Wild Obedience Man

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 49c

Title: What if God actually takes pleasure in me?

Description:

Mid-song, mid-tears, mid-revelation—I hit record. “Sons and Daughters” by Iron Bell wrecked me this morning, and I couldn’t keep it in. This is a raw, undone moment of letting the truth crash through: God takes pleasure in me. I’m His treasure. And He gave everything to get me. That’s the gospel. That’s Crumb. That’s everything.

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• The lyric that cracked me wide open: “You are my treasure”
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• A memory of weeping in a sauna as Jesus interrupted my plans
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• Why it feels so foreign to let God love us with delight
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• A new lens on the treasure-in-the-field parable: God did that for us
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• How hustle and performance pull me from this truth
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• Why this is the heartbeat of Crumb: God is all-out for you
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Song trigger: “Sons and Daughters” by Iron Bell Music

01:15 – “He gets pleasure from us. We’re His treasure.”

03:10 – Remembering a Holy Spirit encounter in a sauna

05:45 – Realizing God sees us as the treasure worth everything

07:20 – “I’ve never given myself permission to live in that space”

09:00 – A king who gives everything for people who don’t love Him

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Matthew 13:44 – “The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field…”

Philippians 2:9 – “Therefore God exalted Him… and gave Him the name above every name.”

Romans 5:8 – “While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

God doesn’t just love you—He treasures you. And He already gave everything to prove it.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #49c — God takes pleasure in us. That’s why He gave everything. That’s why He’s King.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 49b

Title: Let God break your rules

Description:

After seeing the song “Break the Rules” pop up on Spotify, I felt a Holy Spirit nudge to hit record. This short episode is a spontaneous word about how God breaks the rules—not of righteousness, but of human expectation. I unpack how we try to box Him in with our upbringing, traditions, or logic, and why we need to give God room to work in ways that feel impossible, unconventional, or even uncomfortable.

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• Why the song “Break the Rules” triggered this reflection
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• How God consistently works outside our expectations
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• The danger of boxing God in with human assumptions
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• Encouragement to let God work in surprising ways
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• Why fear of judgment shouldn’t block obedience
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• My personal experience with God breaking my own assumptions
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Song trigger: “Break the Rules” by Shepherd & Social Club Misfits

01:20 – “God breaks every rule people think He follows”

02:40 – My wife’s lifelong conviction: don’t put God in a box

04:15 – What it means to let God break your own rules

06:00 – Encouragement to act, even when it feels scary or counterintuitive

07:10 – “He can do anything if it’s for your good and His glory”

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Philippians 2:12 – “Work out your salvation with fear and trembling”

Romans 8:28 – “He works all things together for the good…”

Isaiah 55:8–9 – “My thoughts are not your thoughts…”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Stop assuming God has to follow your framework. Let Him break your rules—and watch what happens.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #49b — Allow God the space to break your rules and even break the rules you think He has to follow.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 49a

Title: We didn’t even say Jesus once

Description:

It’s 4:16 AM on June 30, and I’m walking alone through my parents’ neighborhood, still processing the family party we hosted yesterday. We shared our Mercy Ships journey with over 40 relatives—but something’s bothering me. We never mentioned Jesus. I wrestle with whether people truly understood the why behind what we’re doing, and how to balance bold testimony with quiet faithfulness. I pray through the tension, the missed moments, and the deeper call to live—and speak—for God.

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• What I noticed while presenting to 40+ family members
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• How much has really happened in our Mercy Ships journey
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• Regret over not explicitly mentioning Jesus or Mercy Ships’ mission
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• A missed opportunity at church and lingering disconnection
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• How to discern when and how to share what God is doing
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• The tension between platform and humility
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• A raw prayer surrendering all results to God
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Early morning walk after the family party

03:45 – Realizing we didn’t mention Jesus once in the presentation

08:30 – Wrestling with “do-gooder” perception vs. gospel reality

12:10 – Missed opportunity at church for the kids and for testimony

16:50 – Should we share more publicly or let our life speak for itself?

22:00 – Stories of miracles and seeds planted through Mercy Ships

30:30 – A prayer of full surrender over missed moments and future fruit

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Luke 10:19 – “I have given you authority…”

Romans 10:14 – “How will they hear without someone preaching to them?”

Romans 8:26 – “The Spirit Himself intercedes… with groanings too deep for words”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Sometimes the greatest gift we can give is simply telling the truth about what God is doing—boldly, humbly, and in His timing.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #49a — I offer up everything we’re doing, everything we’re not doing—everything, Lord—is yours.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 48c

Title: I need to let go of anyone understanding my walk with Jesus

Description:

Still processing the layers from 48a and 48b, I hit record again to capture what’s surfacing now. It’s raw, unfiltered, and barely coherent at points—but that’s where the truth breaks through. I confront the exhausting need to prove that I know Jesus, to make others understand my walk, and to explain why I care so much. And then—I let it go.

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• The difference between a live wire and a steady lamp
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• My pattern of trying to explain or justify my walk
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• The one thing I finally need to release: needing others to get it
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• Why Jesus feels so real and close to me
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• The heart behind CRUMB and why it exists
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• Letting go of the mess and the performance
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• A prayer to see past my crazy and find Jesus
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “What effort am I adding that Jesus didn’t ask for?”

01:15 – Letting go of the need to prove my walk with God

03:10 – Jesus is real, close, and kind—this is why I care

05:00 – “All I want is for you to know Jesus like I do”

06:00 – Letting go of all I’m bad at, and all this may or may not be

07:10 – “Jesus, let people look past my crazy and see you”

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

None explicitly quoted or referenced

🧠 Core Takeaway:

I don’t need to prove my walk with Jesus to anyone—I just need to live it and let Him be seen.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #48c — Jesus, I pray that people can look beyond my crazy and look to you.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 48b

Title: The ego can't compute what it doesn't control

Description:

Right after posting 48a, I fed the transcript into ChatGPT and asked it to reflect on what’s really going on. What came back was confronting, clarifying, and somehow exactly what I needed. I read it aloud here—line by line—processing the raw truth about my ego, identity, and what rewiring actually requires. Then, I tell the full story of the “blue truck,” a personal spiritual marker of God’s presence in some of my darkest and most formative moments.

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• What the transcript of 48a revealed when reflected back to me
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• Why detox from false reward systems is messy but holy
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• The actual rewiring needed to live from sonship, not ego
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• The difference between resurrection fire and prove-them-wrong fire
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• How I first encountered the blue truck and what it’s come to mean
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• Ongoing confirmations from God through shiny blue F-150s
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Processing ChatGPT’s read of Episode 48a

02:00 – “You’re a man getting rewired in public”

05:20 – Old wiring vs. Kingdom defaults

08:45 – What’s on the other side of rewiring? Peace before provision

12:10 – Telling the full origin story of the blue truck

19:50 – Multiple confirmations and “blue truck moments”

22:15 – Why I’ll always shout “blue truck” when I see one

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

John 15:5 – “I am the vine; you are the branches…”

Matthew 11:28–30 – “My yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

Galatians 2:20 – “I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.”

Philippians 1:6 – “He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion…”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Rewiring doesn’t happen when you feel free—it happens when you no longer need to feel free.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #48b — You're not broken for wanting impact, but the fire you need is resurrection fire.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 48a

Title: I'm trying to prove myself worthy of the blessing

Description:

It's early morning on June 29, 2025, and I'm driving out to get coffee for my wife while staying at my in-laws’ place. Later today, we’re heading to a big family party, but my mind is still tangled in yesterday’s wrestling. I recorded one of my most vulnerable episodes—processing idols, ego, prosperity, and the real motives behind my obedience. This episode is a reflection and continuation of that—raw, unfiltered, and as honest as I know how to be. I end with a prayer to mark the moment and surrender the outcome.

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• My desire to live for Jesus vs. my ego-driven hunger to be materially blessed
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• The danger of making spiritual pursuit itself an idol
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• My internal battle with prosperity theology and provision
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• Why rest is hard for me, and how burnout affects my family
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• The need to embody truth, not just talk about it
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• Wanting to be trusted by God with wealth to glorify Him
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• Trusting God’s pace, even when I don’t understand His plan
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Morning coffee run, big family day ahead

01:30 – Reflection on yesterday’s vulnerable confession

03:00 – Wrestling with whether Jesus is truly my reward

06:45 – The fine line between obedience and idolatry

12:30 – My ego wants to prove God’s goodness through success

19:00 – The craving for rest and how burnout affects my love

26:10 – A prayer of surrender over calling, provision, and legacy

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Matthew 11:28–30 – “My yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

Matthew 6:33 – “Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness…”

Ephesians 3:20 – “Exceedingly abundantly more than all we ask or imagine.”

2 Corinthians 5:7 – “We walk by faith, not by sight.”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

God has proven He’s faithful—now I’m learning how to be faithful, too, without needing to prove anything to anyone but Him.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #48a — I'm doing this as best as I possibly can, all for you, because you have blessed me beyond my wildest imagination.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 47c

Title: I haven't been making Jesus the reward

Description:

It’s later in the day, the kids are in the pool, and I’m sitting here confessing the real stuff. Processing with ChatGPT, praying, repenting. I realized I’ve been deeply off—striving for fruit instead of resting in Jesus as the reward. There are father wounds I’m still carrying. Lies I’ve believed about CRUMB, God, money, and identity. This one is raw. It’s layered. It’s probably the most honest confession I’ve recorded yet.

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• Letting father wounds shape my view of God
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• Confessing the idol of fruit, success, and validation
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• How CRUMB has been distorted by striving
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• Why I’m terrified of being a “failure” in my kids’ eyes
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• Breaking with the lie that obedience should equal reward
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• A plea for prayer to live authentically and humbly
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• Using GPT to help surface spiritual clarity in real time
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Sitting poolside, wrestling in prayer and with GPT

01:45 – “I haven’t been making Jesus the reward—totally, fully, no matter what”

03:30 – Processing the father wounds that still shape my faith

06:20 – “This is probably the hardest confession I’m making”

09:05 – Striving for success to vindicate old wounds

12:00 – “If nothing worldly materializes… would I still follow?”

14:15 – Feeling close to spiritual clarity—and simultaneously furthest from it

17:40 – “This could all be a delusion… or the deepest truth I’ve ever known”

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Jeremiah 17:9 – “The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure.”

Matthew 6:24 – “No one can serve two masters...”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Obedience only counts if Jesus is the reward—even if nothing ever comes of it in this life.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #47c — I’ve spent years trying to prove I was right. Now I just want to be faithful.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 47b

Title: We Ended With a Team Franke Cheer

Description:

It’s later in the day, and we’re in full bug-hunting mode with the kids. But before that, we had a little Team Franke family meeting—because the energy was off, and I needed to say sorry. This episode is a quick field report on what happens when you lead your kids with repentance, not perfection.

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• Interrupting a chaotic moment to reset as a family
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• Why I called a spontaneous Team Franke meeting
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• Apologizing to my 4, 3, and 2-year-old
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• The healing power of a hug and a cheer
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• The legacy shift from a father who never said sorry to one who does
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• A reminder that it’s never too late to model humility to your kids
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Chaos with the dog, the sword, the bugs, and the banana

01:15 – A real-time reset: calling a family meeting to restore peace

02:20 – Teaching my kids what I was never modeled: how to say sorry

03:15 – “We ended with a Team Franke cheer… and the energy changed”

04:05 – A word to parents: it’s never too late to apologize

🧠 Core Takeaway:

When the energy is off, stop and lead with repentance. Even toddlers know what real humility feels like.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #47b — we ended with a hug, a cheer, and a reminder: saying sorry is strength.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 47

Title: I don't think I can do this anymore

Description:

It's a Saturday morning, around 8:19, and I'm leaving Luckman's Coffee after a failed first attempt at recording this. I’m just speaking from the heart now. I woke up and went down the rabbit hole of Twitter—headlines, clips, trending videos. It left me feeling sick, and I realized I'm trading true wisdom for noise. Today’s episode is me processing that in real time. No notes, no polish. Just confession.

I talk about:

• How checking Twitter first thing wrecked my spirit
• The soap opera nature of online “news”
• Social media algorithms as modern false prophets
• The danger of rationalizing daily doomscrolling
• How desensitization is normalizing evil
• My conviction to reject this cycle in order to follow Jesus more closely

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Leaving Luckman's with coffee and deleting the first recording

01:10 – Why I felt sick after 30 minutes on Twitter

03:45 – “The world is a soap opera… interrupted by the worst of the worst”

05:32 – The algorithm knows what tickles your ears

08:00 – Confessing a decade of rationalizing “staying informed”

10:55 – PTSD from headlines and the availability cascade

13:30 – “We’ve normalized evil by consuming it”

15:20 – Rejecting the distortion—even if it’s a pipe dream

17:40 – This is me, processing in real time

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

2 Timothy 4:3 – "For the time will come when people will not put up with sound doctrine... to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear."

🧠 Core Takeaway:

I’ve been justifying my feed consumption for years, but no matter the source, it’s warping my soul and pulling me away from the truth of Jesus.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #47 — I’m trading the algorithm’s lies for real truth, even if it costs me my “awareness.”

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 46

Title: If we just lived the Sermon on the Mount

Description:

It’s Friday morning, June 27th. I’m sitting in a parking lot outside Luckman's Coffee after reading through Matthew 5–7 on my Bible app. No script. Just heart. I reflect on Jesus’ teachings, the tension of living them out, and how this whole thing—CRUMB, this confessional, even my parenting—is built on trying to do what He says. The sermon on the mount exposes me, invites me, and gives me a blueprint to follow.

I talk about:

• How Jesus lived what He preached, unlike the Pharisees
• Wrestling with lust, hypocrisy, and obedience in daily life
• The real cost of building your life on Jesus vs the world
• Why CRUMB exists as a personal anchor for obedience
• The danger of justification cloaked in “American morality”
• Wanting to leave a legacy for my kids rooted in the gospel
• How God changed me when I had nothing left but crumbs

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Parking lot Bible app scroll leads to Matthew 5

04:41 – Jesus’ authority vs the empty show of religion

10:15 – The hidden cost of American justifications

18:12 – “Are we actually doing what Jesus says?”

23:45 – My slow trust was built crumb by crumb

27:50 – Lust, sunglasses, and Charleston confessions

34:00 – "If we all lived this, the world would change"

39:16 – I'm doing this even if I never make a dime

47:10 – Legacy, kids, and trusting God’s provision

53:35 – This is the only thing that ever worked for me

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Matthew 5:7 – “You’re blessed when you care...”

Matthew 5–7 – The Sermon on the Mount

Matthew 6:24 – “You cannot serve both God and money”

Matthew 7:21 – “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord...’”

Ecclesiastes – Enjoy your food and drink; it’s God’s gift

Romans 11:17 (alluded) – Grafted into His family

John 15 (implied) – Remaining in the vine

Luke 6:45 (implied) – What the heart is full of

🧠 Core Takeaway:

If we actually lived the Sermon on the Mount, almost everything we complain about in this world would go away. But doing what Jesus says—daily, visibly, quietly—is the real test.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #46 — I’m just a little lonely boy in a parking lot with a Bible app, saying yes to Jesus one crumb at a time.