Welcome back Tessa Hope! This week we talk all about her greatest walnutting to date, where Tessa decided to leave teaching. We talk all about accountability with no responsibility, teenagers, the five stages of dying and how "your calling" could be seen as a motivator.

This week my walnutting is simply sharing with you that I feel unworthy of all the kindness, love and gifts that have been coming my way. I have received all of this with so much guilt, apprehention and feelings like I "don't deserve" any of this.

This week, I'm talking about a situation that deeply disappointed me, where I was not able to have a conversation in the heat of the moment and time smoothed it over. I still held myself accountable to the fact that I wanted to have a discussion and this is my reflection on Walnut Communication after the fact, when emotions have simmered down and it is easier to simply sweep things under the rug.

The title of this episode says it all, Walnut, I'm feeling very vulnerable in my condition and find it incredibly hard to ask for what I need right now.

This week is a carry on with the theme of saying "no" and backing myself (again). I also shared something I learned about the different ways we communicate.

This week, I had to set a boundary and say no. On reflection, it brought up old feelings that made me feel anger in justice for Past Lazz who always deemed herself un-worthy.

This is a follow up from the micro-walnuttings in episode 250, where I am still feeling squishy and I had two polarising examples from the preparation I did to calm my nervous system from last week.

This week I am noticing the squishy feelings coming back up and I share three mini things I've done to get through it.

Also, cue the tears as I get distracted and my brain falls out of my butt, when I lose my train of thought and end the episode in tears... my apologies but WE CARRY ON!

This week, I've called in sick - and it is crazy to me that this still makes me feel guilty, depsite that is what a sick day is for!

I have two examples this week, Walnut, where I've felt cringe and done it anyway... that's the moral of this episode. Nothing more and nothing less. Be bold, be brave, be YOU! and just give it a go!