In this episode, the season premiere of Season Ten, the podcast returns from a rather long hiatus with a review of “I Regret Almost Everything,” a memoir by New York City restaurant man Keith McNally, leading us into a little meditation on science and humanity.

To Rocky, Sandman, Jersey Girl

‘A Place for Us, By Us’: San Francisco’s Disability Cultural Center Breaks New Ground

KQED Story about a first-in-the-nation disability community center in San Francisco, featuring Deborah Kaplan, Alice Wong, and others.

Crossing the blood-brain barrier

My son’s resolution for a perfect world

is spoken by Dr. Henry Frankenstein (played by Colin Clive) in the 1931 film Frankenstein. This famous line is actually an addition to Mary Shelley’s original novel, where the creator reacts with horror and flees from his creation.

Mom, Freddie Mercury, Gordon Harrison Hull

Polka band, Ghast,

Bard with lyre

we need a bard with a lyre to compose a theme song about foot wars that occur over the middle thing on the nook with the bridge about ‘can you stop?’

Seemingly endless meaningless Sisyphean conflict

Seeing what still works.

Everybody in the house say What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast! Doesn’t really roll exactly? In “The Tamis,” we’ve started down a road and we aren’t looking back behind us. The episode finds us rolling the chair around Berkeley, thinking molecular gastronomy and cooking while disabled.

To The Sandman, Etan Rechra, Tall John and Rocky

Ladysmith Black Mambazo

creeped out my wife

The “Walker” fiasco

Turns out, they’re like foam

I burnt my elbow on the BBQ again. I stumbled and my arm touched the lid.

Our furnace broke.

We signed up for Netflix. We’re watching “Killing Eve” and “Shameless” and it’s garbage.

The Tamis

Making Rice Crispie treats isn’t the best for one hand either.

If you get one cherry in your Manhattan, it’s a reminder that you should love someone but if you get two it’s a message that you are loved

Peter Coyote, the life actor and San Francisco Digger was a big part of the inspiration for It Can Change, a guerilla art troupe that I was involved with in college.

Party on, party people: let me hear you touch the ground! In “Cooking,” What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast has all the pots on, the gas is burning and we’re ready to go. This episode touches on cooking through limitations, self-imposed or otherwise (like a disability), with a trip to the military-industrial grocery store we know and love as Target, cooking @christinatosi with the kids and watching @majordomomedia food TV.

to Rocky

We’re getting ingredients to make Rocky Road Sandwich Squares and some blondies from Christina Tosi’s Milk Bar: Kids Only book. We changed plans and instead of our trip to the market in Berkeley, we headed to the desiccated old mall in San Leandro, to hit the Target for our military-industrial shopping list:

At Target, there is aisle signage calling out the marshmallow section, where it’s marshmallows floor-to-ceiling.

The Marlon Mullen show is at MOMA in New York, on 53rd Street in Manhattan.

in December, I got a new wheelchair. It’s got a lot of good things about it: better fit, faster and more rugged. As with anything, there is a learning curve, and I’m trying to figure out the best way to use it.

baby back ribs grilled indirectly. baked beans in the instant pot

For those interested, whether by absolute necessity or purely whimsical flights of fancy, in taking a different look at food, I recommend majordomo media and it’s warren of YouTube channels. They make stuff with extremely unpretentious approaches, some of which are more-or-less accessible. At least. it’s a different type of food tv, a bridge between daytime cooking shows and food influencers. It’s refreshing.

Otherwise you’ll have to watch the I love Diet Coke guy.

I wend to the San Leandro Public Library and scored some hip hop books. I put the Chronicles Of Doom on hold, and it recommended the others, so I bagged ail three.

dilla time, by Dan Charnas

Chronicles Of Doom by S.H. Fernando

Sweat the Technique: Revelations on Creativity from the Lyrical Genius by Rakim

Stale bread lunch. Broiling stuff together on a sizzle plate. is easy and I can accomplish it with one hand.

“Last night for dinner” journal is back.

I bought a postapocalyptic 4 pack of underwear from Costco, boxer briefs, black, blank. Faceless and nameless, unidentified remains, here I come.

In the Season 9 Premiere, “The UN-ghost REVEALED” I return from ghosting the podcast since last year! I’m back and older than before! Various topics, no theme, chaotic dishevelment, dishevelry.

Did you see the game? Shout outs to our Canadian listeners, especially long-running ones from Edmonton like Sean Wingrave, shout outs to the Edmonton Oilers

Just to miss my physical therapy appointment

Shout outs to Mary, Nathan, Butters and Tibby. Thanks for the card.

The guy roasts mailboxes, and that’s fine, right?

<a href="https://eluniverso.bandcamp.com/album/avant-kraut-garden">AVANT-KRAUT GARDEN by El Universo</a>

El Universo is a cool psychedelic instrumental band from Mexico.

The doctor gave me flonase, and it kind of works.

I’m glad that you found new podcasts, or something else to do, but I’m more glad to be back.

Hi John, I too can write poetry. This came to me as I was going to bed:

I swallowed the last of my wine and went into the bedroom, looking for my water bottle. As I went to my nightstand, I put the water bottle on it, which I had been carrying under my arm. I thought to myself “hearing aids don’t save everything.”
Haha.

Banshee’s “Savage Man” was a song I enjoyed in 2024. Originally out in 2020, it was new to me. Kind of lo-fi metal.

Marlon Mullen (b. 1963) uses art publications and other print material as points of departure for his paintings, generating radical reimaginings of these sources in which text and image are transformed through his dynamic color and composition.

Marlon Mullen at MOMA, a self-taught disabled artist

In the summer, I went to the KFJC 65th anniversary listener appreciation party, where I wasn’t the only attendee in a wheelchair and that was an opportunity to support each other.

Chivalade is a a type of Italian sausage, according to the movie.

Be sure to subscribe. so you always get the selfie

In this episode, I give a shoutout to Kevin for Montana info, share insights from Andrew Pulrang’s Disability Thinking, and discuss prepping Dax Pierson interview questions. I also talk about my kids’ haircuts, our neighborhood, music, therapy, hospital visits, and my recent solo trips and poetry publications.

Shout outs to Kevin. thanks for the info about Montana. Kevin does comic book reviews on his YouTube channel Under The Cowl Of MS.

Now reading Andrew Pulrang’s Disability Thinking Substack. I’ve always been partial to the combination of disability with thinking, the guy’s been on another level for a long time.

Writing Dax Pierson interview questions. I have been lagging, trying to be recovered fully before doing the interview. I think it may be time to move forward.

After months of hair drama, i took my kids to Supercuts and John’s long hair was over in a moment. He was happy. With his new haircut, he’s ready for summer.

I’m glad that our neighborhood is a protected cul-de-sac. It means the kids can play outside with the other kids in the neighborhood and there’s hardly any car traffic.

Magic Fig. San Francisco psych band. I heard it reviewed at the KFJC staff meeting and I ordered it from the group’s bandcamp page.

Cool new record – local band – insane amount of styles – dreamlike hooks – psychedelic SF – full sonic fireworks, Silver Current Label – over the top – combo Sid Barrett mixed with HR Puff n’ Stuff

KFJC Music Notes 6/5/24

24-Hour yogurt is smoother than 8-hour yogurt, go figure.

I went to the Express Care at the Eden Valley Medical Center bc my ear was feeling blocked, like it had somebody’s thumb stuck in it. They prescribed Flonase and something else, and they’ve been making it easier to breathe through the machine

My anxiety is low, put fast away, like it’s in the past. My talk therapist thinks it may be due to the EMDR therapy that we’ve been doing.

I drove the kids to Foothill College where we went to KFJC and we hung out with Jack Tar and Good Karma before having snack on the quad, and then we drove to Hayward. In Hayward, we went to Burger King, a place the kids wanted to go badly after seeing the commercial a million times.

The next day, I went to Oakland on my own. I’ve learned how to strap the wheelchair onto my car by myself. On Father’s Day, I took the kids to Berkeley. We went to Amoeba Music, Moe’s Books, Games of Berkeley, and had slices of pizza for lunch. My new expanded base of operations includes Oakland, Berkeley and Los Altos.

My ears were burning, my vibe was strong. Three poems were accepted for publication in two different journals. After a long gap, they were accepted in the same day by editors working half a world apart. It’ll be my first time publishing my work in another country, and also my first time reprinting a poem. Stay tuned, you’ll be the first to know..

I asked my son about skibidi toilet, and he replied:

It’s gone viral.. in fifty years, look in the history books, and there’ll be skibidi toilet. Skibidi Toilet is a part of history.

A 10-year-old

Shout outs to Amy and Matt who had us over for a barbecue
Shout outs to Anthony was in town and came over

My sleep apnea CPAP device has been having low pressure, making it hard to breathe through. Unsurprisingly, it triggers anxiety. It’s like breathing through a long straw. To counteract the feeling of not being able to breathe, I adjusted the pressure on my sleep apnea device and slept longer.

I’m trying to get an appointment with the sleep doctor. I’ve slept ok last the last four or five nights.

Submitting poetry is comforting because the process is its own reward. It can just go on endlessly, a bit like the radio.

Talking to my friends, many have some source of anxiety, from stress, responsibility, waking up in the middle of the night, no afternoon coffee, drinking beer and sleeping badly. I guess what I’m going through is a fairly common experience.

I used Curb Free With Cory Lee! as a guide to book a wheelchair-accessible Alaska Cruise for 2025. This summer, we’re going to Montana for family vacation.

The new coffee machine is making better espresso. I haven’t fully figured out how to steam milk and integrate that into my coffee making, so I end up with a cappuccino that is exactly the way I want it.

I’m taking the kids to school in the mornings again.

Uncontrolled anxious thought chains kept me from bed. I didn’t get to sleep until after 1:00 a.m.

Today I did something I have been afraid of for months- since we got the wheelchair lift- I l loaded and unloaded my chair onto my van by myself.
In November, when I got the chair lift, I assumed that I couldn’t do it because there were straps and restraints to tie down the chair. A little complicated for me last year, but now, I’ve figured out some ways that I can use it on my own and there’s no other way to figure that out but just doing it

Thanks to my wife who supported me and who loaded my chair in and out of my van for years and now I figured out how I can do it on my own. I’ve needed a victory like this that I could point to and say, “I am improving.”

It takes a couple minutes to put my wheelchair on the car, but not very long at all. It makes me feel independent and that is very good.

In related news, I drove and got my pants hemmed at John The Fashion Tailor in Oakland. I’ve been getting things altered there for 20 years. Hemming six inches off of my pants changed the proportion of my clothes.

Skibidi Toilet is a part of history
I slept pretty well last night