In this reflection, I talk about my relationship to self preservation (and the instinctual stack) as an Enneagram 8 and an INTJ. This is a reflection that is more about me figuring it out than it is about me reporting it out. I end with an argument that personality is not seasonal. I posit that it is trans-seasonal and requires data from multiple time periods to understand.

TRIGGER WARNING: In this reflection I talk about murder, death and dying and how I process (or not process) emotions around death as an INTJ. In this reflection, I also try to isolate each cognitive function of my stack to help me understand why I react the way I do when someone I know passes away.

In this reflection I talk both about being strong Te as an introvert and about Fi challenges when my Te is parked.

In this reflection I examine two thinking functions and my access to them while podcasting. I have two separate podcasts and discuss how Te and Ti (mainly Te) show up differently in each. Ultimately, I juxtapose my relationship to being effective (Te) against my relationship to being accurate (Ti).

In this reflection, I inadvertently talk about varying tension points I've processed throughout the week:1) NiTe tensions (examining my need for Ni freedom versus Te structure); 2) family (exploring family values of my adult years versus family values of my childhood); 3) Black Lives Matter (where I ponder it as a concept versus it as a movement), and 4) podcasting (where I contrasts the differences between my two podcasts and what it means for this specific podcast as I move forward).

In this reflection I talk through a social world reality I call the matrix and explain my different relationships with it (both denying and accepting it).

In this reflection I talk about extroverted sensing as the inferior function for an Ni-dom. I talk about my (mis)handling of grief as an Se-inferior person and finally I talk about my Fi experience with parental rejection.

In this reflection I talk about the my mastermind and the pathway to get there. I talk about dimensions of the middle passage as relating to optimization and recovery work for my Te. Finally I talk about personality systems as the best way to optimize and the irrelevance (and distraction) of scientific validation in the personal growth process.