My mother uses the Bible to try to pressure me into her thinking after reprimanding me for getting mud on her $1,000 rug

Incredible example of God's encouragement to me while I'm listening to a Charles Stanley message and talking about God delivering me with a timely 555

An opportunity to explain to my mother all the reasons why I believe the Rock church is wrong comes up after she judges me harshly for not going to my friends party because church members will be there

Commentary: Discerning the counterfeit, the swimming pool dream and the extreme external pressure from others to accept their counterfeit faith

Commentary: The counterfeit of being "slain in the Spirit"

Having a severe moment of doubt that I have heard from God correctly.

LAUGHING COMMENTARY: The letter from John Berridge to a minister in the 1700's which just has me laughing out loud.

Revelations on waiting for God and realizing it's truly about the journey, not the destination

Walking with God is the highest goal of the Christian life

To others my life looks like I have been smitten by God because they are looking at my circumstances, my outward life

Listing the changes I see in my heart like the fact that I no longer fear men or desire their praise

Message to my children about the true evidence of knowing God and walking with Him

The longer the waiting period the more your faith is being tested and the stronger it will be and the sweeter will be the deliverance

The word of the Lord has been testing me until it comes to past just like with Joseph in Psalm 105:19

When God gives you a promise..HE WILL bring it to pass!

Waiting upon the Lord is one of the most important principles God has been teaching me

Obedience brings immediate suffering not immediate blessing

Living in purity and denial of self will cause much suffering

Lessons on temptation, sin, forgiveness from God and forgiveness of self

Teaching my children how to study the Bible with a focus on learning how God has dealt with those who have gone before us

Another very bizarre dream about Laura where I see her but I cannot find her

Revelations on contentment and how much simpler my life has become as I've grown in contentment

Worship is for God, not for us...most large churches have good music

Lust of the eyes lessons from a beautiful woman at Starbucks

See 1055 again after praying about the divorce court story

Glorious fruit in spite of the fact that my circumstances are still so bad. Indeed I have become poor while others are becoming rich

Not willing to compromise and attend a party with my former close friends because so many from my old church will be there.

Asking the Lord to please give me guidance after mom tells me I only have 90 days until they are kicking me out.

Crying through my doubts and reasoning out my faith that God has been speaking to me by numbers and that I'm not deceived

Realizing even Gideon had to ask for a sign three times in order to know that it was the Lord speaking to him.

Feeling so alone in my experience...there is no one who can validate this experience I'm having except God.

Example after example from Scripture that shows God asking me to walk into contradictory circumstances which make no sense at all

Asking the question, "If I keep going like this, just how strong will my faith be one day?"

Commentary: "Are you living by faith?"

Father shows me another significant 777 and 1055 (Psalm 105:5), without me realizing the court papers are going to arrive the next day.

The papers came in, but for the first time, there is not sickness or queezy feelings in my stomach. There is a much higher faith here now.

Commentary about seeing life circumstances and God's promises through the eyes of faith, not the eyes of human understanding

Realizing how much the perseverance through the suffering has shaped and changed my character

The greatest evidence that God is with me, is not in my circumstances, but in seeing how much I have changed

February 14th, 2014, the day I opened the letter from divorce court to see a total reversal of the Glorious judgment God made in my favor.

My thoughts on how my faith is being tested through this experience

The test of Elijah has come to me…something He gave life to at once, has now died

Amazed that God has allowed me to stand under such a blow like this

Two men with the church want to meet with me to talk about why I left and I see the very subtle deception they are in

Revelation about forgiveness: When it's hard for a person to forgive, they haven't yet heard or understood the True Gospel

A bold prayer to Father to show me He is with me financially

A change in the way I teach

Reflections on my talk to a large group of elderly Baptist women from ages 60-80

The negative thoughts that filled my heart after the ladies gave me $50 after my sermon and how Satan used it to create doubt that I could ever afford to serve the Lord

Reading a certain book by Joshua Harris caused me to become a bit anxious about moving forward with the woman I was waiting for

Such a gigantic test of my faith when Father tells me to remember the wonders He has done and yet the biggest one (court victory) has been reversed by Satan

Father is testing and building my faith at a whole new level with this trial

Commentary on the highest faith in the Bible and how God was working into my the faith of Job

Commentary on God doing another part of my marriage story in two years to the day and how to know God's will about moving forward

God is giving me the ability to take these offenses as water on a duck's back

Praying and asking for Father to move on someone's heart to give to my work so I can regularly pay my child support

God is filling me with so much hope by the Scriptures He is showing me and they are all causing me to expect a spectacular restoration

Blessed is the man whose confidence is in Him! I am crying out for God to bring so much glory through my life

Commentary about my hoping someone would donate $50k to bail me out and how I'm so thankful the Lord never let that happen now

The real cost of faith and living the blessed life

Isolated and Alone, but NOT lonely

Thoughts on childlike faith and humility as I prepared to teach a gathering of elderly ladies as a local Baptist Church

A very emotional recording about how much I love Him and how much I know people are missing out on this!

My circumstances have been so flat for so long that I can't get into my mind that God could turn this all around?

The Deep anguish I feel reflecting on how long it has been that the Lord has made me deny myself by not allowing me to provide for my own children

How hard it is for me to believe God could be speaking Mark 1:11 over me

My motive is not to hurt others, because I love them, but I am willing that other be hurt by defending the truth and sound doctrine

Blessed are the peacemakers, but NOT at the expense of the truth

What I see that is worse than abortion

The irony I see of the Catholic position on abortion

Another difficult day where I cry out to Father for help and guidance and He sends encouragement with James 5:11, 1001 and 955

Feeling temptations to hope one of these elderly ladies will donate money to my ministry at a church meeting I'm speaking at soon

Capturing again how easily it is for me to become discouraged by my ministry results after looking at the small number of 10 video views on my latest video.

Realizing I'm also frustrated because I'm on my 3rd day of no carbs

The struggles I feel in my singleness and seeing other woman when I'm out

How Father opened my eyes to the need for diligent study of the word of God BEFORE I teach something

Father seems to be showing me again that He will deliver me and I just need to keep trusting Him

God gives me a double confirmation of "Go in peace...your faith has healed you." by showing me back to back 848 and 922

The astonishing timing of Satan's attacks through my mother again

Struggling to listen to my mother as she relates a near death experience that I believe is totally false

My mother accuses me of being all about myself as we talk about truth and error

Commentary about disunity between Christian talkers and walkers

The lesson learned of "I should have just walked away" rather than engaging someone who Satan has taken captive

The Lord has restored my peace as I just stood and waited on Him

Reflecting back on my over zealousness and how I have misheard God and gotten too excited at times and gotten ahead of Him

It's humbling to listen to old recordings and hear of my weakness

Feeling God is encouraging me with 212 regarding my future wife

Realizing several people will be discouraged about God using numbers to speak to me

There is a high cost to pay in order for God to speak to you

The lesson of Jacob -- I'm Not letting go of God until He blesses me

The more you hold on to God, the less of you there will be

The story of why I'm leaving my church

How God used John MacArthur and the book Strange Fire to open my eyes to the other side of theology

I finally got my driver's license after about 90 days of waiting

Realizing God intentionally quarantined me to teach me and "unteach" me many things

God uses me in a divine encounter with the driver's license clerk

Father keeps showing me numbers ending in 55, many of which point to Scriptures telling me I will one day testify of His faithfulness with shouts

Seeing the Romans 8:28 in the fact that without having a phone and driver's license for many months, God has worked a greater level of contentment in my heart

God showing me 919 many times suddenly and I begin to wonder what God is trying to warn me about

Very strong commentary of indignation against my former pastor and mega church and all mega churches