Host Jeff Low opens up about the kind of pain that doesn’t just hurt, but hollows. He describes the silent collapse that often follows loss and the quiet, lonely place where many men find themselves—moving through life unable to feel, unable to breathe fully, unable to say, “I’m not okay.” Through raw storytelling and lived experience, Jeff explores the difference between acknowledging pain and drowning in it, and the subtle, but life-altering moment when he realized staying still wasn’t survival, it was surrender.

This episode traces Jeff’s journey from grief-induced numbness after losing his dad to the unlikely lifeline he found through physical movement. What started as standing in his driveway with running shoes on eventually became months of training and a grueling mountain ultramarathon, each step a defiant reminder, “I am still here.” It’s a powerful reflection on what happens when men confront pain instead of numbing it, and how movement, however small, can become rebellion, healing, and hope.

Chapters
[Start] When Pain Becomes Your Shadow: Waking up numb, living like a ghost, and the silent isolation men carry.
05:34 The Whisper to Move Again: The moment Jeff realized stillness was destroying him, leading to and thehis decision to sign up for an ultramarathon.
08:03 Movement as Medicine: From driveway breaths to painful first runs, movement can begin to shift the darkness.
11:08 Mile 20: Breaking Open, Not Down: A stranger on the trail and the emotional breakthrough that changed everything.
16:27 Brotherhood and the Choice to Keep Going: Why isolation keeps men stuck and why honest brotherhood saves lives.

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