What happens when acting and life both need you at the same time?

Actors spend a lot of time worrying about life derailing our careers. We get sick on the day of an audition. A family emergency happens during a run. An important event collides with a callback. And somewhere in our heads is that old rule: the show must go on.

But sometimes there isn't a choice where everybody wins. There are just two things that matter to you competing for the same space on the calendar.

In this episode of The Working Actor NYC Podcast, Benjamin Howes and Patrick Richwood talk about calling out of shows, performing when you probably shouldn't, the particular agony of missing an audition you'll never get back, and the "coulda, shoulda, if only" thinking that follows. We dig into where the "never miss a show" mythology actually comes from (it's older than Ethel Merman), the real story behind "break a leg," and what it's like when an entire cast gets sick and the understudies aren't ready.

And then we turn the question around: What weddings, birthdays, trips and other pieces of our lives have we missed because we were protecting our careers — or simply protecting our availability in case an opportunity came along? Benjamin shares a personal story about a career-altering moment he almost missed, and how he's had to make peace with the calendar all over again this week, as he heads to a family funeral while a new show waits for him.

There isn't an easy answer. Acting matters to us. So do the people and experiences that make up our lives. Maybe building a sustainable acting career means accepting that sometimes acting and life are going to compete for the calendar — and deciding which one gets the date.

What happens when actors stop waiting for the industry to give them permission to be creative?

Actors spend so much of their careers waiting: waiting for the audition, the callback, the offer, the next opportunity to actually do the thing we trained to do. But casting gets to decide when we get hired — it doesn't get to decide when we get to be artists.

In this episode of The Working Actor NYC Podcast, Benjamin Howes and Patrick Richwood explore what it means to take radical ownership of your creative life — and why “creating your own work” is only one small part of that.

🎨 Creativity as play

💡 Creativity as expression

🛠️ Creativity as practice

✍️ Creativity as authorship

🚀 Creativity as career strategy

From acting and writing to making content, cooking, painting, building things — does it matter what you're creating if you're exercising your imagination?

And perhaps the bigger question: Have actors given the industry too much power over when we're allowed to feel like artists?

Ever wondered what it's actually like to make a living as an actor?

This episode starts with a Field Report on the early closing announcement of Cats: The Jellicle Ball on Broadway, and what it says about the economics of producing theatre today. But from there, Patrick Richwood and I head down a rabbit hole of stories that only working actors seem to collect.

We talk about performing musicals in 100-degree heat, wearing costumes that feel like ovens, surviving outdoor productions, passing out on set, backstage bears, collapsing theatre walls, performing for audiences smaller than the cast, and the strange psychology of sitting in the front row. We even finish with some of the wonderfully awkward realities of filming intimate scenes.

It's funny. It's ridiculous. And it's an honest look behind the curtain at a profession that audiences rarely get to see.

Whether you're an actor, a theatre lover, or you're simply curious about what really happens behind the scenes, I think you'll enjoy this one.

Stop waiting for permission to own the parts of your career that already belong to you.

What does it really mean to be in control of your acting career?

In this Independence Day episode of The Working Actor NYC Podcast, Benjamin Howes and Patrick Richwood unpack the difference between control, ownership and true creative independence. Using real comments from actors in the community, they explore what belongs to you, what belongs to your team, and what nobody gets to control at all.

From agents, auditions and financial independence to craft, confidence, self-sufficiency and the work you do before anyone gives you permission, this conversation is a practical and honest look at how actors can take more ownership of their careers without pretending they control the entire industry.

Because the more clearly you know what belongs to you, the less time you waste worrying about what doesn’t.

Why does walking into a room full of your peers feel so intimidating? Benjamin and Patrick unpack the invisible scorecard we all carry—and why genuine curiosity might be the best networking strategy you'll ever learn.

When you walk into a room full of people in your industry... what's the first thing your brain starts measuring?

Who's more successful?

Who already knows everyone?

Who looks more confident?

Who just looked over your shoulder?

Whether it's a film festival, a casting director workshop, an opening night, or a networking event, many of us stop having conversations and start auditioning for the room.

This week on The Working Actor NYC Podcast, Benjamin Howes and Patrick Richwood unpack the invisible scorecard we all seem to carry—and why "schmoozing" feels so uncomfortable for so many creative people.

Using Benjamin's recent experience at Tribeca Film Festival as a jumping-off point, they explore:

• Why networking often feels fake
• The psychology of comparing ourselves to everyone in the room
• How curiosity changes every conversation
• Why community—not performance—is what actually builds careers
• The simple question that transformed Benjamin's experience of the festival

One realization sits at the heart of the conversation:

"I stopped trying to be interesting. I became interested."

If you've ever walked into an industry event feeling like everyone else belonged more than you did, this episode is for you.

Actors deal with rejection a lot. This week, we're ranking their coping strategies from healthy to completely unhinged.

This week on The Working Actor NYC Podcast, we're diving into one of the most important—and ridiculous—parts of being an actor: coping with the ups and downs of the business.

After a field report from Tribeca Festival, where Benjamin shares what he's learning from inside one of the world's most important film festivals, we turn our attention to the weird, wonderful, and occasionally alarming ways actors deal with rejection, uncertainty, and career chaos.

Meditation? Healthy.

Calling your actor friends? Probably healthy.

Aggressively vacuuming your apartment after not booking the role? The jury is still out.

We rate real actor coping strategies submitted by viewers and deciding whether they're Healthy, Questionable, or Completely Unhinged.

Every actor has at least one audition story they still think about at 2am.

This week, we gathered around the internet campfire to relive some of the funniest, most mortifying, most chaotic audition stories we’ve ever heard — hopping into a bread truck to make it to Ripley Grier, singing West Side Story with a surprise bell choir accompaniment, self tapes shot like Oscar-winning cinema before anyone knew what a self tape even was, and the kind of unhinged audition notes that still haunt actors decades later. Somewhere between the trauma and the laughter, we realized every actor has survived at least one audition that should have sent them directly into witness protection.

But underneath the chaos is something real: the resilience it takes to keep showing up. We talk about rejection, overthinking, bad direction, casting workshops, awkward industry moments, and the weird emotional endurance test that is building a career as an actor. If you’ve ever walked out of an audition replaying every second in your head… this episode is for you. Pull up a chair, bring your own horror story, and join us for one of the funniest and most honest conversations we’ve had yet.

The rejection you didn't see coming.

What happens when you help build a project… and then the project moves forward without you?

In this LIVE episode of The Working Actor NYC podcast, Benjamin and Patrick dig into one of the most painful — and least discussed — experiences actors face: being part of the reading, workshop, lab, or regional production… and then not being invited back.

Benjamin shares his recent experience of being dropped from a Broadway-bound project, and members of the acting community share their own stories of rejection, replacement, heartbreak, resilience, and recovery.

This episode includes:

• stories from actors who helped build shows and were later replaced

• conversations about self-worth and rejection in the acting industry

• thoughts on how actors recover emotionally and professionally

• field reports from NYC casting offices and the theater community

• a discussion about series regular auditions, managers, and “moving up the ladder” in TV

Featuring stories and perspectives from:

Kimberly Doreen Burns

Lauren Pastorek

Jackie Petroccia

If you’ve ever felt left behind by this business… this episode is for you.

Do you need to be selfish to succeed as an actor… or is that just insecurity in disguise?

We break down confidence, ego, and the real behaviors that shape a career in the room.

In this episode of The Working Actor NYC, we tackle a deceptively simple question: do you have to be selfish to succeed as an actor? What starts as a surprising on-set interaction quickly opens up a deeper conversation about confidence, status signaling, and the fine line between self-belief and ego. From actors subtly “flashing credentials” to moments of bold self-positioning in the room, we unpack what these behaviors actually mean—and whether they help or hurt in a collaborative industry.

Along the way, we break down real audition struggles, including a listener-submitted story about a dance call gone wrong, and explore the mental habits that can either derail or save you in high-pressure moments. We also dig into the idea of “infrastructure” in an actor’s career—from daily habits to unexpected homework like watching television with intention—and how clarity, resilience, and self-awareness ultimately shape long-term success more than any single moment of confidence or ego.

Are you falling behind as an actor… or does it just feel that way?

In this LIVE episode of The Working Actor NYC, Benjamin Howes and Patrick Richwood dive into one of the most destructive beliefs actors carry: the idea that everyone else is ahead.

They unpack the comparison trap, the illusion created by social media, and why acting careers don’t follow timelines — even though we keep trying to force them onto one. They also discuss late starts, the long middle of an acting career, and why longevity matters more than early success.

If you’ve ever felt like you started too late, haven’t booked enough, or watched others “pass you by,” this conversation will change how you think about your career.

Because you’re not behind. You’re just in the middle.