Get excited!

Warning: this contains discussion of suicide and suicidal thoughts and suicide attempts.

If you’re experiencing any of these yourself please call 988 in NYC or talk with your therapist. In extreme cases where your life is at risk please call 911, or please go to the emergency room you trust most.

Listen as I cry and give a special tribute to the one who’s always been too good to be true. I suggest you revisit the episode I made called “Challenging My Pedestals” as a charming companion to this episode.

Also, Anderson Cooper’s podcast I mention in this episode is called “All There Is with Anderson Cooper”…. You must listen to it! It’s brilliant, and made me fall ever more deeply in love with him.

An update.

Was cut off rudely by my reminder to move my car (lol), please enjoy the 2nd part of my Astoria Park walk! Beautiful bird sounds in the background enhance the experience here.

Life is NOT fair (and I’m telling myself to get over it), and Astoria Park has a running track!

Loves it. Abi Totes shares some updates. She is so exhausted, notice how she signs off at the end!

Get excited! I share how I was inspired to choose a word of the year (thank you to the incomparable Priscilla Hummel!!!!!)…. And I talk a lot about my journey with gratitude.

Notes:

The Calm app: https://www.calm.com

Book: Self-Compassion by Kristin Neff (You NEED THIS. If you already own it, you NEED TO ACTUALLY READ IT NOWWWW!)

Podcast: A Slight Change of Plans. The episode you need to hear where she interviews Kristin Neff is called “The Science of Self-Compassion”

On Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/a-slight-change-of-plans/id1561860622?i=1000617332975

On Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/episode/23TYfdiKuafk6OH3laAEaz?si=m23CBi30S26epgLouz0kWA

A glimpse into an evening of public crying, mostly on the C and N trains. A cool, rainy, magical evening of releasing pain and feeling the ghosts of my life ever presently as I traversed the city’s underbelly.

Yet another love letter to my city.

In this episode (I’m back, BTW!!!) I share more attempts at self compassion. I reveal some things about myself that I wasn’t fully noticing… and do my best to forgive myself, even though it is not easy! Corn Flakes do actually factor into the whole thing—more than you’d expect!

(Not an ad for Corn Flakes. They happened to be on sale in a big way—a GIANT SIZE box for $5.99!!!!!!—at my local bougie grocery store and I got really excited about that.)