Wild Obedience Man

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 6a

Title: Do I give it all away?

Description:

It’s 6:05 AM on July 5th. I’m walking through morning dew in Delhi, still glowing from yesterday’s amazing Fourth of July with family, fireworks, and freedom. My kids had a blast, and that fills my tank. But today’s episode isn’t about celebration—it’s about the internal war I woke up to. I’m torn between launching Crumb as a for-profit ministry with radical generosity or giving 100% of merch profits away through Merch for the Marginalized. I process the tension between stewardship, trust, and the fear of being perceived as greedy or gimmicky.

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• Why I’m so grateful for July 4th in America
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• A hilarious moment where someone thought we lived on a cruise ship
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• How I’m wired as a risk-taker vs. my dad’s long-game financial wisdom
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• My battle between making money and giving everything away
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• The dream that pushed me to consider 100% donation profits
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• The deeper prayer wrestling over how to launch Crumb faithfully
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “Beautiful sunrise here in Delhi… yesterday was the Fourth of July”

03:50 – The dream that woke me up with a question: should I give 100% away?

08:25 – Wrestling with entrepreneurship vs. obedience

12:40 – “I just want to do You, God”

15:50 – “Is this ADHD or divine?”

18:15 – Processing my dad’s financial legacy and long-game mentality

23:10 – “We’re exposed financially… and I don’t want to blow this”

28:40 – A trail of deer mid-recording

30:00 – Full, raw prayer: “Please show me what to do with all of this…”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

If Crumb ever works, I want people to see the trail that led here—obedience, uncertainty, prayer, and surrender.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E6a — All of these are crumbs. And they’re all Yours.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 5

Title: God bless America

Description:

It’s July 4th, 11:35 AM, and I’m recording this real quick on my way to grab a protein shake before two big family parties—one at my in-laws' with pool and fireworks, and one later at Western Hills Country Club. I didn’t plan a deep message today, but I can’t help reflecting on how grateful I am to live in this country. After spending the last year in a third-world nation and heading back soon, I just see it differently. We have so much to be thankful for, and the path to freedom—true freedom—comes through faith in Jesus.

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• My two big family parties on July 4th
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• The beauty of Cincinnati weather today
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• Why living abroad reshaped how I see America
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• The unseen war behind all the culture wars
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• Freedom as faith: walking toward Jesus is winning
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• The truth that love—real love—is sacrifice
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “I feel like a radio announcer today…”

01:05 – Fireworks, pool parties, and gratitude

02:20 – “After living in a third world country…”

04:10 – Why America still has more unity than we think

05:30 – Freedom begins with faith in Jesus

07:00 – “If you’re wrestling with Jesus… you’re winning”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Freedom isn’t just a political idea—it’s walking daily toward the light, toward Jesus.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E5 — We were made by love, for love, with love… and only a Christlike love can hold this country together.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 4

Title: You can’t help everybody, and that sucks

Description: It’s July 3, 11:10 AM. Just left a walk with my buddy Dan at Fernbank Park and reflecting on a hard update about Mansaray. I’ve been torn for weeks about whether or not to keep helping him—and after talking with Said and Pastor Vince, I’ve finally found peace in drawing a line. We talk about obedience versus enabling, boundaries in the Kingdom, and why discernment is just as holy as sacrifice. Plus, I reflect on my friendship with Dan and the beauty of walking with brothers who sharpen you without explanation.

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• The final decision to block Mansaray and why it was so hard
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• Said’s perspective from 10 years working with Beach Boys
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• Scriptural filters for discerning when to stop helping
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• My old pattern of sacrificing past the point of wisdom
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• The importance of boundaries even when love still exists
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• A beautiful walk and honest moment with my friend Dan
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “Just left the shelter, heading over the 75/71 bridge, mind racing…”

04:50 – When does helping become enabling? (Said’s blunt insight)

09:15 – Vince’s story & the Glenn flashback: empathy vs. manipulation

16:30 – Biblical filters: Jesus gave freely, but not blindly

23:10 – Red flags: erosion of peace, chronic excuses, no spiritual hunger

29:20 – “I can’t help everybody. And that just sucks.”

34:40 – Recap of Fernbank Park walk with Dan — friendship without pretense

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Matthew 18:22 – “Forgive seventy times seven…”

Matthew 7:6 – “Do not cast your pearls before swine…”

2 Thessalonians 3:10 – “If a man will not work, he shall not eat”

Proverbs 26:11 – “As a dog returns to its vomit…” (implied)

Luke 18:22-23 – “Jesus let the rich young ruler walk away”

John 10:11 – “The Good Shepherd lays down His life for the sheep” (implied contrast)

🧠 Core Takeaway:

We’re called to love, but not to be a crutch. Even Jesus walked away sometimes.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E4 — I’m not Jesus. I’m just a vessel. And sometimes the most loving thing I can do is let go.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 3c

Title: When do you stop helping someone?

Description:

Just left the Northern Kentucky Emergency Shelter after another round of homeless outreach. I’ve been talking with Pastor Vince and wrestling with the same tension I’ve had with Mansaray—when do you stop helping someone? When do you walk away? I’ve seen this in coaching, in ministry, in life: if you want it more than they do, what’s your biblical obligation? I know Jesus said to forgive 77 times, but He also said not to cast your pearls before swine. Where’s the line? That’s what I’m asking today.

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• An update on Mansaray and my plan to block him
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• Lessons from talking to Pastor Vince and Said
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• The tension between mercy, wisdom, and boundaries
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• The weariness of pouring into someone who won’t drink
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• Biblical questions I want answered—where’s the red line?
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• Whether fruitlessness or resistance warrants stepping back
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Leaving the shelter, still wrestling

01:35 – “How do you biblically know when to stop helping someone?”

03:10 – Forgiveness vs. boundaries: are they at odds?

04:30 – The line between pouring out in love and wasting energy

05:50 – “I’ve never asked ChatGPT this with Scripture in mind…”

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Matthew 18:22 – “Forgive seventy times seven…”

Matthew 7:6 – “Do not cast your pearls before swine…”

Proverbs 26:11 – “As a dog returns to its vomit…” (implied in the theme)

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Love is unconditional, but help is not. Discernment is part of obedience.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E3c — I’m not looking for an excuse to walk away—I’m looking for the line that honors Jesus.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 3b

Title: Deploy me, deploy me, deploy me

Description:

July 2 continues. This is part two of my big post-blue-truck brain dump. I go deeper into what Crumb actually is: a daily digital invitation into a spiritual war most people don’t know they’re in. I’m building this for the broken, the curious, and the committed—and I’m using every tool I’ve got to make Jesus impossible to ignore. If we’re going to challenge the algorithm, we better show up with truth, light, and a better story. This is that story.

I talk about:

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• Why Crumb avoids churchy formulas and instead builds digital discipleship with dignity
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• The ecosystem of tools, PDFs, brotherhoods, and fire-starting content
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• Daily decisions as spiritual “championships” in a world at war
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• Real talk about money, ministry, provision, and my own wiring
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• The metaphor of teams, coaches, benchwarmers, and injuries in Kingdom life
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• Why eternity is the real scoreboard—and conscience is your daily referee
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• My core mission: help you offer one more crumb to Jesus today
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “How do we draft people into this? Because the algorithm is discipling better than the church.”

06:45 – Teams, coaches, injuries, and daily battle metaphors in the Kingdom of God

14:05 – “Rules of the game: don’t quit. Offer a crumb. Stay in it.”

18:55 – Benchwarmers, All-Stars, referees, and the real war for your soul

24:30 – “If you’ve got no reverent awe of the Lord, you’ve got no wisdom.”

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Matthew 25:40 – “Whatever you did for the least of these… you did for me”

Proverbs 9:10 – “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom”

John 10:10 – “The thief comes to steal, kill and destroy…” (implied)

Galatians 6:9 – “Let us not grow weary in doing good…” (core principle throughout)

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Your life is a championship. Offer your crumb today. Let God multiply it.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E3b — Stay in the game. Keep offering crumbs. Never quit.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 3a

Title: I’m just trying to leave a trail of breadcrumbs

Description: July 2. It’s early, and I’m still pouring everything out. Today is a behind-the-scenes brain dump—a firehose of strategy, conviction, confession, and vision for CRUMB. I talk through the actual digital ecosystem we’re building and the responsibility I feel for it to disciple, challenge, and invite people into daily transformation. This one’s not polished. It’s raw. It's unfiltered. But it’s me, co-creating with God in real time.

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• What a true CRUMB digital ecosystem could look like
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• Why every platform and product should offer real value and real invitation
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• Building behavior modification into discipleship without control
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• The drama of following Jesus in a distracted world
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• How Crumb is designed to reach skeptics, seekers, and soldiers at once
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• My wrestling with monetization, ministry, and daily surrender
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• Deep ideas about choke points, boiling points, power dynamics, and private battles
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “You’re an absolute psycho if you’re still listening... but here we go”

04:10 – CRUMB as a frictionless digital ecosystem designed to invite and disciple

11:45 – Building in behavior modification like sanctification, one percent at a time

18:30 – The spiritual war, identity drama, and letting go of worldly images

25:10 – Choke points, boiling points, and power dynamics in digital discipleship

33:40 – How do we draft people in and keep them there—without manipulation?

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

2 Corinthians 3:18 – “...being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory” (implied)

Hebrews 5:12–14 – “Stop drinking milk, start chewing meat” (referenced)

Luke 9:23 – “Take up your cross daily and follow me” (implied as daily death theme)

Matthew 28:19 – “Go and make disciples…” (in spirit of Crumb’s digital mission)

🧠 Core Takeaway:

If you can follow Jesus daily through distraction, drama, and denial—you can change the world.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E3a — I want my life to be a living testimony, not a testimonial.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 2

Title: I don’t have any good answers right now

Description: It’s July 1st, and I’m sitting outside a packed Starbucks after a long day at the zoo. I gave Mansaray—a young man from Sierra Leone—his first video call, and now I’m wrestling. He asked for about $450 USD to pay for school fees. I’m torn. I don’t know if he’s telling the truth. I don’t know if giving would help or hurt him. And I don’t know what God is asking of me yet. But I’m here. Processing. Trying to walk slow, pray deep, and obey without forcing anything.

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• My video call with Mansaray, a beach boy from Sierra Leone
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• His request for help and my uncertainty about how to respond
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• The challenge of discernment in cross-cultural giving
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• My internal pull between obedience, wisdom, and fear
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• Being invited into deeper rest—and feeling the effects
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• Struggling to balance motivation with peace
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• Just trying to let God lead, without pushing the outcome
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Post-BMV reflections, tired and conflicted

02:30 – Mansaray’s $450 school fee request and the risks involved

05:45 – “What if I take him on as a mentor?”

07:10 – Weighing generosity vs. enabling

08:45 – “I’ve been living more relaxed… but less productive”

10:00 – Wrestling with rest, drive, and what God actually wants

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Matthew 25:44–45 – “When did we see you hungry or thirsty…?” (implied)

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Sometimes obedience looks like not having the answer yet—but still showing up.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E2 — I don’t know what to do yet, but I’m listening.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 1

Title: I follow a God who can do all things—so why do I get to choose when I don’t give?

Description:

Welcome to Season Two. I don’t totally know what’s changing, but something is. I’m no longer just working out my own mess with God—I feel like we’re stepping into something together. And it starts with obedience. Today, I confess the tension I’ve been feeling about ignoring messages from young men in Africa asking for help—some real, some maybe not. But I can’t ignore the conviction anymore. If I say I’m here to mentor young men, I can’t choose the convenient ones.

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• Why I messaged a boy from Sierra Leone after 17 ignored calls
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• A second connection I regret possibly missing for good
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• The tension between wisdom, boundaries, and obedience
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• The fear of being scammed vs. the fear of ignoring Jesus
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• Why Season 2 feels like God saying “Okay, let’s do this together”
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• Honest regret over missing opportunities to love like Jesus
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “This is the start of Season Two”

01:00 – 17 missed calls from Monterey—and what I finally said

04:45 – A second young man who disappeared before I could respond

07:30 – “What if he was real? What if I missed it?”

10:20 – Wrestling with Jesus’s words: “When did we see you hungry?”

12:00 – “Season 2 isn’t about fixing me. It’s about following Him.”

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Matthew 25:35–40 – “When did we see you hungry…?”

Philippians 2:12 – “Work out your salvation with fear and trembling”

Luke 6:30 – “Give to everyone who asks of you…” (implied wrestling)

🧠 Core Takeaway:

If you say you want to help—especially in Jesus’s name—don’t ignore the ones He sends.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E1 — Alarm bells, wake up. The ones I claim to care about are already calling.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 49e

Title: You were worth the cost

Description:

This is a call. A plea. A moment for anyone who’s made it this far and still isn’t sure if Jesus is real. I read one more line from “Sons and Daughters” by Iron Bell Music—“I saw you. You were lost. You were worth the cost.” If you’re wrestling, if you’re wondering, if you’ve never fully surrendered—this might be your moment. Don’t ignore it.

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• One final lyric from the song that keeps wrecking me
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• An open call to anyone still on the fence about Jesus
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• Why this message might be your sign
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• What to do if you feel a tug on your heart
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• Encouragement to get on your knees and ask Him in
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “You were worth the cost” — lyric from Sons and Daughters

00:45 – Speaking directly to those who don’t know Jesus

01:15 – “Take this as the sign, my brother or sister…”

02:10 – Final plea: go listen to that song, then ask Him in

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

None directly quoted, but entire message echoes John 3:16 and Luke 15

🧠 Core Takeaway:

If you’ve been waiting for a sign—this is it. You were worth the cost.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #49e — Go listen to that song. Then get on your knees and ask Jesus into your life.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 49d

Title: And that concludes Season One of the Crumb

Description:

A short, spontaneous wrap-up to an emotional stretch of episodes. I declare the end of Season One—not as a closing, but as a marker. A moment to pause, exhale, and acknowledge the spiritual ride we’ve been on. I don't fully see what's next, but I know the Lord says: we're just getting started.

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• Marking the end of a chapter in Crumb
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• Declaring “Season One” complete
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• Speaking truth over fear in Jesus’ name
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• Standing in perfect love as the journey continues
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• Trusting the next chapter, even without knowing it
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “And that concludes Season One of the Crumb…”

00:20 – “We're just getting started, says the Lord”

00:40 – Spontaneous worship and spiritual battle

01:10 – Declaring no fear, casting out the enemy

01:30 – “Perfect love casts out all fear”

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

1 John 4:18 – “Perfect love casts out fear”

James 4:7 – “Resist the devil, and he will flee from you”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Even when we don’t see what’s next, we stand in perfect love and declare: no fear.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #49d — We cast out fear in Jesus’ name. We're just getting started.