Getting heavy it seems.

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"Grief can be the garden of compassion. If you keep your heart open through everything, your pain can become your greatest ally in your life's search for love and wisdom." -Rumi

saturday i watched the most achingly beautiful film i've seen in a long while

' it is not over yet '

i sat down to work on my WB shortly after processing it & some other personal stuff & came up with this track - hope you are all finding some goodness, gentleness, and kindness out there in this wild world

<3 & hugs

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big tall ones :) b minor 84bpm :)

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More psy-ish acid techno speed trash this week. This one was composed and performed (live tweaking of bass params) on a Polyend Tracker. The overdrive, delay, etc. is Polyend but I took the raw output and blended it 50% with SketchCasette to bring forward some of the crackle and compress it a bit.

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Project update video this week. Went well. Good progress on enemies and eviormental SFX. Built out documentation in spread sheets and google doc. Built server space for S&B to collect new expoprts for implementation. Rotating to battle music soon. Need a break on SFX. Felt stuck, good to work on another problem for a bit.

Car wont open. Key (blade) bugged out. Replaced fob battery. Called dealer, will need a tow. Talked w/ AL about family and our goals. Aligned :) Ramping up to work on my health. Several bike rides this week. Even tried jogging part of the way to the theater last week or so ago. Time crunched further. Gig with Delorean Overdrive coming soon. Trying to work on shifting set around a bit in down time. Joking w/ Amy about car ride in K's rental Miata. My hair is still tangled from the dropped top :P Hair is getting long again. Thinking about cutting it. Been using notebook gift from AL a lot more to keep ideas and remind me of information I felt connected to. Experimenting with fountain pens, highlighters, and formatting for it when I carry it around. Would like to keep it minimal so I don't need a big bag to carry around.

Late nights w/ poor sleeping habits. Try to ride bike for 6 or 7 miles when that happens. If I am not sleeping, might as well do something nice. Struggling w/ digital consumption regulation lately. Looking for balance in health, time, and mental space distractedness. Anxiety levels good so far. Made a 303 sequencer sheet and took rides to chill. Couple meals w/ AL out. Didn't sleep a night and went to pick up breakfast for her on an early mornining ride. Radio museum day, enjoyed a Motown cover band.

Media Consumed: Life Aquatic (2004), John Wick (2014), Dungeon Crawler Carl by Matt Dinniman, Health and Safety by Emily Witt, The Dispossessed by Ursula K. Le Guin, The strokes - The New Abnormal, Unlust - Unlust, 808 State - Nintey, Tears for Fears - The Hurting, Sigur ros - Takk...(The Tape Variations), Machinedrum - Blooms EP, Boards of Canada - Music Has a Right to Children, Autechre - Tri Repetae, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6*, 7, 8,

Software used:

[WarmUp]

Renoise

ALM Almicon

Tal J-8

Tal Bassline

Tal Uno-lx

Fors Junior lite

Audio realism abl3

izotope ozone 10

[MXL 770 mic check]

Audacity

Izotope ozone 10

Gear used:

[MXL 770 mic check]

MXL 770 condenser mic

[WarmUp]

Made as fun way to ramp back into writing before diving into back to work on the game music. Wanted to work on something outside of Ableton and structure need for the game. Didn't prepare, just scrap samples. improper monitoring so likely has mixing and clicking issues with samples. Half assed sound design.

[MXL 770 mic check]

Made while testing condesner microphone settings. Was setting up for game SFX and feeling a bit loopy. A bit of a fun distraction between grinding away at SFX list.

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I don't fully know where this came from. Started as a simple bassline with Massive and after a rough week in general, and a lot of tweaking and adding and automating til I felt crazy, it became this.

Written in Ableton using Massive, FM8, and a chopped sample for the bass. Samples in Amigo for the drums, SEM and Prophet V from Arturia for the chords. And, lastly, stretched samples for the Pads throughout the track.

Enjoy.

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Trying something different - pretty minimal compared to my usual set up - using a nylon strung guitar -  cheap £100 job, but I rate the sound and playability! recorded using an XY pair for the main guitar part, subsequent sections with an Nt1, out of laziness as I had it set up for vocals!

Had the basis of the song, but improved the lead parts towards the end of the song to fill out some space and add a little something new at the close of the track. have a few more acoustic tracks coming, so keep an ear out!

Also, I know you can hear the click - my bad! I have my headphones LOUD when recording!

Have a wonderful week!

Lyrics:

How many words does it take

To say how you feel

How many words does it take

To make it all real

I've been here before

I know you have too

I heard these same words

Doesn't mean that I dont bruise

Ill cascade into you

Ill knock you off your feet

Like a waterfall

Ill pull you down and

Hold you underneath

Like an atom bomb

Ill blow my top

And scatter my debris

Who'd want me?

Who'd want me?

What does it take to show you

Just Who i can be

What does it take to show

What i really mean

I've been here before

And so have you

I heard this all before

That doesn't mean that I dont bruise

Ill cascade into you

Ill knock you off your feet

Like a waterfall

Ill pull you down and

Hold you underneath

Like an atom bomb

Ill blow my top

And scatter my debris

Im a loser im a freak

Im Just someone in between

What they say, you know its true

If i were you, oh if i were you.

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More like EZ Chug - I used EZ-Drummer/Bass/Keys for the parts, and mostly practiced my mixing + outboard effects. Feels pretty catchy. I was going to do some lyrics, but then I did some plumbing work and helped a neighbor move a couch, and didn't have it in me. I'm hoping to come back to it next week for that! I'm thinking that the lyrics will be about my son (he's 5) trying to sneak some extra chocolate milk after he didn't eat his dinner/vegetables, or something along those lines.

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In remembrance of the flies we have killed.

And the ones that got away..

› Lyrics‹ Lyrics

Death at dinnertable

Run away if you are able

Fly if you're a fly

Unless you wanna die

Slap

There went the fly

Slaughter

next to rice

and juice

Nothing left to lose

No more life

in that fly

Death at dinnertable

Run away if you're able

Fly away if you're a fly

unless you wanna die

Why did you get mad when-

Why did you get mad when

our son killed a butterfly, but

a fly you teach him how to kill

A fly you want to kill

Did it do anything with ill will?

I don't know, but it's annoying

It's walking on the baby's face and

tickling her, so

Then

It's death at dinnertable

Run if you are able

Fly away little fly

unless you wanna die

There are spiderwebs in the corners

the coroners of the flies, they

they fly into the webs and the spiders

love to check them out

That's the death at dinnertable

that the spiders are able

to eat and gobble up

oh, what luck

Death at dinnertable

Run if you're able

Fly away little fly

It's not a day to die

It's not today

The day

To die

Or

What do you say?

I'll open the window

so you can sneak away from this

madman with their flyswatter

Flyswatter slaughter swatter

Flyswatter slughterer

Shh

Fly away little fly

Today is not a day to die

Not even a little fly

My bleeding heart

wants to give it a new- a fresh start

but oh man, the spider looks hungry too

I don't know

I can't save you forever but

Maybe I can get you five more minutes

to walk on my arm

it's tickling but it's ok

At least you're not sucking my blood like a mosquito

that I'll gladly slaughter

any day

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