Wild Obedience Man

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 11e

Title: Stack the brick, lay the crumb, take the hit.

Description:

I guess this is it—public obedience has begun, and the war is officially on. Not much left to say here, except that I like this. I like this a lot. The rhythm is clear now: stack the brick, lay the crumb, take the hit, keep walking. That’s the life. That’s the call. Let’s go.

I talk about:

• Stepping into full public obedience
• Embracing the spiritual war that comes with it
• A new personal mantra: stack, lay, take, walk
• The strange peace that hits when you stop hiding

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “Yeah… we’ve stepped into public obedience and the war is on.”

01:05 – “How do you like this? I like this a lot.”

01:22 – “Stack the brick, lay the crumb, take the hit, keep walking.”

01:35 – Sneeze, baby.

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Obedience is brick-by-brick, crumb-by-crumb—and it comes with hits. Take them anyway.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E11e — Stack the brick, lay the crumb, take the hit, keep walking.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 11d

Title: Jesus is embarrassing—and I’m done hiding it.

Description:

After re-listening to Episode 11a, I got a heart-prick from the Spirit: I needed to confess my embarrassment. I’ve been ashamed of Jesus. Ashamed of what obedience looks like. Ashamed to be seen as “that guy.” But today I confess it. Following Jesus is strange, disruptive, uncomfortable—and yes, embarrassing. I’ve hidden behind silence, half-truths, and social media excuses. No more. I commit to being fully seen, misunderstood, and known for Him.

I talk about:

• Being ashamed of Jesus—and finally confessing it
• Why spiritual embarrassment leads to half-obedience
• The fear of getting what I actually want from God
• Why I’ve self-sabotaged for years in the name of false humility
• Rejecting the safe, curated American dream for risky obedience
• Trusting Jesus with both obscurity and influence
• The call to stop looking back and start running

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “I had a pinprick of the heart—I’ve been embarrassed by Jesus.”

04:28 – The fear of getting everything you’ve actually asked for

08:55 – “I don’t want to mislead myself anymore.”

13:44 – The gospel is abundance—self-sabotage is not obedience

17:30 – “Trusting Jesus is more embarrassing than any risk I’ve taken.”

22:18 – “Sold the house, quit the job… and didn’t tell anyone it was for Jesus.”

25:40 – “Your 38. Quit looking back. Enjoy every moment. Rock and roll.”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Spiritual embarrassment is just pride in disguise—confess it, crucify it, and follow Jesus anyway.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E11d — Following Jesus is embarrassing. And I’m finally okay with that.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 11c

Title: I commit to being dangerously great.

Description:

It cut off again, but the message remains. This final installment of the 11-series is short and sharp. I reaffirm my commitment to Kingdom greatness—not as a brand, but as a death to self. I lay down every desire at the feet of Jesus and declare, without apology, that I will pursue greatness defined by eternity. I commit to being a dangerous force for good—online, offline, and wherever God sends me.

I talk about:

• Crucifying the flesh that hijacks Kingdom dreams
• Pursuing greatness without apology or self-sabotage
• Laying every desire at the feet of Jesus
• Learning to hold the tension between bold effort and total surrender
• Creating content that punches through noise and carries weight
• Becoming a real threat to hell

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “It cut off again… but I’m committed to being great.”

01:10 – Laying every dream at the feet of Jesus

02:04 – “I commit to being a dangerous force for good—online and in life.”

02:36 – A final prayer and bold declaration

🧠 Core Takeaway:

I commit to greatness that’s birthed in surrender and built for eternal impact.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E11c — I commit to pissing the devil off for God’s glory.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 11b

Title: I commit to becoming great—God’s way.

Description:

I’m not sure where the last one cut off, but this is the continuation. I’m giving myself a couple days to rest, but Monday I go all in. This short follow-up is one final breath before the fire. I say the thing I missed last time: I commit to sharing this with everyone—friends, family, online. No more hiding. No more soft-launching obedience. I speak directly to the concept of greatness and redefine it through crucifixion, sacrifice, and Spirit-led obedience. I’m not chasing applause. I’m becoming a weapon in God’s hand.

I talk about:

• The decision to stop hiding and go fully public with what I’m building
• Preparing for conflict, misunderstanding, and awkward conversations
• Redefining greatness as marked, fruitful, and Spirit-born
• Why God-made men are meant to carry dominion—but not ego
• The inverted path of crucified greatness

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “I don’t know where it cut off… but here’s what I missed.”

01:42 – “I commit to sharing with friends and family—no more hiding.”

03:15 – Embracing the hard conversations obedience will bring

05:00 – “I commit to suffering, obscurity, and outlasting silence.”

06:12 – Redefining greatness: power + character + fruit, not fame

08:00 – “Greatness without crucifixion is a curse… even if you’re applauded.”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

You can become great—just make sure it’s God’s definition, not the world’s.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E11b — I commit to becoming great, through death to self.

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🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 11a

Title: I commit to doing it anyway.

Description:

It’s 5:53 AM, and I’ve been up since 2:30 with barely any sleep, spiraling through Twitter, PT, and exhaustion. I record from a foggy, shame-soaked place—but fully awake to the realization that everything I’m afraid of must now be faced. This episode is a raw, relentless verbal commitment. Not a performance. Not a plan. Just a man telling the truth. I list out every fear, failure, and frustration—and I commit to doing it anyway.

I talk about:

• The trap of overthinking obedience while under-executing
• Why perfectionism, fear, and shame keep me off social media
• The decision to commit—publicly and messily—to daily action
• The paradox of wanting to be forgotten while longing to make impact
• My internal war with influence, execution, and spiritual surrender
• The painful cost of staying silent versus the risk of being misunderstood
• A full-body commitment to post, build, obey, and live—flawed and free

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Sleepless at 5:53 AM, lost in doomscrolling and self-loathing

06:45 – “I’m not honoring what I know to be true, and that has to change.”

13:22 – The embarrassing call to obey Jesus through social media

22:10 – “I feel like I’m sitting on the step while God tells me I can swim.”

27:30 – Raw list of everything I commit to—from failure to fame

50:11 – “If I don’t commit now, I never will... and nothing I want will happen.”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Discipline isn't about systems or clarity—it's about doing what I already know to do, even when it's scary, messy, or misunderstood.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E11a — I commit to doing it, imperfectly, anyway.

🍞🦅🤌🫵🏽🔥😏🤘🧨😬‼️😳🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 10c

Title: Just do it. Blue truck. Jesus.

Description:

It’s 3:27 PM on July 10, and I’m driving home from another Holy Spirit download. After listening back to old Crumb episodes, I realized I’ve spent too much time trying to perfect the rollout—branding, strategy, AI plans, all of it—and not enough time just doing the thing. This episode is a turning point. I unload about Crumb, obedience, blue truck confirmations, spiritual hunger, and the urgency to stop waiting. It ends with a full-throttle Spirit-led altar call.

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• Letting go of control and the obsession with strategy
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• Why Crumb doesn’t work without the Holy Spirit
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• Marketing plans vs. Spirit-filled obedience
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• “Just do it” — and how that hit me differently today
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• A rapid-fire Spirit moment that turned into an impromptu sermon
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• Crying out to listeners to trust God and give their life to Jesus
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• Ending with a prayer for clarity, hope, and surrender
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “I’ve done insane things with this Crumb stuff…”

04:22 – “You don’t have a chance without the Spirit”

08:15 – “Blue truck… Kroger van, doesn’t count. But maybe it does.”

12:40 – “Just do it. Starsky & Hutch. Shia LaBeouf. Do it.”

15:33 – Full-speed altar call: “Are you hurting? Lost? Alone?”

20:02 – “Don’t give up. God never gave up on you.”

28:14 – “We all bleed the same blood. It gets easier when you’ve got God.”

34:30 – Closing prayer: “Eat your daily bread and trust what He does with it.”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

If this really is what we think it is—then it’s time to stop perfecting and start obeying. Just do it. With the Spirit.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 10c — Just do it. If He’s prompting you… trust Him and go.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 10b

Title: Lock me onto your Spirit, Lord

Description:

It’s 2:04 PM on my 38th birthday, and I’m recording this six minutes before another stick shift session in Uncle Greg’s Mustang. What starts as a quick update turns into a raw processing of recent conversations with New Age friends, Spirit-led obedience, and the mystery of the Holy Spirit. I talk about fumbling the football when it comes to articulating God’s love, and yet how grateful I am that the Spirit always locks me back on.

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• Tension-filled conversations with friends deep in New Age beliefs
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• A talk with my pastor Vince about Spirit-led obedience
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• Francis Chan’s message on the Holy Spirit not being a formula
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• How easily I fumble trying to articulate spiritual truth with clarity and love
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• Repenting on my birthday and asking God for a clean heart
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• The “lock-on” moment with the Holy Spirit when I re-center
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• Dedicating this one to my pastor—and finally sending him an episode
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “Six minutes ‘til I’m back at Uncle Greg’s in the Mustang GT”

01:14 – Hard conversations with Christ-consciousness friends

04:35 – Vince, obedience, and the mystery of the Spirit

07:48 – “I fumble the football so often when it comes to the Spirit”

09:20 – Fighter jet imagery: locking back on to the Holy Spirit

11:52 – Mid-prayer: “Holy Spirit, give me a clean heart”

13:40 – “I’m sending this one to Vince… this is your episode, buddy”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

I might fumble the mysteries of God, but He always locks me back on when I repent and ask for His Spirit.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 10b — Lock me onto your Spirit, Lord… and use this mess.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 10a

Title: I’m falling in love with life not being about me

Description:

It’s 7:21 AM on July 10—and it’s my 38th birthday. I’m headed out to get coffee and taking a few minutes to reflect on what feels like the clearest truth I’ve learned so far: life is not about me. Not just as an idea, but as something I’m starting to genuinely enjoy. I trace how our culture’s programming traps us in ego, how Crumb is my way of resisting it, and why falling in love with Jesus has made all the difference.

I talk about:

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• Turning 38 and reflecting on the deepening of spiritual clarity
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• The cultural programming that constantly tells us life is about us
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• Why even healing and spirituality can still be ego-centric
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• Crumb as a daily re-centering tool to stay locked on Jesus
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• Recognizing that I used to “do selflessness” to earn a reward
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• The joy of actually enjoying the fact that it’s not about me
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• How intimacy with Jesus makes this truth come alive
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “It’s my birthday today… I’m 38 years old”

03:20 – “The more you try to figure life out through yourself, the more confusing it gets”

06:40 – Programming, advertising, and the ego’s hunger for attention

10:14 – Why Crumb exists: to re-anchor me in Jesus

13:08 – “I’m beginning to enjoy the truth that life’s not about me”

16:55 – “I don’t love it because it’s true—I love it because I love Him”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

I’m falling for Jesus—and that love is making me love the fact that this life is not about me.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 10a — Happy birthday to me… I’m grateful life’s not about me.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 9

Title: I know who I am and I know who God is

Description:

It’s 5:52 PM on July 9, and I’m recording this on my way to Chipotle after a life-giving night with Farmer Ryan, Rodney (aka Wayne), and Brad. We kayaked the Little Miami, sat by a fire, and talked late into the night—about everything from father wounds and AI to the state of the world and our faith. I’m leaving a lot unsaid on purpose, but something shifted in me. I feel fathered by God, more at peace than I’ve been in a long time, and hopeful about what’s coming next.

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• Kayaking, dancing, and fireside talks with Ryan, Rodney, and Brad
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• Feeling a spiritual breakthrough around identity, peace, and calling
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• Creating a vision board with my kids about moving to Morrow, Ohio
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• A deepening sense of surrender around money, timing, and provision
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• Integrating head knowledge into soul-level understanding
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• Hearing from Rodney about the “dark night of the soul” and emerging new
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• Feeling seen, supported, and surrounded by Kingdom friendships
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “Good evening… I’m on my way to Chipotle”

02:00 – Kayaking, fire, worship, and conversations that fed the soul

05:42 – “I had a breakthrough… I know who I am and who God is”

08:23 – Vision board with the kids and the Morrow, Ohio stirring

12:55 – “I feel fathered by my Heavenly Father”

15:17 – Rodney’s words: “You’re coming out of this with a whole new heart”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

When other men speak life into you, and you receive it as truth—it becomes part of you. I’m walking forward as a new man.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 9 — I know who I am, and I know who God is.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 8c

Title: I don’t want to go home and apologize

Description:

It’s just after 7 AM, and I’m sitting by the Ohio River, watching the fog rise and a blue heron fly away. I don’t want to go home and apologize to my kids—but I will. I talk to the Lord about peace, stillness, and why I decided not to post the Epstein video rant. This moment is about surrender. It’s about choosing obedience even when I don’t feel like it.

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• Sitting quietly with God by the Ohio River
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• Seeing a blue heron take flight
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• Choosing not to post the video I recorded
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• Wanting peace more than vindication
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• Remembering that justice and apology are both paths to peace
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• Preparing to go home and make things right with my kids
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “Lord, I’m sitting here by the river”

01:34 – “I don’t want to go home and apologize to my kids”

02:40 – Letting the Epstein video go to protect peace

04:02 – Blue heron, Kentucky fog, and stillness with God

06:45 – “People were probably doing this same thing 200 years ago”

07:30 – “I’ve got to go back and make breakfast—and that apology”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Justice matters. But peace is what I’m really after—and it comes through obedience.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 8c — I don’t want to go home and apologize… but I will.