Noticing the Spirit has been giving me power to pray even when I'm tired as my desire for longer times in prayer is increasing

I have another terrible dream about Laura, when my mother runs into her at church

More inisghts about the spiritual warfare and even having faith in my dreams

Another time of seeing 919 three times

A message I made called "The World's Most Expensive Sex"

The unbelievable consequences of sin that Satan always hides from us in the moment

A tear filled journal entry about the most powerful prayers I have ever experienced in the face of the Job 5:22 promise

A new boldness in my prayer life has come...praying with power

Right after my powerful prayer regarding Job 5:22, a woman emails from the hospital and says my story reminds her of Job

Over sinus and health update and noticing that I don't get grouchy any more even in sickness because of the Spirit

When I'm tired and run down, it negatively effects by faith

Asking the question to test your faith, "If you died today and had to stand before Christ?"

Regarding my children: I'm just going to wait quietly for God to deliver me (Lam 3:24)

The kind of faith Father has given me looks absolutely insane to many "good" Christians around me

With only 6 days left until I have to appear before a judge about Child Support, I am still trusting God not matter what

A powerful statement from Charles Stanley on Waiting for God's Best

When well meaning Christians say, "If it were me, and I were you...this is what I would do."

The editor of Shattered Magazine talks to me about having a permanent column in the magazine but suggests I ramp up my "infastructure" to handle the possible load. I am uneasy about this

The Lord is showing me He is going to really bless me...keep seeing Promised Land

I sent my step-father a sermon by Martin Llyod Jones called "False Believer" and he becomes worried and wants to talk to me about it

A movie scene causes me to be tempted to put out a YouTube video telling of all the evil my ex-wife has done to me and my children

Spiritual energy (grace) follows a unique spiritual mission

The true Christian life is a life lived "Inside Out", not outside in

Commentary of God showing me 366 (Boaz marrying Ruth). Many times God shows us a passage or a promise for our life but we won't know what it really means until it comes to pass

Tempted again to get ahead of God and create my own deliverance and expose all the evil my ex-wife and her family have done

Remembering and reflecting on my failure to obey God back on my divorce trial and the consequences

Commentary about the attractive divorced woman on my street who murdered her two children and then killed herself

God is a God of justice, but not Instant Justice

My inbox stays at 919 (Numbers 9:19) for three straight days no matter how many emails come and go

I then receive an email from a man I met years earlier in the rainforest, asking me how much money I need to operate RelentlessHeart.com debt free

Resisting the temptation to build my ministry by the ways of man, so that I can prove you can trust in God by prayer and faith alone

Commentary on important principles on hearing the voice of the Lord as directed by the Spirit, rather than just what a verse or well-meaning Christians say you "should" do

The Lord shows me He is proud of me after I say no to the man who offers to raise money for me and promote the ministry

The Lord shows me that soon the fury of my "oppressor" (my ex-wife) will come to an end

A woman comes up to me in Starbucks and says she noticed I am speaking about God from my heart

Realizing I cannot force someone to surrender their life to God any more than God can

An example of how ugly it is to watch a professing Christian fight and squirm against their cross

The walk of death leads to the walk of life

An airplane illustration showing how poorly trained Christians are to handle crisis and how that creates even more crisis

An interesting idea for defending my faith to someone who says, "I don't believe in Jesus."

The Lord shows gives me some wonderful promises from Psalm 64 and 65 about "crowning" my year and bringing me into a place of "prosperity"

The Lord shows me Job 5:22 promising me that I will laugh at destruction

From Hebrews 10, Father shows me that if I shrink back from faith He will not be pleased with me

Acknowledging all the "giants" which are standing in the way of my taking the "promised land"

My circumstances scream, "There is NO Promised Land for you!"

God keeps showing me 717 (John 7:17) and gives me insight about how this applies to finding out His personal words in your life, not just His general word in the Bible

An encouraging encounter with a nurse "believer" at the doctor and blessed to find out it is not cancer

A major downside of all the "good" end times videos on Youtube

Commentary: Sacrasm about changing my mind on "not going to India"

The devil and my flesh and others have done so many things to try to distract me from doing exactly what the Lord has asked me to do

Another example of how God has always provided me coffee money in the Wilderness

The need for us to get serious and intentionally train yourself to be godly

I wake up at 5:25am (Gal 5:25) then I check my email and see I have 919 emails (Numbers 9:19)

2 Samuel 3 about the war lasting a long time between the house of David and the house of Saul, really blesses me.

It is incredible how much I am now remaining untouched by evil in my soul

God aportions His grace to us in accordance with His unique will in our life and according to our unique need

I am strong in the Lord, but weak in me

Those who are further ahead or higher up with the Lord than we are should not be looked at as "holier than thou" but as those who have simply done what the Lord commands of all of us

I realize I must be willing to be discgraced and undignified in my own eyes in order to serve the Lord by transparently sharing my life publicly, like David, essentially dancing "naked" before the Lord. The Lord has chosen me to do so.

Commentary: The call to get "naked" before others in your public testimony is rare.

Revelation about Mical not being able to have any children the rest of her life after she despised David for dancing before the Lord

True Obedience: The difference between doing good things for God, vs doing exactly and only what the Lord tells you and obeying God when it makes absolutely no sense

Every once in a while I get this sense that what God has planned for me down the road in this ministry is beyond my wildest imagination

Tony Evans teaches that God will not tell you the "WHY" of obedience until you go all the way into obedience, using Abraham and Isaac as an example

Obedience is not a burden, but it can be very taxing

The Lord makes it very clear to me to be very careful to listen to Him and obey Him

Thankful that God changed my parents from persecutors of mine into supporters of mine

Father is showing me He loves me, but my insurance is about to be cancelled. Nevertheless I am trusting God will provide

End times faith, not End times fear!

The Lord continue to show me to FINISH THE WORK and store up His commands

See 666 and then the children call me under the manipulation of their mom

I am being kept in such joy that even when the devil attacks

A.W. Tozer's timely and glorious words on the Crucified Life which explain the unspeakable joy I'm having

George Muller's autobiography and Answers to prayer are the greatest evidence of God's faithfulness I've ever heard of

God is still trying my faith in my finances and I have $2 in my checking account. My car insurance is about to be cancelled. I am resolved to trust God and tell NO ONE of my need, no matter what.

The incredible lesson of George Muller about resisting the temptation to deliver yourself

There must always be fresh opportunities for our faith to be tried.

A message to my children warning them that Satan will lie to them and say this kind of walking by faith was only for their father (me), not them.

One of the most powerful moments of prayer in the Spirit I have ever experienced as the Holy Spirit comes on me in such indescribable power

Astonishing revelations about the grace of God in worthless empty vessel

Peace in the storm...insights on the joy and peace of Christ in the face of a world falling apart

Obedience is the answer to ALL that we are looking for and more importantly, ALL that God is looking for

God continues to point me to Scriptures showing me I will rejoice on the day of my wedding and I realize it will happen after He is done giving me all this revelation about His word and ways

I am so sick and so "over" what we call "Church" today...it all ends up in hell.

Commentary about incredible connections between the names Laura and Persis in Psalm 21:3

A pleasant dinner with my parents is a blessing to me

More temptations to take matters into my own hands regarding the relentless parental alienation

Waiting for God to act in my behalf (Isaiah 64:4) and extinguishing the flaming arrows of the evil one with the shiled of faith, while I wait

My checking account balance is $2.30 and I'm laughing while still waiting on the Lord to send help

A totally funny moment where I contrast my account balance with the "Promised Land" and I see a 422 right after saying it.

My burning indignation towards all the worthless "counseling" that has made its way into the church

The cost of going all the way with God by David Wilkerson

Wisdom from Tozer about when God is everything to you, nothing He adds or takes away can harm you

Reasoning through with God about the wisdom I need to manage my relationship with God as my mom continues to be upset by what God moves me to say or do

Jesus never said, "If a man loses PART of his life, He will find it."

The Spirit of God in another person is NEVER in a hurry or in a panic. That is a different spirit.

If I would have listened to my parents, NONE of the fruit I see in my ministry would have ever happened

Commentary explaining the difficult to listen to prayer in the next part of the recording

A rather dramatic recorded prayer which shows that I had indeed begun to cross over into the Promised Land which God had been showing me I was about to enter

Please remember the loud cries and tears of even Jesus as you listen to this difficult to listen to prayer.