I'm just calling myself out in this episode. At the end I thank you for listening to my "garbage" and then redact the statement. I'm just going through it right now, Walnut; and trying to figure out where all the versions of myself can flow and exist together - it's a bit hard!

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This week's overshare is about how I did an exercise where I was asked to think of "my happy place" and interestingly enough, what came to mind was... MY OWN BED!

This episode is a reflection of the relief I felt when I came home from a walnutting - Louie and I went out (again). I felt the dread from everything I said and I felt the squishiness of not wanting to go back to normal. I am finding it very hard to try and be brave and get out there, while also just enjoy being present and in our little bubble - because I know, I will blink, and I'll be "back to normal"

This week I was reflecting on an episode where I was actually triggered by being called nice. I talked about how kindness isn't a weakness and went to great passionate lengths (which I still stand by) about being called nice. But after going through the condition and since being a mother, being called nice doesn't upset me anymore and would not be received in the way I did back then. My kindness is a flex - there are plenty of people who don't have it.

I'm so far away from the girl who got called nice and got upset because SHE made it mean she was weak/not good enough. During the condition/where I'm at now came this huge ego death, where I've had to ask and accept help and speak when I need to and I have to trust so deeply that I'm doing ok while thinking of everything that could possibly go wrong - I can do that AND still be kind. and it's a forking flex!

This week I am so excited to be having a chat with the gorgeous Jen, from Way She Goes Clothes. I basically love bombed Jen ever since my first purchase and have never looked back... sorry Jen! We talk all about starting a business and all of the thought that has gone into this brand.

Jen is the co-founder of Way She Goes Clothes and a lifelong book lover. She's created this brand to craft durable, stylish, and cozy loungewear—perfect for curling up with a good book or tackling your next adventure!

Use code: WALNUT15 for a discount when you're visiting www.wayshegoesclothes.com

Your voice matters, my voice matters and a little slither of feminism scattered into this short and sweet podcast episode.

This week we speak with Jess, a mid-thirties, rural living, homeschooling mama of three wild boys aged six and under who is learning to balance being a coordinator of chaos while doing healing work and parenting.

Jess has had two birthing centre births (one with interventions) and a homebirth.

Jess says that "lots of my journey over the past ten years has been around addressing my trauma and mental health and creating a life for myself and my children that feels right for us." Jess is currently in the process of setting up a second Instagram page to share her thoughts on motherhood publicly.

Check out Jess's Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/MotherofChaos/

I ATTENDED A MUMS AND BUBS YOGA CLASS!

I felt fear, I felt nervous, but I did one tick box at a time and got my little butt - and my bubba's butt - to the class!

Mums and Bubs at Wild Wellbeing in Kapiti

This week I have author, Stephanie visiting us, where we talked all about her book "Pretend For Me" (and those coming soon). We had a chat about postpartum, marriage and creating despite going through hard things.

A theme I really enjoyed during our conversation was how two things can be true at the same time!

Stephanie is a storyteller blessed (and sometimes cursed) with an overactive imagination. She loves creating complex characters navigating flawed worlds, crafting stories that make people feel.

I have attended another social event as a new mom and discovered being social gives me dread akin to hangxiety!