The most frustrated and weary I've been...yelling out to God for relief in all areas

Satan attacking my ministry efforts...questioning why I am even doing all this work

Doubting everything and realizing why it is so easy for some people to commit suicide

The tearing down and shaking of everything is making me so weak and weary and yet I have evidence in my heart that my heart is still changing for Christ

God gloriously answers my prayer for encouragement and also has someone give me a $100 bill

Satan attempts to offend me again right after a blessing, just as always

God's mercies are indeed NEW everyday

Thankfulness for the hard truth being preached at this new church I'm attending

Amazing 777 providential signs from the Lord to encourage me to remember His promises to defend me in the court

Lessons I see from Gideon's life which are taking place in my life right now

Reflecting back on the spiritual journey that has brought me to this place of having God's guidance like this

Commentary on Spiritual adultery and purity of heart

I'm still holding on to God, not matter what the outcome is. I choose to believe He is still in control and still aware of all that is happening to me

God shows me the number 1255

What happened when I tried to watch 5 hours of TV in one day, just to rest from my studies

Backslider commentary refuting Charles Stanley's teaching that you can be in a backslidden state when you die and still go to heaven

Feeling my "functional faith" weakened by the fiasco of breaking away from my "church" and trying to find out who is right

God leading me with Luke 11:33 to share with others what I've been learning about the Charismatic movement, etc.

The principle of tearing down in order to build up

The bloody eye dream about Laura

Commentary about the dream and about God using Laura

The Lord keeps telling me to memorize the teachings of Jesus Christ and how I'm struggling with that

The lesson of George Muller to "NOT" work a deliverance for myself which will develop unbelief

The suffering that continues as God tells me to continue to wait for Him to act on my behalf

More confirmation with Chris that God is telling me to stay away from the Charismatic church and to stay the course

The morning I had nothing short of a spiritual panic attack as Satan attacks my mind about my leaving the church, my difficult circumstances and people all turning against me

Feeling overwhelmed and wearied by all of this learning and knowing I must take a break from it all

Feeling so discouraged when I see that New Agers are seeing some of the same numbers I am

Feeling so confused and upset that I'm crying out to God for mercy

I'm burning inside my spirit with indignation towards the false teachers of Charismatic Madness

Spiritual confusion as I get so upset after hearing Charles Stanley teach you can get saved, backslide, stay backslidden, and still be saved.

My pleading with God for understanding with my struggles to understand the two extremes between the Charismatics and John MacArthur

Everything we have in our life before coming to Christ, God sees it all as coming from our previous lover, the world. This is why God demands our full surrender so that there are no other Lord or lovers competing for our heart

Insights of how Father feels about us, from the earthly illustration of marriage

My anger towards the fact that so many people believe in this false gospel among so many Charismatics

Another message to my children about what I've learned about discerning people, spirits and the Truth

Commentary on discerning both the kindness and sternness of God in His messenger

I receive the terrible news of a total reversal from the divorce court

Michael Commentary

God told me I could trust Him and I didn't have to go to the court

He keeps showing me 1055 (Psalm 105:5) which I have to do by faith

Went to God in my fear, and put into practice my faith

I encouraged myself with Scriptures and then the supernatural peace of God came after only 4-5 minutes

Again these are circumstances that contradict the promise. It looked like they were able to turn God's hand back.

Satan tempting me to wonder if I have done something wrong to lose God's favor in this

The temptation to quickly save myself and quit the ministry and take a job

All these years later, God has kept His promise...I have not been touched in any way, other than the parental alienation, which God allowed, by any of the things they put in the agreement.

You've heard the clip of my ex-wife even just on Nov 12th, 2019 court hearing saying, "for 10 years the court has done nothing."

It's time to pray...

God shows me 777 three times in 3 minutes after receiving the bad news from the court

My mother comes to me again and tries to pressure me again and God moves on my friends heart to call me at 9:19 am while she is talking to me

She again accuses me on not living what the Bible says because God has asked me to sit still

My faith is causing heart burn in Christians all around me

The incredible story of God taking me from sheer panic to total peace in under 5 minutes through prayer

Knowing God will deliver me because He said so, not because I simply hope so.

The long email I sent to my pastor after my mom went and asked him to please help me because she felt I had a mental illness

I am all alone in my faith, but I am not giving up on God. I am going to trust Him steadfastly

A message to my children about how to discern if you are in the true will of God and how to discern the criticism and concerns of others

Wrestling with all my thoughts and experiences about the "Prophetic" gifts in the body of Christ

Realizing one of my vulnerabilities has been how I "felt" about many things

Seeing the "Lordless" gospel

Realizing the truth and joy about being a "slave" to Christ

Wondering about why God has chosen to communicate to me using numbers that point to Scriptures

Commentary on the amazing Guidance of God as promised in the Scriptures

My increasing hatred towards sin and frustration that so many others in "church" continue to live in it

Sadness of the fact that I have so easily believed lies which men have taught me

Revelations on the dangers of chasing the "experiences" or "power" of God

God is not the one who puts "Gold teeth" in people's mouths

A tough 24 hours and realizing it is all coming from God

So thankful God is opening my eyes and how much my heart is changing

Affliction continues as my mom goes and has a meeting with my old pastor to talk about my "mental illness" and try to get him to help me

My studies of the N.A.R. (New Apostolic Reformation) are showing me this is all a counterfeit from Satan

I come across a website about numbers and that the number 555 is evil

Short commentary warning again about seeing numbers

God gives me 1001, 10ll and 511 promises.

I am either the most delusional person I've ever met, or the most blessed. Only time will tell.

The sinful nature rails against this kind of faith in God...it always remains an atheist

Proof that the numbers I see are God's divine guidance to me through His word

Commentary on the only path to spiritual abundance and life to full in Christ, Psalm 66:10-12

My circumstances as a Christian are exact opposite of what everyone else desires in their life

I know by experience what Paul means when he said "I no longer live...Christ Jesus lives in me."

Looking forward to dying in Christ

My walk with Christ will one day be proof of God's goodness to my children

God speaks and gives guidance to those who fear Him

A tough 24 hours and realizing it is all coming from God

So thankful God is opening my eyes and how much my heart is changing

Affliction continues as my mom goes and has a meeting with my old pastor to talk about my "mental illness" and try to get him to help me

My studies of the N.A.R. (New Apostolic Reformation) are showing me this is all a counterfeit from Satan

I come across a website about numbers and that the number 555 is evil

Short commentary warning again about seeing numbers

God gives me 1001, 10ll and 511 promises.

I am either the most delusional person I've ever met, or the most blessed. Only time will tell.

The sinful nature rails against this kind of faith in God...it always remains an atheist

Proof that the numbers I see are God's divine guidance to me through His word

Commentary on the only path to spiritual abundance and life to full in Christ, Psalm 66:10-12

My circumstances as a Christian are exact opposite of what everyone else desires in their life

I know by experience what Paul means when he said "I no longer live...Christ Jesus lives in me."

Looking forward to dying in Christ

My walk with Christ will one day be proof of God's goodness to my children

God speaks and gives guidance to those who fear Him

God confirms my judgment of the rotten fruit among Charismatics through a book.

A wonderful example of how Father answers my prayer to refresh my spirit with a special email

The exhaustion of all this new study regarding cessastionists vs continuists. I see that there has to be a breaking down before there can be a building up.

More explanation why God is leading me to leave the Charismatic church

The willingness to put all that I believe about God and the Holy Spirit on the table before the Lord

See Luke 11:11 warning (not yet knowing what he is telling me) and then a Gal 5:25 and Numbers 9:19 warning to stay put right as my mom comes at me with more pressure to move off of waiting for God

My two favorite ministers at this time are Charles Stanley and John MacArthur but I'm not yet sure if John believes God will speak to you personally outside of His word like Charles and I do.

Seeing how people can go to seminary and lose the Lord. Study is not sitting in His presence.

Talk with my daughter Chelsea about my faith after her grandfather creates doubt in her mind about God speaking to me and directing to me

Commentary on the absolute need for prayer

God leads me to Jeremiah 17:5-8 and shows me how this curse applies to those deceived in the Charismatic movement

More revelations about how I was being sucked into the Charismatic movement and why it's so easy to get sucked in and so hard to leave

The Anatomy of a False Prophecy and Discerning a False Prophet

Many many thoughts about tongues, signs miracles and wonders

The call to real Holiness by the Authentic Holy Spirit

Realizing the Bible is a means to an end. Do you have the END?

The difference between justification and sanctification and the absolute need for sanctification if one wants to be saved

What true saving faith really looks like

Healing video mentioned in this video: CLICK HERE 

Another terrible demonic attack in my dreams as I'm learning about the counterfeit deceptions of the Charismatic movement

My faith goes through a MAJOR shaking as I continue to read the book Strange Fire and am confronted by the opposite of what I have been starting to believe.

Revelations about Reinhard Bonnke and him being a false prophet

Many insights about false prophets and false prophecy that the Lord is opening my eyes to

The contradiction between the gift of tongues and the lack of holiness in the lives of the "tongue" speakers

The connection I see between the people who are drawn to Charismatic churches and the people who are drawn to Network Marketing or MLM

The courage to stand up for the truth in my church, no matter how people turn against me

True love doesn't look the other way. True love speaks up and warns others

If the fruit of Christ is not seen in the people in a church, what spirit is at work?

Preparing myself to have to confront my church family about my new understanding rather than compromising and saying to myself, "I'm just being fanatical"