Waffling About Mostly Nothing

Hey, Hi, Hello! And welcome! To! The! First! Episode! Of! SEASON 2! Aaaaaa what the hell?! The second season of my very own baby 'Waffling About Mostly Nothing', and shit is about to get very interesting and very VERY real! You guys actually don't understand when I say I've got so much planned already, and mind you I'm not one to plan or do shit ahead of time. If I have a deadline to meet and it's set at the end of the week, you already know I'll only be starting a few hours before I'm meant to hand it in. Is that the best way to go about things? Probably not, but that doesn't matter, do you know why? It's because Ive already got some things in the works for you and aaaaaaa! just aaaaaa! I'll say this for the gazillionth time; yall are not ready okay yall just arent, sorry not sorry hehehe. Okay, please don't ask me what in the world has gotten into me, because I honestly don't know myself... Any way y'all go and enjoy the episode I've held you up for long enough!

25 Episodes later and it's time for a little change. Actually no, I'm not actually changing much at all, however, I may or may not have a few tricks up my sleeve for THE SECOND SEASON of (the one, the only!) 'Waffling About Mostly Nothing' and I'm so! Damn! Excited! Y'all aren't ready, Y'all are NOT ready! I just want to tell you about it right now but I need to practice the art (yes the ART) of keeping my damn mouth shut. To be completely fair, It's proven to be very, very difficult trying not to let my friends know about this show for the last 6 MONTHS but Ive still managed to do it. Well, maybe just half do it. I'm just excited and you know when you get so excited and proud over a project that you're creating, you end up just wanting to announce it to the entire world! But I need to calm. the. fuck. down. because jeeeeez no one really cares, but regardless, I'm still excited; side note: try taking a shot every time I say excited; side-side note: please don't do that, you might die and I don't wanna be held accountable, cheers!

My god, this has been a journey, a WHOLE freakin' expedition, to say the least!! (that sounded a lot better in my head) Hold on, I feel like this sounds like I'm leaving for good, I'm not even close yall!! Hate to break it to you, but you're stuck with me now! It's not that bad though, because I think, and I know I say this all the time, this is one of my favorite episodes so far. I feel like I'm finally getting to a point where I'm comfortable being myself and even though that means I put out a lot more bs and word vomit all the time, it also means I can reflect and not think twice about everything I'm putting out. It means this is raw, real, and vulnerable. I also feel this was a really good opportunity to reflect since I've been neglecting myself and haven't really made an effort to make time for myself ever since everything's started opening up again. So, today I just took a step back, hit record, and reflected on the last 6 months and I gotta say I'm very proud of how far I've come. Obviously, 6 months is not enough to see much change but hopefully, when 'Waffling About Mostly Nothing' turns one, I can wholeheartedly, truly say I'm proud of the person I'm becoming. Anyway, that's enough corniness for one week, Let's get into itttt!!

Okay I know I said I upload these episodes the second it's Sunday and it's a bit ironic because I'm uploading this 12 hours after I was meant to, but we can pretend that didn't happen okay? Okayyyy!! No, but seriously I'm sorry I lowkey messed my schedule up last night which is no excuse and I'm definitely working on it but! but! butttt I'm really hoping this episode makes up for it and I lowkey think it might because usually I'll listen to every episode I record before it goes out and I cringe at least 12 times a minute but with this one, I only cringed like twice overall!! So all I can say is we're improving! We're making big moves! We're getting comfortable being uncomfortable babbbyyy!! Yes!! Also, I'm super excited!! Not only for gyms to reopen tomorrow, not only to turn 20 in 2 weeks, not only for hitting 6 months of making episodes next week (best feeling ever, by the way, weeeee); but for what the future has in store, for what the universe has planned, for everything we work so damn hard for to finally feel and genuinely be so worth it! Because god damnit we deserve this. Repeat after me, WE DESERVE THE VERY BEST! Both you and me, no ifs, no buts. we deserve the best and that's on period!

What can I say? I mean, I can't complain because no one forced me to go on there but fuck me was that brutal! Regardless, can't say I hated the so-called 'rejection' on there. I also of course got super cringey towards the end (shocker, right?) and started talking about my future children, and to be honest, this doesn't even surprise me at this point. I don't think I have ever actually gone an entire day without being at least a little sappy over some very minuscule thing. That reminds me, one time (at band camp, if you know you know) I saw a tiktok about how dogs are a small fraction of our life but to them, we are their entire life?!! Mad! I know! I kid you not, after hearing that I cried for about 45 minutes. It's also completely changed my life, but no biggie I guess haha, just going to sit in a corner and cry every time I remember that. Anyway, I won't keep this super long because I've got a few ideas on my next episode and don't want these super cool n awesome ideas to just up and run away because I have a feeling the second I hit record, I'll forget every single thing I had in mind. 

Let me start off by saying I'm sorry that this is a few hours later than my usual upload time. I don't have a valid reason if I'm being honest. The only thing I can say is that I've been feeling a bit sorry for myself and a little uninspired in general. I don't know what it is, I'm just feeling a bit off at the moment and everything's just felt a little foggy. This tends to come in waves every now and again, so I know everything's okay, I just need to get my ass up and start being productive again. Definitely easier said than done. What can I say? I fell off track and have been beating myself up quite a bit, so today is the day I make an effort to reverse it so I can start off the week tomorrow may be feeling a little better, you know what I mean? I do always promise that I'll share my vulnerable moments and try to make an effort to show my truest and most raw self because if I don't, it's not really fair of me to assume someone else should. So this is it, nothing exciting really. The episode doesn't fully portray how I'm currently feeling, mostly because I recorded it a little over a week ago, but also if I'm being completely honest when this does happen, I don't like admitting it to myself so I don't even realize I'm hitting a wall until I feel so low for literally no reason and have to start assessing everything all over to see what, if anything, went wrong. Again, my apologies, I hope you enjoy this one, my friends!

Weird title? Maybe a little. Today I thought it would be a fun idea if I properly introduced myself and told some of y'all about me. If you're thinking this is way waaaay overdue, you would definitely be right! Especially considering it's been a while since I started creating episodes, but please bear with me while I try to adjust and get comfy being myself. Anyway, today I think sis snapped. She was just like, Menna (I've never actually said my name on here before so this is very weird to me lol) why would anyone actually care, it genuinely doesn't matter! See, this little bursts of confidence and the 'oh I don't care what other people think of me' only come up so often so I had to take advantage of it today! Don't get me wrong, I still feel like I'm shitting myself every single time I go to record an episode but it's the good kind of shitting yourself, if there's even a good kind to that. I'll be honest, quarantine is definitely getting to me. As much as I try to keep my thoughts at bay, shit just hits the fan sometimes and not being able to be around other people does not help whatsoever, so anything that helps me feel good or empowers me, I'll ty to do, even if it means one day I'll get so nervous I end up passing out lol

19 | Hello my friends, how have y'all been? Today I take you with me while I'm trying to create a new habit that I actually feel has already done so much for me in terms of introspection within myself! I've recently started to incorporate daily journaling to help me stop and just think a little, and while I do that, I also use some interesting journaling prompts that I'll find here and there that I feel just make the experience that much more enjoyable. If you were thinking of starting journaling or maybe even just an activity where you can give yourself some time to reflect, I genuinely can't recommend finding an interesting prompt to write about just to help get you started! I know the reason I started was to mostly help try to figure out what I'm really doing with my life or what I really want out of the things I hope to achieve in the future. To be honest, this was actually super random and I didn't mean to make it an episode, I'd honestly just woken up to pee in the middle of the night and couldn't go back to sleep, so I just watched a few videos on Youtube and I was only planning to record a single thought for later and it just quickly turned into an episode, and this means the world because I think this is the most authentic I have been able to be and that's definitely a goal I'm currently working towards. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this week's episode as much as I did and if you have any suggestions for any future episodes, just send them over on anchor or leave a comment on the Youtube channel.