The concept of Surrender is… a lot for people.

And.. the concept of surrender is vulnerable.We get to mature greatly if this road is ours to walk.

And fully open ourselves so that we can be available for the Divine and/or our higher self, which doesn’t feed our ego desires sometimes!

And that’s really kind of a meh for me in life.I’m like, meh.”Why don’t you give me what I want?This tastes good. That looks that way. I want this.”

But.. I’m on a shamanic path.I don’t get what I want.

My particular guides—whether they be imagined fantasies in my own brain or real— they have been with me vividly for the last 15 years.

They depict themselves to me as no nonsense. Silent + Sure. They are these really deep spiritual initiators, crafting me to be a medicine woman who isn’t swayed by flattery, knows how to discern b******t, knows how to protect her own energy.. and still maintain innocence.

These are my soul lessons.They’ve been challenging.And they haven’t really ‘given’ me a lot.

I didn’t win any prizes in the ways of the world.. but I did get some grit + integrity.

You don’t get ‘infinite riches’ and all that spiritual commerce hype that Tony Robbins sells.Instead, the path I walk can be at times quite humbling. Exquisitely beautiful. But also ego erradicating.

—I often make a joke about the genie in Aladdin—

Do you remember what he said? The Genie has infinite wisdom.

Phenomenal cosmic powers… itty bitty living space.

I joke.. but The Genie is of service.

The genie is not about the self, but rather about the other.And his whole story is to break his shackles.Now, obviously I don’t have shackles, but sometimes… it feels like I kinda do.

What is it to be on a path of Service?

I feel like some of us incarnate into lifetimes where our soul work or mission may not be fully about our own ego desires…

That we are here as initators. Or mirrors that trigger others. Or frequency keepers. That we have a role in relationship to the Cosmic. And not so much self serving. But a destiny to be Of Service.

And I don’t feel like it’s just me. In fact, it’s often a core human need. To feel like we contribute to something greater than ourselves. I know a few really great people in my life who have ‘confessed’ to me that they don’t feel fulfilled.

Even after having the job, the kids, the house, the partnership. That without feeling like they have made some kind of a mark in this world through Service, they feel lost and without a purpose.

And conversly there are those of us who can’t quite fit into society no matter how hard we try.

We are in the role of ‘Guide’

We are the Guardian of the Threshold.

We are here to remind others of the infinite.

I’m on that path.And I know other people who feel that they’re on that path.Everyone that I have mentored and taught.

This path.. the Healer’s Journey is not an easy road.But those of us who have embarked on the path.. have made that commitment for more than just this life.

Over + over again we are Of Service..

It’s our soul codex, our construct.

We wouldn’t be happy any other way.We’ve incarnated into these roles in society—for better or worse.

We may have been persecuted, outcast, and all of the other things that come along with that archetype.

But also: Phenomenal Cosmic PowersAnd access to something.. infinite.

All my love for those of us on this journey. Sacred + Devotional.

All in. —Michelle Infinity

🌀 This is a little clip from a longer conversation I had with Shel Dockser for her summit, Find Peace Now.

She’s someone who lived through deep trauma, and did the work. She found her way through by gathering tools, teachers, practices—and now she’s bringing together 19 of us to speak about what peace looks like after you’ve lived through something real.

Our conversation was rich + deep. If you are on the path of service, the frequency of devotion, or the grief and grit of healing speaks to you—you can join the summit for free here:

FIND PEACE NOW :: ONLINE SUMMIT (begins May 19th)

All love,

Michelle

The feminine + poetic + artistic urge to melt into beauty + transcendence…

There are moments in my life.. that weave through like spells, where I feel deeply introverted and I struggle to find my voice..

Sometimes they come from giving my power away to the mainstream because intaking of everyone else’s content as input..

And I actually forget myself. And forget to value my true nature.

I get caught in the game of needing to look like everyone else

To make sense To feel understood To win Be seen

etc..

Well, the way to break through all of that is by dropping in.

Dropping in with yourself can look like:

Going into silence, creating a piece of art, having a personal psychedelic experience, getting body work, sitting in a pipe ceremony, or hearing from a dear friend about how they sang prayers for you from a sweat lodge..

But ultimately, it happens — when we listenTo our soulTo our GuidesAnd to the Universe speak..

My soul work is unique, much like yours.

It has it’s own voice.

That voice is equally powerful + humble. Deeply personal, and Authentic.

And so are the soul practices that I lead. Vocal empowerment + sacred self expression work.. Has it’s own integrity, leadership, and depth of consciousness

It may never be widespread, praised or understood by the many

And yet those who enter my world come to me as if I am water In the vast dry desert

They say, ‘YES! Divine feminine beingThank you for being you I am parched from the ways of this world!Open your gates And let me feel myself through you

It’s erotic, no?This soulful self-expression? The power of the primal. This is your truest form.

It is as simple as imaginingAnd bowing to the non rational

The dark feminine muse + mysteryIs often devalued Rejected + forgotten

Don’t let that version of the sick sad world Make you lose yourself And get in your head

Instead, take your power back

Believe in the eternalBelieve in Truth + BeautyAnd Empower your rare art.

🐚🪶🐉

In all sincerity — this is a raw, channeled transmission that fell straight outta my soul this morning.

It started as a voice note.An idea I wanted to capture.

But as I spoke, I realized… this was the full story.Detailed. Raw. Humbling.Multi-layered.

A teaching about life and death. About how we work with the Infinite.

This is the Behind the Music of why I created this song.What it carries.And why it represents so many layers for me.

Cosmic Closure

Releasing it now marks saying goodbye to an entire chapter of my life. Gratefully crossing a threshold.

It calls for deep trust in life —…even in its imperfection.…even in everything.

My favorite line shares this essence of the mantra.

“You would still remain the same”

Purnameva VashishyateThe fullness alone remains

Mantra Breakdown

OM PŪRNAMADAH PŪRNAMIDAMPŪRNĀT PŪRNAMUDACHYATEPŪRNASYA PŪRNAMĀDĀYAPŪRNAMEVA VASHISHYATEOM SHĀNTI SHĀNTI SHĀNTI

That is whole. This is whole.From wholeness emerges wholeness.When wholeness is taken from wholeness, wholeness remains.Peace, peace, peace.

This is a mantra from the Isha Upanishad — believed to have been composed in the first half of the 1st millennium BCE, over 2,500 years ago.It’s part of the Vedic Samhitas — ancient songs. Some of the oldest in Hindu tradition.

I describe why this mantra and I had a moment in this lifetime in great detail in the audio above.

This mantra challenges us to see everything as eternal.

Nothing is missing.Nothing has ended.

Even in the impermanence of loss, pain, grief, desire — nothing is lacking.

You are still whole.Not only are you whole — but so is everything else.The cosmos are in harmony.

I need to remember this all the time.

I speak more in the audio — in depth. But here’s what I’ll whisper here. I love those moments of being spoken to directly by Spirit. And in this case, it was the spirit of a dear friend that had crossed. Who has been a literal (albeit quirky!) Guardian Angel of my life.

There is heartbreak in the story, but also beauty.

And therein lies the preciousness of life.

I’ve chanted this mantra so much over these past 7 years or so. The original transmission came to me in the shower. 2019 at the top of my lungs.

..and I still hope to make that drum + bass version one day..But now on Beltane, I offer this gift to you.

🎧 PRE-SAVE OM PŪRNA

PRE-SAVE OM PŪRNA ON SPOTIFY (easiest on a browser!)→ Release Date: May 16th→ Follow my Spotify Artists Profile

CLICK THE LINKS TO GET NOTIFIED WHENOM PŪRNA DROPS MAY 16th!Produced with DTO

This song is born of yearning.Of desire for unity.Of the ache to merge with the Infinite, and still be fully human.

I hope this mantra blesses your walk — and that you share it, play it, and return to it when you forget what is already whole.

In love, light, and warrior spirit,Michelle InfinityMichelle Coutinho Tuning to Wisdom

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