Tricky Old Dog

Just started playing out on the streets, something I've wanted to do for a long time, but always had excuses, etc... Had to find someone to jam with to get past limiting notions and fears. 

Help me get out of the States: https://gofund.me/eedc739b  

My Music channel:   www.youtube.com/@Darryllicht47   

My Art channel: https://www.youtube.com/@MATubbesing-n8j

MAT Spiral:  https://www.facebook.com/share/19P84e3nxL/

If you want to give away oodles of money, and get some Great Art also, go here: patreon.com/inthso

Now, gotta fix other, easier to manage portions of my life.

The video showing the paint I pirated. Art & Qualm II

A kid says to a pirate, "Hey, Mister Pirate, why do you have a wooden leg?"
The pirate says, "OH, I was made to walk the plank, and a shark got me leg before I could get to land."
"Wow!" the kid says. "Hey, how did you get that hook for a hand?"
"Well," says the pirate, "We were boarding a Limey ship, and one of the sailors took my hand with his sword. Before he lost his life to my cutlass."
"Wow. Mr. Pirate, why do you have a patch on your eye?"
"Oh. That." says the pirate. "That was the first day with my new hook."

Concerning the Box Breathing, I had it backwards: I thought a constricted heart pumped less vigorously, causing the brain to speed it up. Actually, blood flows through EASIER, causing the brain to slow it down. I told you not to listen to me.
Breathe in for 8, hold for 8, breathe out for 4, hold for 4 for energy.
Breathe in for 4, hold 4, out 8, hold 8 for relaxation.
Andrew Huberman explains at the end of this video- about the last minute. 
Here, he explains it in terms of alertness and calm.
Not a box, really- a parallelogram. There is box breathing, but that's just 4,4,4,4.  

I guess I didn't really get to what had become a major point during this: the contradiction is, I'm still stressing as much while in the middle of the process I'm undertaking at the time, I don't stress (as much, anymore) while considering what I should be doing with my time, and why I'm not doing that (yet), or how to fix it (the not doing it yet), or how much exertion it will require, or what will it be like if I try and fail.
Here's a YouTube search for Art & Fear. It was, for me, very enlightening. 

Mulling over my endeavors on these podcasts.
Here's what I'm doing to maintain a semblance of discipline. Mel Robbins Make It Happen- Here's to sign up.
Here are the videos.
Here's my project- Art and Qualm
Art & Qualm II
Art & Qualm III
Art & Qualm IV
Art & Qualm V

Here are 2 videos of my new project, from the beginning: Art and Qualm 
Art & Qualm II

 "Why we struggle with change"
An interesting video on change. Even if you don't appreciate the narration, the Art is noteworthy.