An incredible encounter with a 22 year old Autistic boy at Starbucks

An illustration that breaks self-pity in the hearts of those hurting

An inexpressible glorious joy has come upon me that is just indescribable as I'm filled to overflowing with the Holy Spirit

I can now say I have found Hudson Taylor's spiritual secret

My old life proves that the man who loves money pierces himself with all kinds of grief

I am experiencing Psalm 66:12 now!

Many important insights about the joy I have now, laughing at all the destruction and reflecting on all the good reasons Father has made me wait for EVERYTHING

A spiritual attack comes after helping a young sister get out of bondage and all that I taught her on demonic attack was inaudible in the recording and then I have a dream about a woman

A message to a lady who sent me a check that I doubt was given by God, but by her emotions after I openly shared something with her in a recording

Realizing, regarding my work for the Lord, that there is still a part of me that desires my will more than God's

Father really is teaching me to work like Jesus in John 5:19, to only do what the Father asks me to do

Humor time: My reading of some choice Proverbs in an English accent

The idea for a future project called "The School of Suffering" (Incidentally, I have started this project but it has taken me 4 years to finish the other work Father gave me to finish first)

The India documentary called "Blood Brother" that blessed me so much with a picture of how Father wants me to help others as "children" and "orphans"

Amazed by the compassion Father has given me for those who have really messed up their lives

God is giving me such clarity in my ministry about who I'm to help and how

Finding the books Streams in the Desert in a box after 10 years and how God used it the day I found it for such wonderful confirmation about the work He has been doing in me

While praying for a brother in crisis named Jesse, the Lord interrupts my prayer and gives me a specific word for him, which He confirms was exactly what he needed to see

It becomes clear that God is answering my prayers to give me "Bread from heaven" to give to his hungry hurting children

A lady working in a bar and trying to find life to the full in Christ shares what I'm teaching her with some of her customers at the bar

After fourth months of waiting on God He gives me solid confirmation that I am to sell the John 7:17 Challenge book to help provide for myself

A recording of reflections on my faith journey on the 6th Anniversary of my full surrender to God

The "words of faith" that corrupted my heart back in 2001 that caused me to make one of the most expensive and devastating decisions I have ever made

How I wish I would have had someone wise to teach me the importance of learning to wait on God

It is shocking and humiliating to look back and see how much God had to do to break me

Realizing this is the 1st day of the 7th year of my full surrender to Christ and perhaps the Lord is going to give me rest and promises fulfilled in this next year

I feel so drawn to the spiritually humble, broken and the lowly in the world, just as Father is

A story of extreme suffering that the Lord leads me to minister to

Reflecting on the amazing grace God has given me to live for so long not having any money

God continues to bless me and keep me encouraged to persevere and to wait for Him to act

PART 5

A recording of reflections on my faith journey on the 6th Anniversary of my full surrender to God

The "words of faith" that corrupted my heart back in 2001 that caused me to make one of the most expensive and devastating decisions I have ever made

How I wish I would have had someone wise to teach me the importance of learning to wait on God

It is shocking and humiliating to look back and see how much God had to do to break me

Realizing this is the 1st day of the 7th year of my full surrender to Christ and perhaps the Lord is going to give me rest and promises fulfilled in this next year

I feel so drawn to the spiritually humble, broken and the lowly in the world, just as Father is

Stopping short of sending a long message to this woman when the Spirit tells me to stay put and I realize that my motives are to solicit a response from her about her perceived interest in me

Revelations about the temptations I'm facing in the face of my desire for a godly wife and the long wait for her

I have been like Jacob, "the grabber" my whole life, just going after and grabbing all that I wanted

Another disgusting devil shows up in my heart...the devil of jealousy when I learn that a young woman I've been discipling is being spoken to by God with numbers the same way that I am...it was shocking

If we covet the grace in someone else's life we must also be willing to covet the price they paid to receive that grace

I have another divine encounter and prayer with Bill, the wealthy man on the hill, who told me years earlier he didn't know if it was God who blessed his life or the devil

The Lord blesses me so much to see my mother humbly receive a strong rebuke from me and she admits in the Bible study

A timely strike from Satan through my former best friend Corvin

The Lord shows me to let him go and no longer try to pursue a relationship with him

The incredible moment I turned around and saw Laura on television which keeps me from giving into the temptation of pursuing that other Christian sister

God confirms through a timely Andrew Murray teaching that God reveals deep truths unto babes, not the wise and learned

My contentment continues to grow as I wait for God

I see 919 (Num 9:19) four times in 18 hours but I don't yet know what the Lord is telling me to stay put on

A strong temptation comes on me to move back into doing ministry videos even though the Lord hasn't given me permission to do so yet

That hellish temptation comes upon me again to exalt myself "I already knew that"

I still have the capacity to think and do evil, but because of the Spirit of Christ I do not have to give voice to my sinful nature

Choosing to intentionally put down the sinful nature and walk according to the Spirit

My mother calls me and tells me about the most profound words she has ever heard before, which turn out to be words I wrote by the Spirit of Christ in John 7:17 Challenge

The Saint must walk alone by A.W. Tozer

More temptation comes to me when I meet another sister who truly loves Jesus Christ like I do

Commentary: NOT choosing by what we see with our eyes or ears, but by the Lord's guidance

Realizing I'm being tempted so easily in the area of women because NOTHING else is going in my life right now and I'm growing desperate for something to work

The hardest test I've had so far seems to be where God is telling me NOT to minister but instead to keep memorizing Scripture

Realizing that God is likely starting to slowly change the desire of my heart away from Laura, just like what Charles Stanley taught in God acts in behalf of the one who waits for Him Part 1

A debate with my mother about Christian Zionism

God shows me He is proud of me after I stood strongly for the truth in our debate

Reflecting on the fact that because I am so weak, I have asked the Lord hundreds of times to help me to see my life and things in this life from His perspective

It is so easy to fall into the trap of leaning on our own human understanding regarding the situations we face in life

Thoughts on my recent full Bible study on the subject of "Eternal Security" or Once Saved Always Saved

Strong temptation to think back and desire my "old" life after receiving an email from my friend, John Morgan, the President George Bush impersonator, who is now financially prospering after I referred him to Get Motivated seminars, the very opportunity I rejected.

Talking to the Lord about my feelings and telling him I have no regrets about the choice I made

The Pope came to Congress and preached a message in the spirit of Antichrist

Many revelations about the flesh, our spirit, and the Holy Spirit in the word of God

What the Bible actually teaches about our sin nature and our ability to live free from sin in Jesus Christ

A personal example that helps me to see the difference between my flesh and the Spirit

We can forget that we have a second godly nature...that of Jesus Christ which can help us to actually live like Him in those difficult moments

Perseverance brings spiritual maturity a leveling out of your heart and walk with the Lord

I see a spiritual stability filling my heart more and more after all this suffering

Realizing that there is something immature about my exclamations after a big blessing of God

Realizing there needs to be more sobriety in my temperament and more calm so I'm less susceptible to the emotional part of my life

An incredible instance of how much work God has done in my heart shows itself as I accidentally pull into a certain neighborhood that I so badly wanted to live in years ago

How amazing it is that God has strengthened to me to be able to stand in any circumstances

By waiting on God, you enter into relationship with God

Revelations about walking in the light or walking in the darkness

Another bad dream about Laura

My simple faith and joy is still missing and has been for months

Another temptation by a beautiful woman on the trail

I'm feeling sick of all this temptation that I'm now facing with women

Incredibly timed verses and encouragement in the face of temptation

Revelations on the temptation of Jesus

Incredible confirmation from Madame Guyon's story about why God has felt distant from me for several months

A review of my previous journal entries brings such an unexpected joy in my heart as I recall just how far God has brought me over these years

I finally feel the sweetness of the Lord return to me on September 21st 2015

A remarkable pray of faith to the Father for the grace to be able to experience fullness in both my relationship with Him and with my wife

A very encouraging dream about seeing my children

A terrible temptation and fear comes back to me about trying to take matters into my own hands legally in order to get my children back