highest

Commentary: How you can see Father's meaning in all this with the example of Him showing me 622 and 801 back to back

Oswald Chambers says you know your obedience has been made complete when you obey regardless of the circumstances

A single's Bible study meeting makes me conscience of the fact that people praise me and it begins to really bother me

I realize this is a test for me during this time when I have nothing else that works in my life

Father warns me again with a 666 and 15 min later I receive a very nasty email from my ex-wife about my video to the children

God gives me more and more light on the deep work He does during long periods of waiting

The strong desire I have to be with my adorable children

Realizing God is making sure I am mature and complete lacking nothing through all this waiting

Capturing what it feels like to have wavering faith for so long

Reasoning through my doubts against the Sovereignty of God

The goal of God is to make me more like Jesus Christ and that comes through suffering.

Answering the question: "Is God who He says He really is?"

Sometimes I'm afraid to admit my weariness to the Lord

Even if I have heard from God wrong, I know by faith He will use all of this for my good

Remembering to ask is anything too difficult for the Lord?

The comfort I have found from journaling my thoughts all these years

The tears I cry over how hard waiting on God in this way with my children has been

Major marks of the true Christian is a striving to enter the narrow gate, a sense of persevering in your faith, and no thirst for things in the world.

Some reconciliation with my two close friends that were mad at me

I hear an alarming message from John MacArthur where he says that the Lord has never spoken to him outside of the Bible

I become increasingly frustrated with not being able to find a "church" after attending a local John MacArthur Grace Community Church

Finding it so difficult to fit my walk with the Lord that I'm enjoying back into one of these "Churches"

Starting to realize I'm not going to see the children for Spring Break either as the Lord continues to show me 919 and have received so little

Realizing the difference between devotion time and study time and how study time cannot replace devotional time

The transformation in my heart is still the greatest evidence I have that God is with me and that I have heard from Him correctly

Feelings of inadequacy came over me as I saw the video of another minister when I still only have 100 subscribers. Then I took it to the Lord and became thankful for my little ministry

Realizing how much one soul is worth times eternity

My mother brings me a devotion that says false teachers don't respect authority and connects that to me

The timing of the attacks are fascinating to me and cannot be coincidence

Sensing a new gentleness and joy as I made videos in the woods

Charles Stanley teaching on all true Christians have a supernatural faith in a supernatural God and expect big things from God

My faith continues to be so shaky and my circumstances financially are still so bleak

My faith is wavering as I consider that I might not be able to go get my children again and I'm afraid of what they will think and others will think about it

Expressing my frustrations as I feel so beat down and so tired and so hurt by all the death to self

The only thing that is working in my life is my faith in God

Realizing that right now the most important thing I can do is to keep my faith strong NO MATTER what it takes

Realizing how much my health issues are negatively impacting my faith

The sad story about Chelsea crying after the Grandmother ridicules her choice to put a picture of she and I in her photo album as the opening pic

Commentary: Resisting the temptation to deliver yourself and instead remaining patient to wait for God to act on your behalf

Realizing I'm being disobedient by distracting myself from the pain of memorizing the teachings of Jesus Christ

God speaks to me a most providential time showing me 7:01 "keep my words"

I now have a better understanding about how Job felt about his "friends"

My mother comes to me and asks if I possibly have an evil spirit leading me

My former pastor tells my mother, "Michael's not only wrong, he's dead wrong"

The people who mock me are all people who have never taken up their cross and fully surrendered themselves to God

Cute recordings of my 6 year old twins Ashley and Kaley reciting a Bible verse from memory and singing a song

The pain of being without my children

Reasoning out the idea that I'm violating the passage in Timothy 5:8 that says a man who doesn't provide for his immediate family is worse than an unbeliever

Realizing that Father has ordered this situation for me to break me from the strong ability in me of "self-sufficiency"

Realizing that I'm experiencing death to self

My faith has now become weaker than at any point in the past year

I'm careful not to share my situation with anyone behind me in faith so as not to cause them to stumble over what God is doing with me and the suffering I'm going through

Wrestling with my natural disposition and my desire to be gentle

How God has used this difficult time to create a strong desire in me to pay child support even though I will be doing so to an evil person who won't likely use much of it to benefit the children

Pride is so much deeper than I have ever imagined and fighting for humility is much harder than fighting from humility

My children asking for gifts brings such sadness to my heart knowing I have not even a dollar to send them

Realizing that I'm not as mature in my faith as I have thought I am and that I have much to learn and grow in order to survive this dark world coming upon us. I have much maturing to do

This difficult faith and waiting journey is SO much longer than we ever think

What kind of value can I place on the heart work Father is doing on me through all this suffering?

The lowest a man can go is to the place of not being able to provide for his own beloved children

God uses a passage in a John Piper book at the book store for a timely encouragement for me to persevere

Having to help two ladies whose son's are struggling with mental issues

I receive a scathing email from the wife of my once good friend, whose birthday party I refused to attend because members of my old church were attending and our relationship is officially separated

Unwilling to compromise what I believe to be the truth for ANY family or friends

A person can look so very godly on the outside and still be so very deceived upon closer look

A powerful message and encouragement from Charles Stanley

Jesus Christ is not a belief system, but our Lord

Commentary: You will refute every tongue that accuses you and receive vindication from the Lord

An increasing awareness that I'm fighting for the strong faith of others in God, not just mine or my children's

My desire to be a type of modern day "George Muller" to strengthen the faith of believers today

Obeying God like this is terrifying at times

Thoughts on others comparing the providence of God in my life to the providence of God in their life

I've never doubted God, but only whether I've heard from Him correctly or not

You have to stop "discerning" things based on how you feel

More doubts about my faith in the face of increasing pressure and criticism about my decision to distance from my friends

The blessing of being called to the hospital in an emergency to pray for a friend's wife and baby born in distress

The blessing of being used by God to love and serve others.

Crying my eyes out after the Lord speaks to clearly to me Numbers 9:19 in an amazing way, after crying out desperately needing to hear from him

The nightmare I had of being on stage and not able to find a verse that I quote to the church. God gave this to me to motivate me to keep memorizing the Scripture

I'm becoming a problem for many people. Many are talking about me, and yet I have NOTHING and am so insignificant. This is just like Jerusalem

How my mother is using Scripture, pretending to be interested in my opinion, to try to draw me into a conversation so she can show me that I'm wrong

This incredible contentment coming to me regarding Laura has been so amazing

Receiving contentment is the same things as receiving your heart's desire

More insights on waiting on God and growing in my faith

A recording about how quickly I can fall back into doubt even after God showed me that extraordinary 9:19 as as sign

The neat way God used the InTouch Ministries Magazine to encourage me again at a very specific place

God has been using me to help people who are going through worse things than me just not being able to pay child support yet

My mother uses a C.S. Lewis teaching to say that I am wrong and misguided