It was exactly a year ago that I had just found out I was pregnant. That 1 second changed my life forever, and spun me into a complete disarray for over a month while I tried to decide what I was going to do.
I didnât want to have a baby before I got pregnant - but nothing prepares you for the feeling of knowing there is a growing one inside of you. It is a totally wild, spiritual and surreal experience. I know people who were able to easily separate it as a medical thing, but for me - it was so much more than that. It was my growing child.
Full disclosure, I almost had the baby. Whatâs wild is I would literally have a 2/3 month old right now - and it because I couldnât bear the thought of having an abortion. But ultimately, I decided it was the right thing for me to do. And even though it was the hardest decision/process of my life, I donât regret it for a fucking second.
I want to shed light on how difficult the decision to have an abortion can be. I think a lot of pro-lifers think weâre just out here like YEAH LETâS DO IT WOO like itâs a fucking party and no big deal. In my experience it was totally the opposite.
This episode is full of tears. Itâs full of raw and vulnerable honesty.Â
I donât regret it for a single second, but ti was hand downs the most traumatic and grueling decision and experience of my fucking life. Not to mention the emotional tidal wave it had on the people I love in my life and my relationship.
In my experience, I wasnât allowed to fully heal myself after because my attention was being focused on other people having a hard time about my decision, and the total degradation of my romantic relationship.Â
So if you want to hear a very real and honest talk about what itâs like to decide to have an abortion, and then actually do - give it a listen.Â
In this episode we talk about :
Our experiences with abortion
The emotional repercussions that come from making the decision
Then the physical/emotional repercussions of actually having the procedure/the aftermath
The intensity of the decision while the time bomb is ticking
How abortions affect relationships - especially mother/daughter
The crazy power to create + end life
Why abortion is so divisiveBut that the bottom line is, no matter, what no one should have the power to take that decision away from you <3