Through My Looking Glass

If you ask me how I am doing? I am standing next to many of my brother and sisters with a shovel in our hand ready to bury our next brother or sister. As victims and survivors try to go on with our daily lives we can experience triggers that can cause re-victimization. Lost of sleep, nightmare, lost of appetite and more. It can also make us so angry we can become abusers. lets support each other.

On April 20, 2021 a cold hearted white former police officer I do not want to say his name. I thing saying his name gives him power. This former officer was found guilty of brutally killing a brother George Floyd. Finding an white officer guilty of killing one of us is new for us yet we know this is like finding a needle is a haystack. 

in this episode I spoke to people ages 11 to 65 years old who shared what makes them happy. Happiness is something we all can and should experience. Everyone can fine different things and people to help them fine happiness. I want victims to know they can fine joy in little things and they do not need anyone to make them happy. Lets all fine hippiness in the things and positive people arounds us. Come, listen and enjoy the testimony of the many happy people.

Sometimes children just need us to listen. We have to listen to our children. Millions of children grew up with trauma caused by abuse from people that should have kept them safe.

37-year-old Michael is one of those people. Michael was born in Boston and grow up in the south shore. His early years were spent with his mother and sister. Michael was an adventurous teenager who did not have enough positive influences around him. He tried to fine things to keep him busy like hanging out with friends and riding dirt bike. He tried to explain why he was doing what he was doing but his mother did not understand. She did not listen.  Michael got frustrated and found it difficult to be home. He began to stay out late.  This caused problems between him and his mother. Michael is here to talk about some of the trials and tribulations he has been through.

in this episode I talked about being trapped with your abuser. Weather it is physical abuse or an addiction, you can still be trapped in the  circumstances. I shared a poem about a mother bringing her innocent child to be abused by her master and a poem of an incident I experience when I was trapped.  

Abusers can let you loose your identity if you let them. There are signs to look for. 

Sexual and Physical, Domestic violence, or abuse Physiological  and emotional abuse. Financial or Material abuse, Discriminatory abuse, Organizational abuse are just of few. Experiences some of these can cause physical health problems, mental health problems, suicidal behavior, eating disorder, alcohol and substance abuse and aggression that can lead to criminal behavior. In this Podcast, I will talk about some of the signs. 

Let us do what we can to change the statistic in America, that every minute there are about  20 people or over 10 million men and woman every year are being physical abuse by their partner.  Every 9 seconds a woman is assaulted or beaten. Every 73 second an American is sexual assaulted and  every 9  minutes that victim is a child. It starts with us.

In this episode, you will hear courageous 23 year old Louise-Angel telling his story.  Louis-Angel who says he got to the point where he said no to his addiction and being a victim and is now taking control of him. He feels pain is something we all share. Pain comes in many forms. He believes in hope and forgiveness to those who have done him wrong. Louis-Angel has been trying to survive since he was 4 years old when his mother went off to jail. At the age 16 while in high school, he was recruited to sell drugs by his trusted mentor, a minister, a group leader, and a Dean at the school he was attending. Louis-Angel felt he was being taken advantage of so, he spoke up. Speaking up, led to him being brutally shot point blank in the back of his head and left to die.

Today, I will take you on a journey of empowerment. I will  share with you some of my poetry that talked about how I and other I know took control and say no more to the what was happening to us at that moment. Today is a heavy show. But this is reality

Living as a survivor is a everyday challenge. Even tough it is difficult, it does not have to control you. You can take control and live a productive life. Let the "how are you", help you push through. Please share your taught and ideas.