Demonic dream about a giant dog walking in my bed and then he tries to steal my breath

God shows me this happens because I took off my breast plate of righteousness

The sister I Skyped with in London turned on me and said some really unkind things to me in email which later begin to cause me doubts

My faith is under attack again...I'm having to really fight and keep going...by the grit of my teeth

Fighting by remembering all that God has done for me in the past

A pastor I like at Starbucks invites me to his church and the Lord confirms in a dream for me not to go

A very fiery message about the dangers and deceits of carnal Christianity

An eye opening revelation and message to my parents about how we are all doing our part to take care of and "feed" spiritual food to spiritual widows and orphans

Many Scriptures which show God thinks primarily spiritual, not physical

Using the book Humility by Andrew Murray God has shown me another area where I have disgusting pride and it is very humiliating

Breaking down in tears at the disgust I feel towards my flesh and this pride after all I've been through

Realizing my pride is being driven by the subconscious fear of not having a big enough impact for God...the fear of not enough people taking my message about God seriously

My attempt to help a sister in England by doing a Skype call with her backfires

Wrestling with the question is it appropriate for me to minister to or have a conversation with the opposite sex

Commentary on why that was the last Skype or phone call I ever did with the opposite sex in the ministry

Asking a man who believes in Jesus, "How does God and the great cloud of witnesses know if you "believe" in Jesus?"

More pressure from my mother and a dream about trying to arrange to have my children for the Summer by contacting my ex-wife and essentially threatening legal action

Realizing even if God doesn't give me Laura, that He has arranged for her and her children to be prayed for for 2 years and 8 months so far

Two more wonderful divine encounters at Starbucks: A local pastor who wants to buy 10 books and a church leader from a large Baptist church who confirms exactly the problems I saw that caused me to leave.

Fervent prayer to the Lord to show me His financial support and to allow me to have the children this Summer...He then shows me Gen 6:22 that Noah did all that the Lord commanded Him

I'm feeling like I'm giving and giving and giving, but I am experiencing so little receiving, particularly in the area of finances. The pressure is building again

More frustration and pressure regarding my need to memorize more Scripture

The frustration of feeling so alone in my faith after attending a men's group at a local Baptist church

I feel I have to be skeptical to anyone who calls themself a Christian

Learning that the band Jesus Culture is a terrible Satanic deception leading many young people astray

I have a dream where a man says everyone knows that I'm the guy who tears down everyone and I take all the fun out of Christianity

After watching a documentary about the terrible false revival in Lakeland, FL and the terrible false prophet Todd Bentley God leads me to the passage in Hebrews about Jesus hating wickedness

A desperate but unanswered prayer for God to give me money so I can take care of single parent moms

Counting the real cost to have fullness in Jesus Christ

God shows me my wife of noble character will come after I finish the work

I find myself feeling negative every time I go to this Lowe Mill outdoor family concert venue

The dream about the dark warehouse where I'm looking for lights and they are all far away from me and each other

Commentary with more insights about the dream and posing a very interesting "What if" question about the possible good reason so many true Christians have been separated and isolated from one another in this day is to make it harder for Antichrist to find us when the time comes

The email I was sent from a pastor of a small church in Africa who after 33 days of prayer was given a vision about God's disdain for what we currently call the "Church"

An absolutely incredible example of how God used a sister in the Netherlands to confirm my convictions about Him being displeased with Pastors who come 99% of the way to the full truth of God's word and stop 1% short

Confronting lies, deception, lukewarmness, and error in others takes a great deal of courage, but God will give you the grace

My mother responds to my email about my allegations that her pastor is stopping short of the truth by suggesting I have a special call and burden to walk at a higher level than them

The spirit that cause a man to stop just short of telling people the whole truth comes not from God but Satan

The Lord shows me Proverbs 12:2 about a good man obtains favor from the Lord and then I hear Charles Stanley preaching "Noah found favor in the eyes of the Lord"

Rehashing the speaking voice and favor of the Lord in my life and why God is doing this with me

Walking with God and receiving his favor only comes by costly faith and obedience

What it means to have the presence of the Lord in my life

Examples of people who think they have surrendered their lives to God, but who haven't really

The principle of Jeremiah 17:5-8 and how it applies to so many people that contact me in trouble

Thoughts on the bitter sweetness of suffering

Commentary on the first of God's providences regarding India that will eventually connect me to Persis

The suffering of others who contact me can sometimes just break my heart and tear me up

The danger of Satan's counterfeit spiritual experiences (Egyptian Magicians)

The truth according to Jesus' is that Satan can "bless" your life and "answer" prayers

The fundamentals of the Christian faith which we should all be focusing on

The danger of comparing our spiritual gifts to the gifts to the gifts of others

A spiritual gift is not something you have to "practice" in order to receive

The tragedy of Satan making "Christians" envious of each other's gifts that aren't even real!

The whole matter comes down to testing the spirits and "recognizing a tree by its fruit"

When a deceived Christian is fighting against the discipline of God as if it were Satan attacking them

When you life and heart looks like a curse, it may very well be that you are under one

PARENTAL ADVISORY: Sexual topic discussed shortly

The frustration and hate I feel towards my desire when I meet an attractive young Christian woman at Starbucks

God answered my prayer in Starbucks to help me find a ladies missing keys

Continuing spiritual attack in the areas of sexuality and loneliness with women

Crying to Jesus over and over for help and God shows me 616 again (Ephesians 6:16) to take up the shield of faith

A timely and encouraging word from a Charles Stanley page that also quotes Ephesians 6:16 right after God had already showed it to me

Waiting for God in the area of a wife has been so painful

Commentary about why God allows this difficult suffering from temptation to keep occurring

Realizing I MUST put in boundaries with the women I have met at Starbucks like this lady Corrie the wedding planner

I sometimes believe the lie that because I'm still capable of being tempted I'm not godly

The battle intensifies and the suffering brings more tears as I continue to fight for what I believe is my promised wife Laura in the face of so much temptation

It takes such strong courage to keep waiting for God to act in your behalf

Realizing how much I need all this suffering for my character development in Christ

PARENTAL ADVISORY: Spiritual attack topic on sexuality

Commentary about breaking free from sexual sin

More spiritual attacks in my drinks with sexuality

My lamp shade is moved at night I believe by an evil spirit harrassing me

More insights and details about how Satan is attacking me in my sleep with sexual dreams

The real struggles I have faced sexually as a Christian man

A bold prayer to the Father about finally giving me my wife and the good reasons why He should consider giving her to me

God keeps showing me Job 5:22 in response to my prayers about "What does the Promised Land Look like for me?"

Father continues to confirm that He wants me to keep memorizing His word

The Lord keeps showing me 644 over and over Isaiah 64:4

Praying for book sales and one comes in right away to encourage me

Revelations on humility and being able to consider others better than you because we all start out with the same worthless jar

The more we empty out our jar and yield it to Jesus, the more grace we will receive

Those with more grace are simply "better off", not "better than"

To be filled with the Spirit, you have to be filled with the WORD!

You cannot earn the Holy Spirit, but you can make room for Him

God allows me to meet a new Christian sister who is a wedding planner and God seems to confirm several things in our meeting

PARENTAL ADVISORY: The first few minutes of this recording deal with the topic of sexual temptation

Satan tries to attack me again sexually with two dreams to try to get me to sin and violate my conscience right before I have to go into BATTLE in court the next day

The Lord is keeping me strong in preparation for walking on to the battlefield tomorrow and I'm actually looking forward to seeing what the Lord will do

A list of things I will tell the judge in order to answer for my situation

The need to consecrate yourself before you cross over the "Jordon"

What man that owes $25k in child support shouldn't lose his license or go to jail, and yet I know that I will not because I'm only in this situation because of the Lord's dealings with me and I have a promise

The night before court, I am so filled with joy and faith that I cannot even imagine something going wrong here tomorrow

Keeping my faith strong by remembering what God has done for me before and by clinging to promises in His word

A powerful prayer of faith before I got into the courtroom to do battle

God DID exactly what He promised me He would...He has delivered me once again!

Insights about crossing the Jordan in order to enter into the Promised Land

Still seeing lots of 919's

The balance between contentment and keeping your flame lit while you are waiting for a promise from God

So far, there is no sight of the Promised Land in my circumstances, but ONLY GIANTS

God again shows his faithfulness to me and gives me more grace in my sexual appetite

Insights about Law vs Grace from Alistair Begg on the radio

A big temptation comes at me today at Starbucks from an attractive woman

Looking up my old best friend on Facebook causes me to feel more darkness in my own situation

I have a huge battle to face on court in just a few days, but God is keeping me in total peace

I get great encouragement from reading Joshua 4:24, knowing God is telling me I will cross over this jordan river in Court on Monday

I get spiritually frustrated by Charles Stanley again saying "You cannot lose your salvation"

I know that I must fight the good fight of faith and I must do my part to abide in Christ or I will fall away

The whole journey of faith in the face of trials all comes down to this...YOU JUST KEEPING GOING...no matter what!

The enemy tries to tempt me again with sexual type dreams to get me into sin and violate my conscience the day before I go into this court battle

God has trained me to think of the consequences of sin before it happens