Your Trauma-Wise Career Guide

“I wish I would’ve started earlier.”

That is the thought that ran through my head before my husband and I reluctantly met with our Financial Advisor to see if we were prepared for retirement.

He was turning 65 this year, and things, like Medicare, had to be done by a certain time.

We put this meeting off for years because we were afraid we would be told we couldn’t retire until we were 80.

The regret of not starting my 401K until a few years into my career was palpable, because at the time, there was more month than money.

I could feel us holding our breath as she did the math.

Our hearts were pounding.

And I’m sure we were sweating.

The exhale was in stereo when we heard her say, “You are not as bad as you think.” Whew!!!

Sometimes the future we've imagined is more frightening than the possibilities actually available to us.

My husband is fortunate that he is six years older than me, and that I will be working until Jesus comes.

But even with the reassurance that our financial situation wasn’t as dire as we’d imagined, I realized there was another part of retirement we hadn’t really prepared for.

What would the next season of our lives actually look like?

We’d spent so much time worrying about whether we could afford to retire that we hadn’t given nearly as much attention to what we wanted retirement to mean for us.

That sense of regret is something that I often hear from trauma survivors who have found my work in the twilight of their careers.

“I wish I had come across your teaching twenty years ago.”

My first thought always is: “Yeah, me too.”

As someone who spent 25 years learning how to navigate the corporate world as a trauma survivor, that sense of regret and longing for what could have been are not lost on me.

I feel it in the depths of my being, and if I’m not careful, these thoughts and feelings can lead me to a very dark place.

But alas, we cannot change the past. Oh, how I wish we could sometimes.

And while there’s room to grieve the opportunities we missed or the things we wish we’d understood sooner, I wonder how often that regret keeps us looking backward when there are still meaningful decisions waiting for us in the present.

Whether we’re preparing for retirement, considering a career transition, or simply beginning to question what we want for the next chapter of our lives, there’s another question worth exploring.

Who are we becoming when the careers we’ve spent decades building are no longer at the center of our lives?

Before We Go Any Further, Let Me Introduce Myself

If this is your first time here, welcome. And if you’ve been here for a while, I’m glad you’re back.

I’m Cyndi Bennett, a trauma-informed career coach and founder of the Resilient Career Academy™.

After spending more than 25 years navigating the corporate world, I understand how deeply our professional experiences can shape the way we see ourselves. I also understand how complex trauma can influence the choices we make, the opportunities we pursue, and the expectations we place on ourselves.

Today, we’re going to explore something traditional career development often overlooks: what happens to our sense of identity when we begin transitioning away from careers we’ve spent decades building.

We’ll talk about the emotional side of that transition, the desire to leave a meaningful legacy, and how we can begin preparing for a next chapter that reflects who we are becoming.

When Our Careers Become Part of Who We Are

Think about how often we introduce ourselves by telling people what we do for a living.

“I’m a project manager.”

“I’m a teacher.”

“I’m an executive.”

“I’m a nurse.”

For many of us, our professional roles become much more than descriptions of how we earn a living. They’re connected to our daily routines, our relationships, our accomplishments, and the ways we contribute to the world around us.

Over time, our careers can become woven into how we understand ourselves.

We may be the person others depend on to solve difficult problems. The one who knows how everything works. The person who can step into a complicated situation and figure out what needs to happen next.

There’s often a sense of pride that comes with developing that kind of expertise.

And after 25 or 30 years, we’ve invested an enormous amount of time, energy, and effort into becoming the professionals we are today.

But what happens when we begin imagining a future where those roles are no longer part of our everyday lives?

What happens when we’re no longer the person everyone calls when something goes wrong?

Or when the title we’ve worked so hard to earn no longer appears beside our name?

For some of us, those changes may feel exciting. For others, they may bring uncertainty, sadness, or a sense of loss.

And sometimes, we experience all of those feelings at once.

When Professional Identity and Personal Worth Become Entangled

This conversation can become even more complicated for those of us who’ve experienced complex trauma.

When we’ve spent years trying to prove our competence, earn approval, or establish a sense of security, our professional accomplishments can become deeply connected to how we measure our worth.

Maybe we’ve learned to feel valuable when we’re needed.

Maybe being the dependable one gives us a sense of belonging.

Or perhaps our professional achievements have become evidence we use to challenge an internal belief that we’re somehow not enough.

I recognize how powerful that can be.

And I also wonder what happens when the career we’ve relied on to provide that evidence begins to change.

If we’re no longer achieving, producing, solving problems, or meeting other people’s expectations in the same ways, where do we look for that sense of value?

That’s a question worth exploring before we reach the point of transition.

Because the skills, talents, and qualities that made us valuable contributors throughout our careers don’t disappear when we leave a particular position.

But we may need time to discover how we want to express those parts of ourselves differently.

Preparing for More Than a Financial Transition

When my husband and I met with our financial advisor, we were focused on whether we had enough money to retire.

And that was an important conversation.

But financial readiness is only one part of preparing for a major career transition.

We may also need to consider what our days will look like, where we’ll find connection and community, what will give us a sense of purpose, and how we’ll navigate the changes in our professional identity.

For someone who’s spent decades working within a structured environment, the idea of having fewer external expectations can be both appealing and unsettling.

We may discover that we’ve become so accustomed to organizing our lives around our careers that we haven’t spent much time imagining what we want outside of them.

And if we’re beginning to recognize how trauma responses have influenced our professional lives, there may be additional questions to explore.

What parts of our professional identity reflect who we genuinely are?

What parts developed because we were trying to feel safe, accepted, or capable?

And which parts do we want to carry into the next chapter?

These aren’t questions we have to answer overnight.

But they’re worth considering while we still have opportunities to make intentional choices about what comes next.

What Will Your Next Chapter Look Like?

After spending decades building a career, transitioning into something different can bring up questions we haven’t had much reason to consider before.

Who am I beyond my professional role? What do I want to do with the knowledge and experience I’ve accumulated? What would a meaningful next chapter look like for me?

These are questions we can explore together through individual career coaching.

Whether you’re considering retirement, a career change, consulting, entrepreneurship, or a different way to contribute, we can work together to explore your professional identity, identify what matters most to you, and develop a transition plan that reflects your goals, values, and circumstances.

You don’t have to have all the answers before we begin.

The Legacy We Want to Leave Behind

As we approach the later chapters of our careers, many of us begin asking different questions about success.

Earlier in our professional lives, we may have been focused on establishing ourselves, earning enough to support our families, advancing into new positions, or demonstrating what we were capable of accomplishing.

But as we begin thinking about what comes next, our attention may shift.

We may start wondering what difference we’ve made.

What knowledge or experience do we want to pass along?

What do we hope people will remember about the way we worked, led, supported others, or contributed?

And is there something we’ve always wanted to do that we haven’t yet given ourselves permission to explore?

Legacy can take many forms.

For some, it may mean mentoring younger professionals or sharing decades of industry knowledge.

For others, it might involve consulting, teaching, volunteering, advocating for changes in their profession, or building a business around something they care deeply about.

And for some, leaving a meaningful legacy may have less to do with professional accomplishments and more to do with the relationships they’ve nurtured and the lives they’ve touched along the way.

There’s no single definition of what a meaningful legacy should look like.

We deserve the opportunity to define it for ourselves.

We Still Have Something to Offer

In my last newsletter, What Kind of Work Would Jazz You?, we explored the idea that each of us brings a unique combination of gifts, talents, interests, skills, and lived experiences into the world.

That conversation becomes especially meaningful when we’re approaching a major career transition.

Because after 25 or 30 years in the workforce, we’ve accumulated an enormous amount of experience.

We’ve learned things that can’t always be taught in a classroom. We’ve developed judgment through practice. We’ve discovered what we’re good at, what interests us, and perhaps what we’d rather never do again.

And some of us may be discovering gifts and interests that haven’t had much opportunity to develop while we’ve been focused on our professional responsibilities.

What if the next chapter gives us an opportunity to use those gifts differently?

Maybe we’re ready to share what we’ve learned.

Maybe there’s a cause we’d like to support.

Maybe we’d like to pursue work that feels more aligned with our values.

Or maybe we want to create space for parts of ourselves that have received less attention throughout our careers.

We don’t have to keep doing what we’ve always done simply because we’ve become good at it.

And we don’t have to prove our value through another accomplishment to justify wanting something different.

We get to explore what a meaningful next chapter might look like for us.

The Next Chapter Is Still Ours to Write

When I think about the people who tell me they wish they’d discovered my work twenty years ago, I understand the longing behind those words.

I have my own list of things I wish I’d known sooner.

And while I can’t change the decisions I made with the information I had at the time, I can continue learning about myself and making choices about what I want my future to look like.

That’s true for many of us.

We may be approaching the end of a particular career, but that doesn’t mean we’re approaching the end of our opportunities to grow, contribute, connect, or find fulfillment.

Our professional identities may change.

Our priorities may evolve.

And our definitions of success may look different from the ones we carried earlier in our careers.

Perhaps that’s something worth welcoming with curiosity.

Because the career we’ve spent decades building is part of our story.

It doesn’t have to be the final chapter.

I’d Love to Hear From You

As you think about the next chapter of your life, I’d love to hear how you’re approaching professional identity and legacy.

When you imagine stepping away from the career you’ve built, what part of your professional identity do you most want to carry forward?

Maybe it’s a skill you’ve developed, a way you’ve helped others, a contribution you’re proud of, or something you’ve only recently begun to recognize about yourself.

I invite you to share your thoughts in the comments. There’s a great deal we can learn from one another about navigating these transitions and imagining what might still be possible.

Do you remember learning how to ride a bike?

Maybe you started with training wheels.

And with those training wheels on, you could ride. You weren’t thinking about balance or wondering whether you could stay upright. You climbed onto the seat, put your feet on the pedals, and took off.

Maybe you rode up and down the sidewalk or raced the other kids in the neighborhood. You learned to steer around cracks in the pavement and how hard you had to push the pedals to climb a hill. You might have even gotten pretty fast.

You knew how to ride your bike.

Until someone decided it was time to take off the training wheels.

Suddenly, the bike you had been riding confidently felt like an entirely different machine.

There was nothing on either side to catch you if you leaned too far. The bike wobbled underneath you, and something you had felt perfectly capable of doing five minutes earlier suddenly didn’t feel so certain.

Could I really do this without the training wheels? What if I fell? What if I couldn’t do it?

Maybe you weren’t convinced. So someone offered to hold onto the back of the seat.

They would give you a little push to get you started, then run alongside you while you pedaled. And once you had a little momentum, something wonderful happened. You could balance! You could steer, pedal, and keep the bike upright without the training wheels.

As long as you were moving, you were fine.

The hard part was getting started.

When the bike was standing still, with one foot on the ground and the other on the pedal, it was a different story. You had to push off, get your feet onto the pedals, and build enough momentum to balance before the bike tipped over.

That was the scary part.

So you asked for another push.

And every time, once you were moving, you could ride. You were doing the pedaling, the steering, and the balancing.

But you still believed you needed someone holding the back of the seat to get you going.

Until one day, the person helping you did something you weren’t expecting.

They gave you that familiar push, but instead of running alongside you, they let go.

You kept pedaling, gripping the handlebars and concentrating on staying upright. You were so focused on riding that you didn’t notice anything had changed.

Until you realized you couldn’t hear their footsteps anymore.

You looked back.

They were standing halfway down the sidewalk, watching you.

They hadn’t been holding on for a while.

You’d been riding the bike by yourself.

And that’s the part of this story that has me thinking about our careers.

Because I wonder how many of us have spent years learning, growing, developing skills, and accomplishing things we once weren’t sure we could do, yet still approach every new challenge as though we’re that child gripping the handlebars, terrified that we’re going to fall.

What if we’ve already demonstrated that we’re capable?

What if the person we’re still trying to convince is ourselves?

Before We Go Further, Let Me Introduce Myself

I’m Cyndi Bennett, a trauma-informed career coach and Founder of the Resilient Career Academy. I help survivors of complex trauma and CPTSD recognize the patterns that may be holding them back, rediscover the strengths and capabilities they bring to the workplace, and build careers based on their own vision of success rather than the limitations trauma taught them to believe in.

I’m also someone who spent a lot of my career trying to prove what I could do.

For a long time, I didn’t necessarily see that as a problem. Being determined to demonstrate my capability helped me develop skills, solve problems, navigate difficult situations, and build a career I’m proud of.

But as I began to understand how my own experiences with complex trauma had shaped the way I saw myself, I started questioning something I hadn’t really considered before.

Who was I trying so hard to convince?

And perhaps more importantly, why did I still need convincing after everything I’d already accomplished?

That’s what I invite you to explore with me today. How can beliefs we developed about ourselves long before entering the workforce influence our professional identity? Why might accomplishments fail to change those beliefs? And what might become possible if we could begin seeing ourselves through the evidence of who we’ve become rather than the beliefs we learned about ourselves long ago?

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When We’re Trying to Prove Something to Ourselves

There’s nothing inherently wrong with wanting to demonstrate what we’re capable of.

When we’re learning something new, we don’t always know whether we can do it. We develop confidence through experience, practice, and discovering what happens when we try.

But for some of us who experienced complex trauma, the uncertainty can run deeper than whether we have the skills to accomplish a particular task.

We may have grown up with experiences that taught us to question our abilities, our judgment, our value, or whether we were good enough. Perhaps our accomplishments were overlooked, our mistakes were magnified, or the expectations placed on us seemed impossible to satisfy.

Those experiences can shape beliefs about ourselves that follow us into adulthood.

I’m not smart enough.

I’m not capable enough.

I’m not good enough.

And sometimes, without realizing it, we begin building careers around trying to overcome those beliefs.

We work hard. We figure things out. We take on challenges that stretch us beyond what we thought we could do. We earn credentials, develop expertise, receive recognition, and accomplish things that once seemed impossible.

Each accomplishment offers another piece of evidence that we are capable.

But something unexpected can happen.

We accumulate the evidence without changing what we believe about ourselves.

And so we keep trying.

When Accomplishment Doesn’t Change What We Believe

Have you ever accomplished something you weren’t sure you could do, only to find that the feeling of accomplishment didn’t last very long?

Maybe you earned the promotion you’d been working toward for years. You were excited, relieved, and proud of yourself. But before long, the questions started creeping back in.

What if I can’t handle this new role? What if they realize I’m not as capable as they think I am?

Or perhaps you completed a difficult project, received recognition for your work, and immediately started thinking about everything you could have done better.

Instead of allowing the accomplishment to become evidence of your capability, you found reasons to discount it.

* That wasn’t really that difficult.

* Anyone could have done that.

* I just got lucky.

* But can I do it again?

And before long, you’re looking for the next opportunity to prove yourself.

This is one of the more exhausting ways complex trauma can influence our careers.

We may be trying to use professional accomplishments to change beliefs about ourselves that were formed long before we ever entered the workplace.

The accomplishments are real. The skills we’ve developed are real. The career we’ve built is real.

But the beliefs we’re trying to overcome may not respond to evidence the way we expect them to.

We can spend years becoming more capable without ever feeling more capable.

And when that happens, the next accomplishment can start to feel like the one that will finally settle the question.

Maybe this time I’ll believe it.

When Proving Becomes Part of Our Professional Identity

Over time, that need to prove ourselves can become more than something we do. It can become part of who we believe we have to be.

We become the capable one. The dependable one. The one who figures things out. The person everyone turns to when there’s a problem because they know we’ll find a way to solve it.

And those qualities may be completely real.

We may be extraordinarily resourceful. We may learn quickly, notice things other people miss, solve complicated problems, or persist through situations that would have caused other people to give up.

Those are strengths we’ve developed, and they’re worth recognizing.

But there’s a difference between knowing we’re capable and needing to continually demonstrate our capability in order to believe it.

When our professional identity becomes intertwined with proving ourselves, ordinary workplace situations can begin carrying an additional emotional burden.

We’re not simply completing the project. We’re trying to convince ourselves that we’re capable of doing the work.

We’re not simply learning something new. We’re trying to overcome the fear that we aren’t smart enough to figure it out.

We’re not simply accepting an opportunity. We’re hoping it will finally make us feel like we deserve to be where we are.

And when we make a mistake, we may experience it as something much bigger than a mistake.

It can feel like evidence that the belief we’ve been trying so hard to overcome was right all along.

That’s an enormous amount of pressure to place on ourselves.

Let’s Recognize What Proving Has Given Us

I don’t think we need to turn our drive to prove ourselves into another behavior we’re supposed to feel bad about.

For many of us, that drive has taken us places.

Maybe someone underestimated us, and we figured out how to do something they didn’t believe we could do. Maybe we weren’t given the same opportunities as others, so we created our own. Maybe we entered a room without the experience everyone else seemed to have and taught ourselves what we needed to know.

Maybe the determination to prove that we could do something helped us develop expertise, resilience, resourcefulness, independence, persistence, or courage.

Some of us have careers we’re incredibly proud of because somewhere along the way, a little voice inside us said:

Watch me.

And we did.

We learned. We grew. We accomplished things. We developed strengths that became valuable parts of who we are professionally.

It’s important that we recognize those strengths rather than dismissing them simply because some of the motivation behind them may have come from painful experiences.

The strengths are still ours, regardless of what motivated us to develop them.

But we can also become curious about whether proving ourselves still needs to be the fuel that drives our careers.

Because the same determination that helped us build something meaningful can become exhausting when we believe we must keep accomplishing more just to feel that we’re enough.

What Happens When There’s Always Something Left to Prove?

When proving ourselves becomes automatic, we may stop noticing how often it influences our career decisions.

We might accept an impossible assignment because declining it feels like admitting we’re not capable. We might overprepare because walking into a meeting without every possible answer feels too risky. We might struggle to say, “I don’t know,” because somewhere inside us, not knowing feels like evidence that we’re inadequate.

We may have difficulty asking for help, even when help is readily available. We may interpret feedback as confirmation of our deepest doubts rather than information we can use to grow. We may continue carrying responsibilities long after we’ve established that we’re capable of carrying them.

And sometimes, we may pursue the next achievement without ever stopping to ask whether we actually want it.

That’s where this pattern can begin shaping the direction of our careers.

The question becomes less about what we want to accomplish and more about what we need to accomplish to finally feel capable.

We might pursue the promotion because it seems like proof that we’re good enough. We might accept the leadership role because turning it down feels like admitting we can’t do it. We might continue climbing a career ladder without ever considering whether the destination is somewhere we want to go.

And even when we reach the next milestone, the internal question may remain unresolved.

Am I enough yet?

If we’re constantly looking to the next accomplishment for an answer, we may spend years building careers that demonstrate our capability without giving ourselves permission to believe in it.

Being Capable Doesn’t Mean We Have to Pick It Up

One of the things I’ve been learning is that capability doesn’t automatically create obligation.

We can be capable of taking on another project and still decline it. We can know how to fix the problem and allow someone else to figure it out. We can have the answer and decide we don’t need to be the first person to provide it.

We can be qualified for an opportunity and decide it isn’t an opportunity we want.

And we can make a mistake without allowing that mistake to redefine everything we believe about ourselves.

For someone whose professional identity has been shaped by proving their capability, these choices may feel uncomfortable at first.

Because if we’ve been using accomplishment to reassure ourselves that we’re capable, choosing not to demonstrate our capability can leave us face-to-face with the very uncertainty we’ve been trying to overcome.

But what if we could begin approaching those moments with curiosity?

Instead of automatically accepting another responsibility, we might ask ourselves whether it’s something we genuinely want to take on.

Instead of treating a mistake as evidence of inadequacy, we might consider what we can learn from it.

Instead of assuming that asking for help means we aren’t capable, we might recognize that collaboration is also a professional skill.

And instead of pursuing the next accomplishment to prove something about ourselves, we might begin choosing opportunities because they’re meaningful to us.

Being capable of carrying something doesn’t mean we have to pick it up.

And perhaps we can begin trusting our capability without requiring ourselves to demonstrate it at every opportunity.

So Who Am I If I’m Not Proving Myself?

This may be the harder question.

Because if we’ve spent years building our professional identity around overcoming the belief that we’re not enough, changing that pattern isn’t simply about working less or setting better boundaries.

It can challenge the way we’ve learned to understand ourselves.

If I’m not the one who always figures it out, who am I?

If I’m not constantly accomplishing something, how do I know I’m making progress?

If I stop pushing myself to do more, will I still believe I’m capable?

And if my accomplishments have been one of the primary ways I’ve tried to convince myself that I’m enough, what happens when I stop asking them to do that job?

There’s an opportunity here to explore a different relationship with our professional identity.

* What if we could recognize our resourcefulness without needing another crisis to demonstrate it?

* What if we could appreciate our expertise while accepting that there will always be things we don’t know?

* What if we could acknowledge how far we’ve come without immediately turning our attention to how much farther we still need to go?

We might discover that we’re still capable, ambitious, resourceful, determined, and curious.

But those qualities can become strengths we recognize in ourselves rather than roles we feel obligated to perform.

And perhaps we can begin separating two ideas that have become intertwined.

Our competence is something we can develop, strengthen, and expand throughout our careers. There will always be things we know how to do and things we haven’t learned yet.

Our worth, however, isn’t determined by how competent we are.

We don’t become more worthy when we accomplish something, and we don’t become less worthy when we struggle.

That’s an important distinction when we’ve spent years trying to use accomplishment to answer questions about our value.

What Might Become Possible If We Believed the Evidence?

I invite you to consider something.

What if you could look at your career and recognize what you’ve already demonstrated about yourself?

Not as a way to convince yourself that you’ll never struggle again, make another mistake, or encounter something you don’t know how to do.

But as an opportunity to recognize that you’ve learned, adapted, grown, and developed capabilities you may not be giving yourself credit for.

And what if you could begin making career decisions from that understanding?

Instead of asking whether you can prove that you’re capable of taking on a new challenge, you might ask whether it’s a challenge you want.

Instead of automatically pursuing the next promotion, you might consider what success means to you at this stage of your life.

Instead of measuring your professional identity by how much you can accomplish, you might begin considering the kind of work you enjoy, the strengths you want to use, the contributions you want to make, and the life you want your career to support.

Maybe the next stage of your career isn’t about becoming more capable.

Maybe it’s about beginning to recognize the capability you’ve already developed and deciding what you want to do with it.

A Few Questions to Explore

I invite you to spend some time with these questions. There’s no right answer, and you don’t have to figure everything out today.

* What have I spent my career trying to prove to myself?

* What evidence of my capability have I accumulated that I may not be allowing myself to recognize?

* What strengths did I develop along the way that I genuinely want to keep?

* If I no longer needed my career to prove that I’m enough, what would I want my career to be about instead?

That last question may take some time to explore, especially if proving ourselves has influenced our decisions for much of our careers.

But I think it’s a question worth asking.

Because when we begin separating our worth from our accomplishments, we may discover that our careers can become something more than a place where we continually try to overcome what we believe is wrong with us.

They can become a place where we choose what we want to build.

Exploring Your Professional Identity in a Supportive Environment

If this article has you wondering how much of your professional identity has been shaped by what you’ve needed to prove to yourself, you don’t have to explore those questions alone.

In 1:1 trauma-informed career coaching, we can create a supportive environment to explore how your experiences may have influenced the way you see yourself professionally, the strengths you’ve developed, the patterns that may be affecting your career decisions, and what you want to carry forward.

We can examine the difference between the professional identity you’ve built and the one you want to build moving forward, with space for curiosity, reflection, and choice.

The goal isn’t for me to tell you who you should be or what your career should look like. It’s to support you in discovering what matters to you and identifying the possibilities you want to pursue.

Maybe We’ve Been Riding on Our Own for a While

I keep coming back to that bicycle.

The child who was so confident riding with training wheels, but suddenly wasn’t sure they could do it when the training wheels came off.

The child who could balance and steer once the bike was moving, but wasn’t yet confident enough to get started without someone giving them that first push.

And then that moment when they looked back and realized the person they thought was holding onto the seat had already let go.

They’d been balancing. They’d been steering. They’d been making all those tiny adjustments that kept the bike moving forward.

They’d been riding on their own.

But they didn’t know it yet.

And there’s another part of that experience worth remembering.

Learning that we can ride once we’re moving doesn’t automatically mean we’ve learned how to start without help.

That can take more practice, and needing that practice doesn’t erase the capability we’ve already developed.

I wonder how many of us have spent years building careers that demonstrate our capability while still seeing ourselves through the eyes of the person who wasn’t sure they could ride.

Maybe we’ve been gathering evidence for years. Maybe we’ve accomplished things we once couldn’t imagine doing, and maybe there are still some things we’re learning how to do.

We can recognize how capable we’ve become without requiring ourselves to have mastered everything.

And perhaps the next stage of our careers doesn’t require another accomplishment to prove that we’re enough.

Maybe it begins with recognizing what we’ve already demonstrated, trusting ourselves to learn what we haven’t yet mastered, and asking a different question.

Where do I want to go from here?

When was the last time you thought about what kind of work jazzes you?

Not what you’re qualified to do.

Not what someone would hire you to do.

Not what you’ve already spent 10, 15, or 20 years doing.

I’m talking about the kind of work that makes something in you come alive.

The problem you can’t resist trying to solve. The conversation you could have for hours. The thing someone asks for your help with and, instead of feeling drained afterward, you find yourself thinking about three more things you could have told them.

That kind of jazzed.

Somewhere along the way, many of us learned to think about our careers from the opposite direction.

* What can I do?

* What am I qualified for?

* What’s available?

* What will pay enough?

* What feels safe?

Those are important questions. We have bills to pay and responsibilities to consider. There are practical realities involved in almost every career decision we make.

But what if those aren’t the only questions we get to ask?

Before We Go Any Further, Let Me Introduce Myself

I’m Cyndi Bennett, a trauma-informed career coach and the founder of the Resilient Career Academy™.

I spent more than two decades building my own corporate career before I began to understand how much our lived experiences can shape the way we navigate work.

Today, I help trauma survivors explore what can become possible in their careers when we begin recognizing the patterns that may have been limiting our choices and start building careers around more than survival.

And one of the things I believe deeply is this:

Every person is uniquely equipped by the Creator with gifts and talents specific to them, and our lived experiences can deepen and enhance those abilities.

That’s what I want to explore with you today.

We’re going to look beyond job titles and résumés and begin looking for the clues that can help us identify our unique equipping: our gifts, talents, interests, lived experience, curiosity, and the things that make us come alive.

Because maybe the question isn’t simply:

What job should I do next?

Maybe there’s another question worth asking first:

What have I been uniquely equipped to contribute?

We Don’t Have to Start With a Job Title

Think about the way we typically approach career exploration.

We pull up a job board.

We search for titles similar to the one we already have.

We read the qualifications and start sorting opportunities into two categories:

* I could do that.

* I couldn’t do that.

And before long, the possibilities for our future have been narrowed by our past.

We’re looking for the next version of something we’ve already done.

But a résumé tells us where we’ve been. It doesn’t necessarily tell us everything we’re capable of becoming.

That’s why I like starting somewhere else.

I believe every person is uniquely equipped by the Creator with gifts and talents specific to them, and that our lived experiences can deepen and enhance those abilities.

Our unique equipping is bigger than a list of skills.

It’s the combination of the things that seem to have always been there and everything life has added along the way.

Our natural gifts.

Our talents.

Our interests and curiosities.

The way our minds work.

The things we’ve learned.

The experiences we’ve had.

The problems we’ve solved.

The perspectives we’ve developed.

The skills we’ve practiced until they’ve become second nature.

Put all of those things together, and the combination is uniquely ours.

So instead of beginning career exploration with:

What job should I do next?

I think there’s another question worth asking first:

What have I been uniquely equipped to contribute?

Our Lived Experience Can Change How We Use Our Gifts

I want to be careful here, especially when we’re talking about trauma.

I don’t believe we need to call what happened to us a gift.

We don’t have to be grateful for painful experiences or believe we needed them in order to become valuable.

Our gifts don’t have to come from our trauma for our lived experiences to influence how we’ve learned to use them.

Maybe you’ve always had a gift for recognizing patterns.

Life may have sharpened your ability to notice things other people miss.

Maybe you’ve always been a communicator.

The experiences you’ve navigated may have taught you how to explain complicated things in ways people can understand.

Maybe you’ve always been deeply curious.

The problems you’ve encountered may have given that curiosity somewhere meaningful to go.

Maybe you’re naturally good at bringing order to chaos, connecting people, creating something from nothing, seeing possibilities, teaching, organizing, advocating, analyzing, building, designing, listening, leading, or solving problems.

Then life happens.

We work. We learn. We struggle. We succeed. We make mistakes. We recover. We change directions. We encounter people and situations that teach us things we never would have learned in a classroom.

Our lived experience becomes another layer of our equipping.

And that creates a career question I find much more interesting than “What am I qualified to do?”

Where could I use this unique combination of gifts, talents, abilities, interests, and lived experience in a way that jazzes me?

But What If I Don’t Think I Have Any Special Gifts?

Maybe you read all of that and thought:

That’s a nice idea, Cyndi.

I’m just not sure it applies to me.

I think we need to talk about that.

Because some of us may genuinely struggle to believe we’re uniquely equipped at all.

When someone asks what we’re good at, our mind goes blank.

We can identify talent in everyone around us, but when the attention turns toward us, suddenly we can’t think of anything.

Or the things we’re good at seem so ordinary that we don’t count them.

Anybody can do that.

That’s not really a skill.

It’s easy.

It’s not anything special.

But here’s something worth considering:

Maybe it feels easy because it’s one of your gifts.

We’re experiencing our abilities from the inside. We don’t necessarily know what it’s like for someone who doesn’t think the way we think or see what we see.

And for some trauma survivors, there may be another layer.

We may have spent years becoming experts at identifying what was wrong with us.

What needed fixing.

Where we weren’t enough.

What we needed to do better.

How we needed to change to be accepted, valued, successful, safe, or loved.

When we’ve spent that much time looking for deficiencies, being asked to look for gifts can feel almost unbelievable.

You mean there’s something already in me that’s valuable?

Sometimes the idea that we might have been uniquely equipped feels too good to be true.

So I’m not going to ask you to suddenly believe something about yourself that you don’t believe yet.

Let’s look for evidence instead.

Start Looking for the Clues

Maybe you don’t know what your gifts are yet.

That’s different from not having them.

So instead of trying to declare what your unique equipping is, I invite you to become curious about it.

Grab a notebook, open a blank document, or just sit with these questions for a while.

What seems to come naturally to me?

What do you do that feels relatively easy to you but seems harder for other people?

Maybe you organize information quickly. Maybe you make people feel comfortable. Maybe you can connect dots like nobody’s business. Maybe you can look at a complicated problem and immediately see where to start.

Don’t dismiss something because it seems too easy to count.

That might be exactly why we need to pay attention.

What do people consistently come to me for?

Think beyond your job description.

What do coworkers, friends, family members, clients, or leaders ask for your help with?

* Advice?

* Problem-solving?

* Explaining something?

* Making a decision?

* Creating a plan?

* Handling a difficult conversation?

* Seeing something they’ve missed?

Sometimes other people have been giving us clues about our gifts for years.

What has my life taught me?

Think about the knowledge and abilities you’ve developed through living.

That can include your education and professional experience, but it doesn’t stop there.

What have you had to figure out?

What have you learned through relationships, challenges, transitions, caregiving, leadership, entrepreneurship, healing, failure, starting over, or navigating systems that weren’t designed with you in mind?

What do you understand now that an earlier version of you didn’t?

What am I deeply curious about?

What subjects do you keep coming back to?

What do you read about when nobody assigns it?

What problems make you think, There has to be a better way to do this?

What could you spend hours talking about without someone having to keep the conversation going?

Curiosity can be a clue.

What jazzes me?

And now we get to my favorite question.

Think about moments when you’ve been doing something and felt more energized afterward.

What were you doing?

Who were you doing it with?

What part of the experience gave you energy?

Was it creating?

Teaching?

Solving?

Leading?

Helping?

Analyzing?

Building?

Connecting?

Advocating?

Imagining?

Don’t worry about whether you can turn the answer into a job yet.

We’re collecting clues.

Now Look for the Intersections

Once you have some answers, resist the urge to immediately search for a job title.

Look across everything you’ve written.

What keeps appearing?

Where do your gifts and talents intersect with what you’ve learned through living?

Where does your curiosity overlap with something you’re unusually good at?

Where do your experiences give you a perspective someone else might not have?

What kinds of problems allow several pieces of your unique equipping to come together at once?

And perhaps most importantly:

Where do you find yourself thinking, “I’d love to do more of that”?

That’s where I would start exploring.

Not because every interest needs to become a career.

Not because every gift has to be monetized.

And not because we’re going to ignore salary, responsibilities, geography, family needs, accessibility, benefits, or any of the other realities that influence our career choices.

We’re simply allowing ourselves to explore possibility before we eliminate it.

What If Career Exploration Started With You?

For those of us who have spent significant parts of our careers in survival mode, this can be a very different way of thinking.

We’ve gotten good at asking:

* What do they need?

* What will make me valuable?

* What am I supposed to do?

* What will keep me secure?

* What can I handle?

Those questions may have helped us build careers, support ourselves, take care of people we love, and get through seasons when stability mattered more than fulfillment.

But there may come a point when another question starts asking for our attention:

What do I want?

That question can be surprisingly difficult.

We don’t have to know the answer immediately.

We can start by noticing.

* What draws us in.

* What energizes us.

* What we’re good at.

* What we’ve learned.

* What we care about.

* What we’d like to contribute.

* What we might explore if we weren’t required to know exactly where it would lead.

Because maybe career exploration doesn’t have to begin with a job title.

Maybe it can begin with us.

What Could Your Unique Equipping Make Possible?

Becoming Limitless isn’t about pretending there are no constraints.

It isn’t about believing we can be anything we want to be if we just think positively enough.

For me, it’s about becoming curious about possibilities we may have eliminated before we ever gave ourselves permission to consider them.

Maybe you already have an idea of the kind of work that jazzes you.

Or maybe you’ve spent so much of your career doing what you’re good at, what other people needed from you, or what made practical sense that you aren’t sure anymore.

We don’t have to know the job title before we begin exploring.

We can start with the clues.

* Your gifts.

* Your talents.

* Your lived experience.

* Your curiosity.

* Your values.

* The problems you’re drawn to solving.

* The contribution you want to make.

* The things that make something inside you light up.

And then we can ask:

What kind of career could allow more of my unique equipping to come together?

If You’re Ready to Explore What’s Possible

If you’re at a point in your career where you know you want something different, but you’re having trouble seeing what that different could be, this is the kind of work we can do together through individual career coaching.

We can start with you, rather than a list of job titles.

Together, we can explore your gifts, talents, lived experience, interests, values, strengths, goals, and the things that jazz you. Then we can begin translating what we discover into real career possibilities and a path for exploring them.

The goal isn’t for me to tell you what you should do next.

It’s to help you see possibilities you may not have been able to see from where you’re standing.

Have you ever had a reaction to your boss that felt much bigger than what was actually happening in the moment?

I have. I had been with the company for almost 22 years when a manager told me she wanted me to start accounting for my time.

By that point in my career, I was a tenured senior leader. I knew how to manage my workload. I knew how to get my work done. No one needed me to account for how I spent every hour of my day before.

But my response to her request wasn’t simply, I disagree with this management approach.

It felt much bigger than that.

I felt insulted. Controlled. Diminished. It felt like I had suddenly gone from being a capable professional who had spent more than two decades building a career to being a child who couldn’t be trusted to manage herself.

And that intensity was information.

Because my manager wasn’t the first authority figure I’d encountered in my life.

Long before I had bosses, managers, performance reviews, deadlines, or corporate hierarchies, I learned what it meant to live with adults who held power over me. My nervous system learned to pay attention to control, criticism, expectations, unpredictability, and the possibility of getting something wrong.

So when I encountered some of those same dynamics at work, my nervous system didn’t necessarily experience them as isolated workplace interactions.

Sometimes, it recognized something familiar.

And I don’t think I’m alone in that.

For those of us with histories of complex trauma or CPTSD, our relationships with authority at work can carry more weight than anyone around us realizes.

A manager’s tone, a request for a meeting, unexpected feedback, being questioned about a decision, or even a message that says “Can we talk?” can activate a response that seems much bigger than the situation in front of us.

That doesn’t mean we’re overreacting.

It also doesn’t automatically mean our boss is doing something wrong.

It may mean there is more information our nervous system is responding to than what is happening in this particular moment.

And learning to recognize that difference can matter enormously for our careers.

Because the goal isn’t to make ourselves impossible to trigger.

The goal is to understand what’s happening well enough that an automatic response doesn’t have to be our only response.

That’s where we begin to create choice.

Before We Go Any Further, Let Me Introduce Myself

If we haven’t met yet, I’m Cyndi Bennett. I’m a trauma-informed career coach, and I help professionals understand how the after-effects of complex trauma and CPTSD can show up at work and create obstacles in our careers.

But I don’t come to this work only as a coach.

I’ve spent more than 25 years building my own career in corporate America while navigating many of these patterns myself. For years, I didn’t understand why certain workplace situations seemed to affect me so differently, or so much more intensely, than they appeared to affect the people around me.

It wasn’t until my own childhood trauma surfaced later in life that I began to recognize something I hadn’t understood before: the survival responses we learned long before we ever had a career don’t necessarily stay at home when we go to work.

They can show up in how we respond to feedback, conflict, authority, visibility, boundaries, expectations, and even success.

That’s what much of my work is about today.

I help us get curious about those patterns without judging ourselves for having them, understand what may be underneath them, and explore what becomes possible when an automatic survival response doesn’t have to be our only response.

Because I’ve experienced these patterns in my own career, too.

Including with my bosses.

Why Authority Can Feel Different When We Have a History of Complex Trauma

A boss isn’t just another person we interact with at work.

They may have influence over our workload, our performance reviews, our opportunities, our compensation, our reputation, and sometimes whether we get to keep our job.

There is a real power dynamic built into the relationship.

For those of us who experienced complex trauma in childhood, power and authority may already carry a history.

The first authority figures in our lives were the adults we depended on for safety, care, protection, and survival. When those relationships were also a source of fear, control, criticism, neglect, unpredictability, or harm, we may have learned very early that being around someone with power required us to pay attention.

* We learned to notice changes in tone.

* We learned to anticipate what someone might need before they asked.

* We learned to avoid mistakes, keep the peace, stay out of the way, become indispensable, or figure things out on our own.

Those responses may have helped us navigate the environments we grew up in.

And then we went to work.

Suddenly, we’re in another environment with hierarchies, expectations, evaluations, consequences, and people who have some degree of power over what happens to us.

Our circumstances may be completely different, but something about the dynamic can feel familiar.

A manager who closely monitors our work may activate an old response to being controlled. A boss who is difficult to read may leave us scanning for signs that something is wrong. Critical feedback may feel like more than information about our performance. An absent manager may activate the familiar belief that when we need help, we’re going to have to figure it out on our own.

And sometimes, we may find ourselves working incredibly hard to stay in an authority figure’s good graces by saying yes, overdelivering, avoiding disagreement, or trying to become the employee they could never be disappointed in.

None of this means every difficult interaction with a boss is about our past.

It means our past may be one of the things our nervous system brings with us into the interaction.

And that can help explain why two people can walk out of the exact same meeting having experienced it very differently.

One person may leave thinking, That was uncomfortable.

Another may leave with their heart racing, replaying every word, wondering what they did wrong, worrying about their job, or already figuring out what they need to do to make things okay.

The meeting may be over.

But their nervous system may still be responding to what it believes is at stake.

Your Nervous System May Hear Something Your Manager Didn’t Say

Have you ever received a message from your boss that simply said:

“Do you have a few minutes to talk?”

That’s it.

No explanation. No context. Just a request to talk.

And suddenly, your mind is off to the races.

* What did I do?

* Did I miss something?

* Are they upset with me?

* Am I in trouble?

* Am I going to lose my job?

By the time the meeting happens, we may have replayed our last several interactions, reviewed everything we’ve worked on recently, and prepared ourselves for a conversation that hasn’t even happened yet.

Then we get on the call, and our manager says, “I wanted to get your thoughts on this project.”

Nothing was wrong.

But the response we experienced before that conversation was real.

This is one of the ways our past experiences can shape what we hear in the present.

Our manager may say, “I’d like you to make a few changes to this.”

We may hear, “You didn’t do it right.”

They may say, “I noticed something I want to give you some feedback on.”

We may hear, “You messed up.”

They may disagree with an idea we proposed.

We may hear, “Your ideas aren’t valuable.”

They may make a decision we don’t understand.

We may hear, “You don’t matter here.”

The words our manager actually says and the meaning our nervous system assigns to those words aren’t always the same thing.

And that doesn’t mean we’re making it up.

Our nervous system has learned from experience. If criticism once came with humiliation, if mistakes had consequences that felt dangerous, if someone’s changing tone told us we needed to prepare for what was coming next, or if keeping an authority figure happy helped us feel safer, it makes sense that we became really good at noticing those cues.

The challenge is that the meaning we learned to assign to those cues may continue showing up long after our circumstances have changed.

That’s why I think curiosity is so important here.

Instead of immediately asking ourselves, Why am I reacting like this?, we can begin asking:

* What did my manager actually say or do?

* What meaning did I attach to it?

* What did I immediately believe was going to happen next?

* And what about this feels familiar?

Those questions aren’t about talking ourselves out of our response.

They’re about getting more information.

Because sometimes our nervous system is responding to an old alarm.

Sometimes it’s picking up on something happening in the present that deserves our attention.

And sometimes it may be a little bit of both.

The more we can understand what we’re responding to, the more choices we can begin to see about what to do next.

What Boss Triggers Can Look Like at Work

Once we start paying attention, we may notice that it isn’t simply our boss who triggers us.

It may be something specific about the way they lead, communicate, respond, or use their authority that our nervous system recognizes.

And different behaviors may activate very different responses.

Control or Micromanagement

Being closely monitored, having our decisions questioned, or feeling like we constantly have to account for what we’re doing can be especially activating if control was part of our earlier experiences.

We may find ourselves becoming angry or defensive. We may shut down. We may feel an overwhelming need to prove that we’re capable. Or we may comply while quietly feeling smaller and smaller.

That was part of what was happening for me when my manager asked me to account for my time.

It wasn’t simply the request.

It was what the request seemed to say about whether I could be trusted.

Criticism or Perfectionism

For some of us, getting something wrong wasn’t always safe.

Maybe mistakes were met with anger, humiliation, punishment, withdrawal, or expectations we could never quite meet. We may have learned that doing things perfectly was one way to reduce the possibility of what might happen next.

Then we encounter a manager who focuses heavily on mistakes, expects perfection, or continually moves the bar.

Suddenly, a correction to a presentation or a piece of feedback on a project can feel like much more than feedback.

It can feel like evidence that we’ve failed.

Yelling, Anger, or Changes in Tone

Sometimes the trigger is much easier to recognize.

A boss raises their voice. Slams a door. Sends an angry email. Becomes visibly frustrated.

But it doesn’t always have to be that obvious.

For those of us who became skilled at monitoring other people’s emotions, even a subtle change in our manager’s tone, facial expression, or communication style may be enough to put us on alert.

We may notice the shift before anyone else in the room does.

And then we may start preparing for what we believe is coming next.

Unpredictability

A manager is warm and supportive one day and critical the next.

Priorities constantly change. Expectations aren’t clear. We never quite know which version of our boss is going to show up.

For a nervous system that learned to survive by anticipating what was coming next, unpredictability can keep us scanning.

Instead of focusing only on our work, part of our attention may always be trying to answer:

Are we okay today?

Favoritism or Unequal Treatment

Watching a manager give someone else opportunities, attention, flexibility, or approval that we aren’t receiving can bring up more than frustration about workplace fairness.

It may activate an old drive to earn approval.

We may start working harder, volunteering for more, saying yes more often, or trying to figure out what we need to become in order to finally be seen as valuable.

An Absent or Unavailable Manager

Not every authority trigger comes from someone exerting too much control.

Sometimes it’s the opposite.

A manager who is rarely available, doesn’t provide direction, or isn’t there when we need support may activate something entirely different.

We may immediately default to:

I’ll figure it out myself.

That independence can look like a strength, and often it is a strength.

But sometimes underneath it is an old expectation that when we really need someone, they aren’t going to be there.

These are only a few examples.

The point isn’t to create a checklist of behaviors that should trigger us. It’s to begin noticing our own patterns.

What happens inside us when our manager questions us?

What happens when they disagree with us?

What happens when they’re disappointed?

What happens when they don’t respond?

What happens when they have something we need, such as approval, information, support, an opportunity, or a decision, and we have to wait?

Those moments can give us clues.

Because when we stop at “My boss triggers me,” the problem can feel enormous and almost impossible to change.

But when we become curious about what specifically is activating us, what response it creates, and what that response may be trying to protect us from, we have something we can begin to work with.

Is This an Old Alarm, a Present Problem, or Both?

Recognizing that our past may be influencing our response doesn’t mean we should automatically assume the problem is ours.

Sometimes our nervous system is responding to something that feels familiar from the past.

Sometimes our manager is behaving in a way that really is controlling, demeaning, unpredictable, inappropriate, or harmful.

And sometimes both things are happening at the same time.

This distinction matters.

If I become activated when my manager questions a decision I’ve made, I can get curious about why being questioned feels threatening to me. Maybe I learned that making a mistake could lead to criticism, humiliation, or consequences that felt much bigger than the mistake itself.

That’s useful information about me.

But it doesn’t tell me everything I need to know about what is happening now.

I can also look at the present situation.

How did my manager question me?

Was I being asked to explain my thinking, which may be a reasonable part of working with a manager?

Was I spoken to disrespectfully?

Is this an isolated interaction, or is there a pattern?

Are expectations clear and reasonable?

Am I being treated differently from others?

Is there something happening here that I need to address, document, set a boundary around, or get support with?

This is where getting curious can help us separate the different pieces of the experience.

We don’t have to dismiss our response as just a trigger.

And we don’t have to assume that because we feel triggered, our interpretation of what’s happening is the only possible interpretation.

We can hold space for both the past and the present.

We can ask ourselves, What does this remind me of?

And we can also ask, What is actually happening here?

Those two questions can give us very different information.

The first can help us understand the response our nervous system learned.

The second can help us evaluate the situation we’re in now.

And together, they can help us decide what we need.

Sometimes that might mean regulating ourselves and approaching the situation differently. Sometimes it might mean having a conversation, asking for clarification, setting a boundary, documenting a pattern, seeking support, or considering whether this environment continues to work for us.

The goal isn’t to convince ourselves that everything is safe.

The goal is to get enough information to make a choice based on what is happening now, rather than having the past make that choice for us.

We Can’t Always Control the Trigger. We Can Learn to Work With the Response.

One of the things I’ve had to learn in my own career is that recognizing my triggers doesn’t mean they stop happening.

I can understand exactly why something activates me and still feel my nervous system respond when it happens.

My heart may start racing. I may feel defensive. I may want to shut down, get away, explain myself, prove myself, fix the situation, or immediately do whatever I think will make everything okay again.

The trigger can happen quickly.

What I’ve learned is that I don’t have to make my next decision just as quickly.

When we’re activated, there can be an enormous sense of urgency. We may feel like we need to respond to the email right now, explain ourselves right now, confront our boss right now, fix whatever went wrong right now, or start looking for another job right now.

But urgency is something we can learn to notice, too.

When possible, we can give ourselves enough space to get grounded before deciding what to do next.

That might mean stepping away from the computer for a few minutes. Taking a few slow breaths. Going for a walk. Writing down what happened. Talking with someone we trust. Or simply reminding ourselves, I don’t have to figure this out in this exact moment.

Once there is a little more space between the trigger and our response, we can begin getting curious.

What happened?

What did my manager actually say or do?

What happened inside me?

What did I feel in my body? What thoughts showed up? What did I immediately want to do?

What meaning did I give the interaction?

Did I hear criticism as I’m not good enough? Did a question feel like I can’t be trusted? Did someone’s frustration become I’m in trouble?

What does this remind me of?

Is there something familiar about the feeling, the dynamic, or the response?

And then we can come back to the present.

What choices do I have now?

That last question matters.

Because the response that once helped us survive may still show up automatically, but automatic doesn’t have to mean inevitable.

We may not get to choose whether our nervous system reacts.

We can practice creating more choice in what happens next.

This is the beginning of what I teach through my 5 R Framework:

* Recognize the pattern,

* Root out the cause,

* Rebuild the response,

* Rehearse it live, and

* Reinforce for good.

It starts with noticing.

Not judging the response.

Not shaming ourselves for having it.

Not demanding that we stop being triggered.

Just recognizing what is happening and getting curious about why.

Because awareness alone doesn’t change a career.

But awareness can create the space where a different response becomes possible.

Start by Noticing the Pattern

If you’re beginning to recognize some of your own workplace triggers as you’re reading this, you don’t have to figure them all out at once.

Start by noticing.

What happened?

What did you feel?

What did you immediately believe the interaction meant?

What did you want to do next?

And what, if anything, felt familiar about it?

I created the Workplace Trigger Tracker Toolkit to help us slow these experiences down and begin looking for the patterns that can be difficult to see when we’re in the middle of them.

Instead of simply walking away from an interaction thinking, My boss triggered me again, the Trigger Tracker can help us get more specific about what happened, what response it activated, and what we may need in order to navigate similar situations differently in the future.

We don’t have to use what we discover to judge ourselves.

We can use it to get curious.

Because every time we recognize a pattern, we have another opportunity to understand what our nervous system has been trying to do for us and consider whether that same response is what we need now.

We May Have More Choices Than Our Nervous System Realizes

One of the hardest things about being triggered by someone in authority is that, in the moment, we may not feel like we have very many choices.

We may feel like we have to comply.

We may feel like we have to keep them happy.

We may feel like we have to defend ourselves, prove ourselves, fix the situation, or get away from it.

Sometimes leaving the job may feel like the only way to make the feeling stop.

I understand that response.

When many of these patterns were first formed, we really may not have had many choices.

As children, we couldn’t simply decide that an authority figure’s behavior wasn’t working for us and find another family. We couldn’t schedule a meeting to clarify expectations, talk to Human Resources, set a workplace boundary, ask for a different assignment, look for another job, or decide how much access someone would have to us.

Our options were limited, so we learned ways to adapt.

We kept the peace.

We became easy to manage.

We stayed quiet.

We anticipated what other people needed.

We became exceptionally capable.

We handled things ourselves.

We learned how to survive within circumstances we couldn’t necessarily change.

Those responses may still show up when we’re sitting across from a boss today.

But our circumstances are different now.

That doesn’t mean every option available to us is easy, safe, or without consequences. Workplace power dynamics are real. Financial realities are real. There may be very good reasons why we aren’t ready or able to confront a manager, leave a position, or make a significant change.

Choice doesn’t mean pretending those realities don’t exist.

It means recognizing that there may be more than one possible response available to us.

Maybe we ask our manager what they meant instead of trying to interpret it ourselves.

Maybe we give ourselves time before responding to an email.

Maybe we ask for clearer expectations.

Maybe we disagree respectfully.

Maybe we stop automatically saying yes.

Maybe we document behavior that concerns us.

Maybe we seek guidance or support.

Maybe we set a boundary.

Maybe we decide that something isn’t ours to fix.

And sometimes, after looking carefully at what is happening, we may decide that leaving really is the choice we want to make.

The difference is that leaving doesn’t have to be an automatic escape from the feeling of being triggered. It can be an intentional decision based on what we know about ourselves, what we’re experiencing, what we need, and what we want for our careers.

That’s the possibility I keep coming back to in this work.

We aren’t trying to become people who never have a trauma response again.

We’re creating more space between what happens to us and what we do next.

And sometimes, in that space, we discover choices we couldn’t see before.

From Automatic Response to Intentional Choice

When I think back to that manager who asked me to account for my time, I can understand my response differently now.

I can see why it felt so much bigger than a request about how I spent my workday.

It touched something familiar.

It activated feelings around control, trust, authority, and whether someone else believed I was capable of managing myself.

Knowing that doesn’t mean I have to convince myself that I was wrong to be upset. It doesn’t mean I have to decide that my manager’s approach was reasonable. And it doesn’t erase the very real frustration I experienced in that situation.

It gives me more information about me.

And with more information comes more choice.

That’s what I wish I had understood much earlier in my career.

For a long time, I thought my options were determined by what happened around me. If someone triggered me, I responded. If an authority figure made me feel threatened, I protected myself in whatever way had worked before.

Sometimes that meant overworking.

Sometimes it meant proving myself.

Sometimes it meant staying quiet.

Sometimes it meant handling everything myself.

And sometimes it meant wanting to get as far away from the situation as possible.

Those responses weren’t random. They had a history.

But they don’t have to determine the future of my career.

And neither do yours.

Imagine being able to walk out of a difficult meeting and, instead of immediately assuming you’re in trouble, recognize: Something about that interaction activated me. Let me figure out what happened.

Imagine receiving feedback and being able to notice the part of you that wants to defend, explain, shut down, or prove yourself without automatically having to follow that response.

Imagine recognizing that your boss is disappointed with something you did and knowing that their disappointment doesn’t have to determine what you believe about yourself.

Or realizing that your manager really is behaving in a way that isn’t acceptable to you and being able to consider your options from a grounded place.

That doesn’t mean the trigger disappears.

It means the trigger doesn’t automatically get to decide what happens next.

This is what I mean when I talk about moving from automatic response to intentional choice.

We recognize what’s happening.

We get curious about where the response may be coming from.

We look at what is actually happening in the present.

And then we ask:

Given what I know now, how do I want to respond?

There may not always be a perfect answer.

But there may be more possibilities than we could see when our nervous system was focused on protecting us.

And every time we create a little more space to see those possibilities, we get to participate more intentionally in what happens next in our careers.

What Might Become Possible With More Choice?

Being triggered by our boss can affect much more than one uncomfortable interaction.

It can shape how visible we’re willing to be, whether we speak up, how we respond to feedback, the boundaries we’re willing to set, the opportunities we pursue, and even whether we stay in a job or leave it.

That’s why learning to understand these responses matters.

The goal isn’t to become unaffected by everything that happens at work. We’re human. We’re going to have reactions. And for those of us whose nervous systems learned to protect us through difficult experiences, some workplace situations may continue to activate those protective responses.

What can change is what becomes possible after we’re activated.

We can learn to recognize what is happening.

We can get curious instead of immediately judging ourselves.

We can create space to distinguish what belongs to the past from what is happening in the present.

And we can practice choosing a response that reflects what we need and what we want now.

That practice can change more than how we interact with a difficult boss.

It can change how we experience our careers.

If You’d Like to Go Deeper

If you’ve been reading this and thinking, I can recognize my triggers, but I don’t always know what to do once I’m activated, that’s exactly the gap I created Emotional Regulation in the Workplace to help us work with.

This six-week, self-paced course explores how dysregulation can show up at work and gives us practical tools for building self-awareness, coping with activation, communicating and setting boundaries, strengthening resilience, and navigating our careers with more intention.

Because recognizing the pattern is important.

Learning what to do when the pattern shows up is where we begin to practice something different.

And if you’re not ready for the course, that’s okay.

Start with the free Workplace Trigger Tracker Toolkit. Use it the next time something at work activates you and see what you notice.

You don’t have to change everything at once.

Sometimes the next step is simply being able to say:

I recognize what’s happening.

I understand a little more about why.

And I have choices about what I do next.

That’s a powerful place to begin.

Do You Remember Darth Vader?

From the moment Darth Vader appears in Star Wars, there is no question that he is someone to be reckoned with.

He doesn’t have to announce his power. You can feel it.

The black helmet. The cape. The mechanical breathing that lets you know he’s coming before he even enters the room.

He is intimidating. Commanding. Driven. Powerful.

He walks into a room and people respond.

He doesn’t appear uncertain. He doesn’t appear overwhelmed. He certainly doesn’t look like someone who needs help.

He is strong in the dark side of the Force, capable of taking control of a situation without ever raising his voice, and seemingly unfazed by whatever stands in his way.

For most of the original Star Wars trilogy, that’s the Darth Vader we know.

Powerful.

In control.

A force to be reckoned with.

And then, near the end of Return of the Jedi, something happens that changes the way we see him.

Luke removes his father’s mask.

For the first time, all of that armor is stripped away.

And the man underneath looks nothing like the figure we’ve been watching.

He is pale. Scarred. Frail.

He is dying.

Suddenly, there is this enormous contrast between the person everyone else could see and the person who had been underneath the armor all along.

The armor hadn’t just protected him.

It had hidden how vulnerable the person underneath it really was.

We may not walk into work wearing a black helmet and cape, but many of us have learned to wear armor of our own. Armor that helps us look strong, confident, and in control, even when something very different may be happening underneath.

And for some of us, part of that armor is being the capable one.

* The person who can handle it.

* The person who figures it out.

* The person everyone can count on.

* The person who never seems to need much from anyone else.

And sometimes our armor can be so convincing that no one thinks to ask what it takes to keep wearing it.

If We Haven’t Met Yet

If we haven’t met yet, I’m Cyndi Bennett, a trauma-informed career coach and founder of the Resilient Career Academy. You’re listening to or reading Issue #10 of The Resilient Career Academy Newsletter, where we explore how the after-effects of complex trauma can show up in our careers and what becomes possible when we begin recognizing the patterns they can create.

Today, I want to talk about one piece of armor I know well: being the capable one.

Because being capable can be a tremendous strength. It can help us build successful careers, earn the trust of the people around us, and open doors to opportunities we worked incredibly hard for.

But what happens when being capable becomes more than something we know we are?

What happens when it becomes someone we believe we have to be?

“I Can Handle It.”

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve said some version of those words throughout my career.

And most of the time, they were true.

I could handle it. I could figure things out. I could walk into complicated situations, make sense of what was happening, and find a way forward. Give me something I’d never done before, and I’d learn. Give me a problem no one knew how to solve, and I’d start looking for answers.

That capability has served me incredibly well throughout my career.

It helped me become someone people trusted. I was given more responsibility because people knew I would follow through. I was invited into bigger conversations and given increasingly complicated problems to solve.

And every time I handled the next thing, I reinforced something for the people around me and for myself:

Cyndi can handle it.

That’s where this gets complicated.

Because there is a difference between knowing we’re capable of handling difficult things and believing we have to handle everything ourselves.

For a long time, I’m not sure I recognized the difference.

Being capable wasn’t the problem. My capability was real, and I’m proud of what it helped me accomplish.

But somewhere along the way, “I can handle it” became part of the armor.

It meant I could keep functioning without anyone knowing how much effort it was taking. I could solve the problem instead of admitting I didn’t know what to do. I could take on one more thing rather than acknowledge that I was already carrying too much.

And because I kept handling it, the people around me had very little reason to believe I couldn’t.

They could only respond to the version of me I was allowing them to see.

When Being Capable Feels Safer

For some of us, being capable became valuable long before we ever entered the workplace.

Maybe we learned that the safest person to depend on was ourselves. Maybe asking for help didn’t always result in help. Maybe we learned to anticipate what needed to happen before anyone had to ask, or discovered that being responsible, independent, and easy to take care of earned us approval.

We may not have consciously decided, I’m going to become the person who never needs anything from anyone.

We adapted.

We figured things out. We learned how to solve our own problems. We became resourceful. We learned how to keep functioning when things around us weren’t functioning particularly well.

And then we entered the workplace, where many of those adaptations were rewarded.

The employee who doesn’t need much direction can be seen as a self-starter. The person who always finds a solution becomes the problem-solver. The one who takes responsibility when something goes wrong becomes dependable. The person who can carry an enormous workload becomes the person everyone turns to when there is more work to be done.

The workplace may have had no idea what it took for us to become that person.

It just knew that we delivered.

And every promotion, compliment, difficult assignment, and “Give it to Cyndi, she’ll figure it out” could reinforce something we’d already learned:

Being capable works.

It helps us feel in control. It reduces the need to depend on other people. It can protect us from the vulnerability of admitting we don’t know, can’t do something, or need support.

And it may help us build a pretty successful career.

That’s why I don’t think the answer is to stop being capable.

The question is whether we still have a choice about when we put the armor on.

Because there’s a significant difference between:

I can figure this out myself.

and

I can’t let anyone see that I need help figuring this out.

Between:

I can carry this.

and

I can’t let anyone know this is too heavy.

Between:

I’m capable.

and

I have to be the capable one.

And when that last one starts driving us, the armor that helped us succeed can also make it incredibly difficult for anyone to see when we’re struggling underneath it.

What Happens When Everyone Believes the Armor?

There is an interesting consequence to becoming the person who can always handle it.

People start believing us.

If we consistently show the people around us that we can figure things out, carry the extra load, solve the problem, and keep going no matter what is happening, eventually they stop wondering whether we need help.

Why wouldn’t they?

We’ve given them every reason to believe we’re fine.

They may not see how much energy it takes to keep everything moving. They don’t know how long we stared at the computer trying to make our brain cooperate. They don’t see the anxiety before the meeting, the tears after we log off, or how little of ourselves may be left by the time we get home.

They see the work getting done.

They see capable.

And this is where the armor can become incredibly isolating.

We may desperately want someone to notice that we’re struggling while simultaneously doing everything we can to make sure they don’t.

We may wish someone would offer to take something off our plate while continuing to reassure everyone that we’ve got it.

We may feel hurt that nobody checks on us while presenting ourselves as the person nobody ever needs to check on.

That’s a painful contradiction.

And I don’t think it means the people around us are necessarily uncaring. They may simply be responding to what we’ve shown them.

Our armor is doing exactly what we designed it to do.

It’s protecting the parts of us we don’t feel safe enough to show.

But protection can come with a cost.

If no one can see that we’re struggling, they can’t respond to the struggle they can’t see. If no one knows we need support, they don’t have the opportunity to offer it. And if we’ve built our professional identity around being the person who can handle anything, taking off even one piece of that armor can feel incredibly vulnerable.

Because then we’re faced with a different question:

What happens if they see that I can’t handle everything?

And maybe an even harder one:

Will they still see me as capable when they see that I’m human?

What If Both Can Be True?

Somewhere along the way, many of us may have created a choice that was never really ours to make.

* Either I’m capable, or I need help.

* Either I’m strong, or I’m struggling.

* Either I know what I’m doing, or I’m in over my head.

* Either I can handle it, or I can’t.

But what if those things were never opposites?

We can be incredibly capable and still reach the edge of our capacity. We can be resourceful and still benefit from someone else’s expertise. We can know what we’re doing and still have moments when we don’t know what to do next. We can be strong and still need someone to stand beside us while we navigate something hard.

Needing support doesn’t erase our capability.

That has been an important shift for me.

Taking off the armor doesn’t require me to hand over everything I’ve learned to do for myself. It doesn’t mean I suddenly become dependent on everyone around me or stop trusting my own ability to figure things out.

Maybe it means I no longer have to prove my capability by how little I need from anyone else.

I can ask the question instead of spending three hours finding the answer myself. I can tell someone I’m at capacity before I reach my breaking point. I can let a trusted colleague know that something affected me. I can accept an offer of help without immediately trying to convince them, and myself, that I’ve got it.

And perhaps most importantly, I can allow someone to see that I’m struggling without deciding that what they’re seeing is weakness.

Because the goal isn’t to stop being the capable one.

It’s to know that we don’t have to wear capability as armor in order for it to be true.

Maybe We Don’t Have to Wear the Armor All the Time

When Luke removed Darth Vader’s mask, the person underneath hadn’t suddenly become weak.

He had been underneath the armor the entire time.

And maybe that’s worth remembering when we think about our own armor at work.

Letting someone see that we’re struggling doesn’t erase decades of competence. Asking for help doesn’t undo everything we’ve accomplished. Saying “I don’t know” doesn’t take away what we do know. Reaching the edge of our capacity doesn’t mean we were never capable in the first place.

The capability is still there, even when the armor isn’t.

And maybe healing isn’t about ripping off the armor and deciding we’re never going to wear it again.

That armor may have protected us for very good reasons. There may still be people, situations, and workplaces where we decide that keeping parts of ourselves protected is exactly what we need to do.

But perhaps we can begin noticing when we’re wearing it automatically.

We can ask ourselves whether we actually need it right now.

Whether the person standing in front of us has earned enough trust to see a little more of what’s underneath.

Whether “I can handle it” is something we’re choosing because we genuinely want to handle it, or something we feel compelled to say because we don’t know who we’d be if we couldn’t.

We don’t have to stop being strong.

We don’t have to stop being resourceful.

And we certainly don’t have to stop being capable.

Maybe we can simply begin giving ourselves permission to be capable without having to look invulnerable.

What Might Change If You Didn’t Have to Carry It All Alone?

Recognizing our armor is one thing. Figuring out when we still need it, what might feel safe enough to do differently, and how those patterns are shaping our careers can be much harder to navigate on our own.

That’s the kind of work I do through trauma-informed career coaching.

We can look at the patterns showing up in your career, understand what they may be protecting, and explore what could become possible if you had more choice in how you respond, without asking you to give up the strengths that helped you get this far.

Sometimes the hardest part of the workday isn’t the work.

It’s the deadline that suddenly gets moved up.

The meeting where you’re expected to present without much notice.

The manager who checks on your progress for the third time today.

The project that changes direction after you’ve already spent hours getting it right.

The performance review sitting on your calendar next week.

The disagreement with a coworker you can’t stop thinking about.

The vague announcement about “organizational changes” that leaves you wondering whether your job is safe.

Any one of these could be a normal part of working. They can also be incredibly activating.

And when we’re triggered by them, we may tell ourselves that we should be able to handle it. It’s just a deadline. It’s just feedback. It’s just a meeting. Everyone else deals with this.

But knowing intellectually that something is part of work doesn’t necessarily change what happens inside us when we experience it.

That’s what I want to talk about: why certain workplace situations can trigger such strong responses, what those responses might be telling us, and what becomes possible when we begin to recognize our own patterns.

If we haven’t met, I’m Cyndi Bennett. I’m a trauma-informed career coach, founder of the Resilient Career Academy™, and a trauma survivor myself.

I spent more than 25 years working inside corporate America, and much of the work I do now focuses on something I wish more of us talked about: the ways our past experiences can follow us into the workplace and quietly shape how we respond to pressure, feedback, uncertainty, conflict, authority, and the everyday demands of our jobs.

That’s why I think workplace triggers are worth talking about. Not because we need to eliminate every uncomfortable reaction we have at work, but because understanding what activates us can give us more awareness and more choice about what happens next.

What Do We Mean When We Say We're “Triggered” at Work?

The word triggered gets used pretty casually. We might say a frustrating email triggered us, a coworker got on our nerves, or a difficult meeting ruined our day. But when I talk about workplace triggers, I mean something more specific.

A workplace trigger is a situation, interaction, or experience that sets off a strong internal response. Something happens in the present, but our reaction may be influenced by what that experience represents to us, what it reminds us of, or what we have learned could happen next.

And that distinction matters.

A tight deadline can simply be stressful. But for someone whose sense of safety has become connected to getting everything right, that deadline might activate an intense fear of making a mistake.

Micromanagement can be irritating. It can also leave someone feeling watched, controlled, or unable to trust their own judgment.

A change in priorities can be inconvenient. For someone who has learned to rely heavily on predictability, that unexpected change may create a much stronger sense of uncertainty or loss of control.

And criticism can be difficult for almost anyone to hear. But if criticism has historically been accompanied by humiliation, rejection, punishment, or shame, even constructive feedback in the workplace can sometimes activate a response that feels much bigger than the conversation happening in front of us.

That doesn’t mean every strong reaction we have at work is rooted in trauma.

* Sometimes we’re stressed.

* Sometimes we’re exhausted.

* Sometimes we’re dealing with unreasonable expectations, poor leadership, unfair treatment, or a genuinely unhealthy workplace.

Our reactions can also give us important information about what is happening around us.

That’s why I don’t think the most useful question is immediately, “Is this a trauma response?”

I think we can start somewhere simpler:

Something happened. I had a reaction. What can I learn by getting curious about both?

We don’t have to judge the reaction, explain it away, or decide immediately whether it belongs to the past or the present.

We can begin by noticing it.

And when we start paying attention over time, we may begin to see that certain situations, people, dynamics, or experiences at work consistently create a stronger response for us.

Those patterns are where workplace trigger awareness begins.

Workplace Triggers Can Come From More Places Than We Realize

When we think about being triggered at work, we may immediately think about the obvious moments: a difficult conversation with a manager, conflict with a coworker, harsh criticism, or someone treating us poorly.

But workplace triggers can be much less obvious.

A deadline can be a trigger. So can an unexpected change in plans, unclear instructions, being interrupted repeatedly, having too much work and not enough time, being asked to speak in front of a group, or waiting for the results of a performance review.

Even things that might look positive from the outside can be activating. Being recognized for our work can increase our visibility. Being offered a new opportunity can create uncertainty. Getting promoted can change our relationships with coworkers and put us in a position where more people are watching, evaluating, or depending on us.

What makes this complicated is that the same workplace experience won’t necessarily trigger everyone in the same way, or for the same reason.

* A manager who frequently checks on our progress might activate feelings of being watched or controlled.

* A vague assignment might leave someone else feeling anxious because they don’t know exactly what is expected of them.

* A disagreement with a coworker might create an intense urge to restore the relationship as quickly as possible.

* A heavy workload might activate the belief that we have to prove we can handle everything without asking for help.

Sometimes the trigger isn’t even the event itself. It is what the event seems to threaten.

Pressure and performance can bring up fears of making a mistake, failing, disappointing someone, or not being good enough.

Power and control can show up through micromanagement, rigid policies, authority figures, or situations where we have little say in what happens next.

Relationships and belonging can be affected by conflict, criticism, office politics, exclusion, lack of recognition, or changes in how someone interacts with us.

Uncertainty and unpredictability can come from unclear expectations, changing priorities, organizational changes, poor communication, or concerns about job security.

And capacity can matter too. Excessive workloads, constant interruptions, technology problems, competing priorities, and too little time to recover can leave us with far less capacity to navigate something that might feel manageable on another day.

This is one reason simply asking “What triggers me?” may not go far enough.

We can also become curious about:

What is it about this situation that feels difficult for me?

Is it the possibility of failure? The loss of control? Being evaluated? Disappointing someone? Not knowing what is going to happen? Feeling excluded? Being visible? Having to depend on someone else?

We don’t have to know the answer immediately. In fact, we may discover that two situations that look completely different on the surface activate something very similar underneath.

And that’s where tracking our triggers can become useful. Instead of looking at each difficult workday as an isolated experience, we can begin noticing what repeats.

That pattern may tell us much more than any single trigger ever could.

What triggers you at work?

Sometimes we know we’ve had a strong reaction without recognizing exactly what set it in motion. And because our workplace triggers are personal, what activates one person may barely register for someone else.

I created the free Workplace Trigger Tracker Toolkit to help you identify the situations that may be triggering you at work, track what happens when you’re activated, and begin noticing the patterns that repeat.

Why Can an Ordinary Workplace Situation Feel So Intense?

One of the most confusing things about workplace triggers can be the difference between what is happening around us and what is happening inside us.

We may know that the deadline is manageable. We may understand that our manager is allowed to ask questions about our work. We may even recognize that the feedback we’re receiving is reasonable.

And still, something inside us responds as though much more is at stake.

For those of us with a history of complex trauma, that response may make more sense when we consider what our nervous system has learned from previous experiences.

Our brains and bodies are constantly taking in information and trying to determine what deserves our attention. Past experiences can influence that process. If certain situations once came with consequences, we may become especially sensitive to cues that suggest something similar could be happening again.

That doesn’t require the present situation to look exactly like something from our past.

The connection might be how the experience feels.

* Being micromanaged may bring up a familiar sense of having no control.

* Being criticized may activate an old expectation that making a mistake will have consequences far beyond the mistake itself.

* Unclear expectations may create the feeling that we’re responsible for getting something right without being given enough information to know what “right” is.

* Conflict may feel less like two professionals disagreeing and more like a relationship is suddenly at risk.

In those moments, our response isn’t necessarily waiting for us to consciously evaluate all the evidence.

We may feel the tension in our body before we have words for what is happening. We may want to explain, fix, withdraw, defend ourselves, work harder, make someone happy, or regain control before we’ve consciously decided to do any of those things.

That’s part of what can make a trigger feel so immediate.

But there’s another piece I think is important.

The intensity of our response doesn’t automatically tell us whether the situation is safe or unsafe.

Sometimes our past is influencing how we’re experiencing the present. Sometimes something genuinely concerning is happening at work. And sometimes both things are true at the same time.

Our goal isn’t to talk ourselves out of our reactions or assume, This is just my trauma.

It’s to create enough space to become curious about what we’re experiencing and what is actually happening around us.

We can begin asking:

* What am I feeling right now?

* What does this situation seem to mean to me?

* What do I actually know about what is happening?

* Is there something here that needs my attention, or is my system anticipating something that hasn’t happened?

We may not know the answers immediately. That’s okay.

Because emotional regulation isn’t about becoming unaffected by difficult things at work. It’s about developing more capacity to stay with ourselves long enough to understand what is happening before an automatic response decides what we do next.

And sometimes, the first sign that an automatic response has taken over isn’t how we feel.

It’s what we find ourselves doing next.

What Being Triggered at Work Can Look Like

When we hear the word triggered, we might picture an obvious emotional reaction. Maybe someone becomes visibly upset, panics, gets angry, or needs to leave the situation.

Sometimes it does look like that.

But being triggered at work can be much harder to recognize, especially when we’ve become very good at continuing to function while we’re activated.

We might leave a difficult meeting and immediately start working harder. We double-check everything we’ve done, stay later than we planned, or decide that the next deliverable has to be flawless.

We might start explaining. A simple question about our work turns into a five-minute answer because we want to make sure the other person understands why we made the decision we did. Or we send the follow-up email with three more paragraphs of context, just in case.

We might become agreeable. We say yes to the additional assignment even though we’re already overwhelmed. We change our opinion when someone pushes back. We apologize even when we’re not sure we’ve done anything wrong.

Or we might go in the opposite direction.

We get quiet. Stop contributing in meetings. Put off responding to an email. Avoid the coworker we had a disagreement with. Decide not to volunteer for the opportunity we were excited about yesterday.

Sometimes we become defensive or irritable. Sometimes we can’t concentrate. Sometimes we spend hours thinking about what happened, rehearsing what we should have said or trying to predict what might happen next.

And sometimes we simply keep working.

That’s one of the reasons these patterns can be difficult to recognize.

We can look completely functional on the outside while expending an enormous amount of energy managing what is happening on the inside.

For high-performing professionals, some of these responses may even be rewarded.

Working harder can look like dedication. Perfectionism can look like having high standards. Taking on more can look like being a team player. Staying quiet can look like being easy to work with. Constantly anticipating problems can look like exceptional preparation.

Those behaviors may have helped us succeed. They may also be skills we’ve genuinely developed and value.

The question isn’t whether every instance of working hard, preparing carefully, helping someone, or choosing not to engage in conflict is a trauma response.

The question is whether we still have choice.

* Am I staying late because I’ve decided this work needs additional attention, or because making a mistake suddenly feels intolerable?

* Am I saying yes because I genuinely want to help, or because saying no feels unsafe?

* Am I preparing thoroughly because it serves me, or because I don’t believe I’m allowed to walk into the room unless I’ve anticipated every possible question?

* Am I choosing not to respond right now because that’s the best decision, or because I feel unable to respond?

The behavior can look exactly the same from the outside.

What is happening inside us can be very different.

That’s why noticing what we do after we’re triggered can give us valuable information. We aren’t looking for another list of behaviors to judge or eliminate. We’re beginning to recognize when a response feels automatic and when we have enough space to choose it.

Because once we can see what happens after the trigger, we can begin working with what happens next.

Start With Recognition, Not Judgment

Once we begin recognizing these patterns, it can be tempting to turn that awareness into another reason to criticize ourselves.

* Why do I always do this?

* I should be able to handle feedback by now.

* I need to stop overthinking everything.

* Why can’t I just say no?

* I know better than this.

But noticing a pattern and judging ourselves for having it are two very different things.

Many of the responses we’ve been talking about developed for a reason. Working harder, anticipating what could go wrong, keeping the peace, staying quiet, getting everything exactly right, or trying to remain in control may have helped us navigate situations where those responses made sense.

We don’t have to shame ourselves for learning them.

And we don’t have to immediately get rid of them either.

We can start by becoming curious.

The next time you notice yourself having a strong reaction at work, see if you can slow the experience down enough to ask:

* What happened?

* What did I notice happening inside me?

* What did I think this situation meant?

* What did I immediately want to do?

* What did I actually do?

The goal isn’t to come up with the “right” answer. It’s to begin collecting information.

Maybe you notice that unclear expectations consistently make you want to work harder and prepare for every possible outcome. Maybe conflict creates an immediate urge to apologize or make things okay. Maybe being questioned makes you start explaining yourself. Maybe unexpected change makes you feel as though you need to regain control as quickly as possible.

One moment may not tell us very much.

But when we begin noticing these experiences over time, patterns can emerge.

And patterns give us something an isolated reaction often doesn’t: context.

We can begin to see not only what triggers us, but what tends to happen next. We may even start recognizing the moment when a familiar response begins taking over.

That awareness matters because we can’t make an intentional choice about something we haven’t learned to recognize yet.

So if you notice one of these patterns in yourself, we don’t need to begin with:

How do I stop doing this?

We can begin with:

That’s interesting. What is happening here?

Sometimes curiosity creates just enough space for another possibility to become visible.

We Can't Always Control the Trigger. We Can Learn to Work With the Response

We can’t control everything that happens during a workday.

Deadlines will change. Managers will give us feedback. Coworkers will disagree with us. Priorities will shift. We may be asked to do things before we feel completely ready. There will be uncertainty, pressure, difficult personalities, mistakes, misunderstandings, and circumstances we didn’t choose.

And sometimes, those experiences are going to trigger us.

The goal isn’t to become so emotionally regulated that nothing at work ever affects us. I don’t think that’s realistic, and I’m not sure it would even be desirable. Our reactions can give us important information about what we need, what matters to us, what feels uncomfortable, and what may require our attention.

What can change is what happens after we’re activated.

* There can be a difference between feeling the urge to immediately defend ourselves and deciding whether a response is actually necessary.

* Between noticing the impulse to say yes and giving ourselves time to consider whether we want to.

* Between feeling afraid that we’ve made a mistake and automatically working until midnight to prove that we’re competent.

That space may be very small at first.

Sometimes the win is simply noticing, I’m triggered right now.

We may still overexplain. We may still say yes. We may still spend the afternoon replaying the meeting. But now we’ve recognized something we might not have recognized before.

The next time, perhaps we notice the response a little earlier.

Over time, we can learn ways to help ourselves regulate when we’re activated. We can become more familiar with the thoughts, sensations, and behaviors that tend to signal that something has been triggered. We can learn to slow down before responding when the situation allows it. And we can get better at looking at both what we’re experiencing internally and what is actually happening around us.

None of that requires us to ignore our instincts or convince ourselves that everything is fine.

Sometimes the conclusion we reach after we’ve had time to regulate will be, Yes, something about this situation really isn’t okay.

The difference is that we’re giving ourselves a better opportunity to decide what we want to do with that information.

That’s where I think emotional regulation can become especially powerful in our careers.

It isn’t about controlling every feeling or eliminating every trigger. It’s about building more capacity to choose our response instead of automatically repeating the one we’ve learned to rely on.

And that process starts much earlier than changing the response.

It starts with recognizing the trigger.

You Don’t Have to Figure Out Every Trigger Today

Understanding our workplace triggers doesn’t happen all at once. And the goal isn’t to create a list of everything we need to avoid at work.

The first step is simply to notice.

The next time something at work creates a stronger reaction than you expected, get curious.

* What happened?

* What were you feeling?

* What thoughts showed up?

* What did you feel compelled to do next?

Over time, those individual moments can begin to reveal patterns. And once we can see a pattern, we have more information to work with and more opportunity to choose how we want to respond.

That’s why I created the Workplace Trigger Tracker Toolkit. It’s a free resource designed to help you identify potential workplace triggers, capture what happens when you’re activated, and begin recognizing the patterns that may be affecting how you experience work.

You don’t need to change anything yet.

For now, let’s just get curious about what’s happening.

Have you ever thought, “Maybe I should just work for myself”?

Maybe it came after another difficult interaction with your boss.

Or after leaving a workplace that had become unbearable.

Maybe you were exhausted from constantly managing triggers, personalities, expectations, office politics, and trying to hold yourself together while still doing your job.

Maybe you lost a job and couldn’t imagine putting yourself through another workplace like the one you’d just left.

And somewhere in all of that, entrepreneurship started to look like an answer.

If I work for myself, I can control my environment.

I can choose who I work with.

I can set my own schedule.

I won’t have a boss triggering me.

I can finally do things my way.

That possibility can hold a tremendous amount of hope.

And maybe some relief, too.

But there’s something I don’t think we talk about nearly enough:

We may leave the workplace. But we don’t leave our nervous system, our history, or the survival strategies we developed there behind.

A quick introduction, if we haven’t met

If we haven’t met yet, I’m Cyndi Bennett, a trauma-informed career coach and founder of the Resilient Career Academy. You’re reading or listening to The Resilient Career Academy Newsletter #9, where we explore how the after-effects of complex trauma can show up in our careers and what becomes possible when we begin recognizing and removing the obstacles they can create.

Today, I’m starting a new conversation about something we haven’t talked about nearly enough: what happens when trauma survivors become entrepreneurs.

Leaving a difficult workplace and building something of our own can change a lot about our working environment. We may have more control over our time, the people we work with, the work we choose to do, and even the conditions under which we do it.

But becoming an entrepreneur doesn’t give us a clean slate.

We bring ourselves with us.

Our experience. Our strengths. Our resourcefulness. Our hopes for what this business might make possible.

And we may also bring some of the adaptations we developed long before we ever thought about starting a business.

Over the next several months, I want to explore what that can look like, not because there is one universal experience of entrepreneurship as a trauma survivor, but because I think there are conversations we need to start having.

And today, I want to start with a simple question:

What happens when the survival strategies that helped us get this far become part of how we build a business?

We Don't Start Our Businesses From a Blank Slate

When we start a business, we bring decades of experience with us.

We bring the skills we’ve developed throughout our careers, the things we’ve learned about people, the problems we know how to solve, and the experiences that have shaped what matters to us.

For trauma survivors, some of those experiences may have helped us develop strengths that serve us incredibly well as entrepreneurs.

We may be resourceful because we’ve spent much of our lives figuring things out. We may notice things other people miss because we’ve learned to pay close attention to what’s happening around us. We may understand people deeply, anticipate needs, adapt quickly when circumstances change, and keep going when things don’t go according to plan.

Those things come with us.

But so do the strategies we developed to protect ourselves.

And here’s where entrepreneurship gets interesting.

Some of the very same adaptations that helped us navigate difficult circumstances can look remarkably useful when we’re building a business.

* Self-reliance can look like independence.

* Hypervigilance can look like being exceptionally prepared.

* People-pleasing can look like outstanding customer service.

* Perfectionism can look like having incredibly high standards.

* Over-functioning can look like the work ethic entrepreneurship supposedly requires.

Sometimes the things that helped us survive can also help us succeed.

Until they don’t.

That’s what makes these patterns so difficult to recognize. They don’t necessarily show up in our businesses looking like trauma responses. They may look like the qualities of a really committed entrepreneur.

And that’s what I want us to start becoming curious about.

I Thought the Triggers Would Go Away

One of the things I didn’t expect when I started my own business was that the things that triggered me would change.

In my corporate career, I had become pretty familiar with the situations that could knock me off-center. I understood what it felt like to navigate difficult workplace relationships, authority dynamics, conflict, feedback, and the unpredictability of working inside a large organization.

Entrepreneurship gave me more control over many of those things. I could decide what kind of work I wanted to do, who I wanted to work with, how I spent my time, and what I wanted to create.

And yet, I discovered that having more control over my working environment didn’t mean I stopped getting triggered.

The triggers were just different.

Suddenly, I was navigating things I hadn’t encountered in quite the same way as an employee.

* I had to put a price on my own work.

* I had to talk publicly about what I could offer.

* I had to make decisions without knowing whether they would work.

* I had to invest time and money without any guarantee of a return.

* I could create something I believed deeply in and have nobody buy it.

And because I didn’t initially recognize some of those experiences as triggers, I didn’t necessarily recognize my responses to them as protection strategies either.

I just thought I was trying to figure out how to be an entrepreneur.

When Survival Strategies Put on Entrepreneurial Clothes

The tricky thing about survival strategies in entrepreneurship is that they don’t always look like survival strategies.

They can look like working hard. Being committed to our clients. Doing our research. Caring deeply about the quality of our work. Being careful with money. Wanting to make the right decision. Trying to build something we’re proud of.

And sometimes, that’s exactly what they are.

But sometimes there may be something else happening underneath.

* We might spend months perfecting an offer because putting something into the world before we’re certain it’s good enough feels incredibly vulnerable.

* We might give clients far more than we promised because the thought of disappointing them is difficult to tolerate.

* We might keep our prices low, not because the market won’t support more, but because asking someone to pay us more brings up something we weren’t expecting.

* We might research a decision endlessly, ask multiple people what they think, or sign up for another program because making a decision without knowing how it will turn out feels uncomfortable.

* We might spend weeks figuring out something ourselves because asking for help doesn’t even occur to us until we’re already overwhelmed.

* And we might work far beyond our capacity because no one is standing there telling us to stop.

That’s part of what makes this so complicated.

Entrepreneurship can actually reward some of these behaviors, at least for a while.

* The over-functioner gets a lot done.

* The perfectionist produces exceptional work.

* The people-pleaser has happy clients.

* The hyper-independent entrepreneur becomes incredibly resourceful.

Until the very thing that helps us build the business starts making it harder to sustain.

And if we don’t recognize what’s happening, we may assume we simply need a better business strategy.

Maybe sometimes we do.

But sometimes the business problem and the protection pattern are sitting right next to each other.

The Same Strategies May Also Be Some of Our Greatest Strengths

One of the things I want to be careful about in this conversation is turning every behavior we developed because of trauma into something we need to fix.

Because I don’t believe that’s true.

Some of the adaptations we developed to survive difficult circumstances may have also helped us develop qualities that serve us incredibly well as entrepreneurs.

We may be resourceful, adaptable, persistent, and deeply attuned to the people around us. Our lived experiences may help us see problems other people overlook or understand the people we serve in ways that can’t be learned from a business textbook.

Those strengths are part of what we bring to our businesses, too.

Our experiences may have given us tremendous empathy for the people we serve. They may have helped us recognize a problem that other people weren’t seeing. For some of us, they may even be part of the reason we started the business in the first place.

I don’t want us to lose any of that.

The question isn’t whether a particular trait is good or bad. Maybe the more useful question is:

Is this helping me build the business I want to build, or is it helping me feel safe while quietly getting in the way of what I want?

And sometimes, the answer may be both.

* The self-reliance that makes us resourceful can also make it difficult to ask for help.

* The empathy that helps us understand our clients can make boundaries more complicated.

* The ability to anticipate problems can help us prepare, but it can also keep us preparing long after we’re ready to act.

That’s why awareness matters.

We don’t have to reject the parts of ourselves that helped us get here. But we can begin noticing when they’re serving the business we’re trying to build and when an old protection strategy may be making decisions for us.

And once we can see the difference, we have more choice about what happens next.

What Could Change If We Started Noticing?

I think one of the most powerful things we can do as trauma-survivor entrepreneurs is begin noticing what we’re bringing into our businesses without immediately deciding that something is wrong with us or that we need to change it.

We can become curious about why we work the way we do. Why certain parts of entrepreneurship feel relatively easy while others feel disproportionately hard. Why we keep getting stuck in the same places, even after we’ve learned the strategy, taken the course, or been told what we’re “supposed” to do.

Maybe the question isn’t always, What am I doing wrong?

Maybe sometimes it’s, What’s happening here?

* What happens inside me when I need to make a decision without knowing how it will turn out?

* What happens when I need help?

* What happens when someone says no?

* What happens when I have to put a price on my work?

* What happens when something I created doesn’t sell?

* What happens when the business starts growing, and more people can see me?

We don’t have to have answers to those questions right away.

Awareness gives us somewhere to begin.

Because when we can recognize that an old protection strategy may be showing up in a new entrepreneurial situation, we have an opportunity to decide whether it’s what we need now.

And that creates choice.

I Want to Hear What Entrepreneurship Has Been Like for You

This is a conversation I want to keep having.

I’ve spent a lot of time thinking, writing, and talking about how complex trauma can show up in our careers. But entrepreneurship creates an entirely different working environment, and I’m becoming increasingly interested in what happens when trauma survivors begin building businesses of our own.

I have my experience. I know the patterns I’ve encountered and the things that have surprised me along the way. But I don’t want to assume that my experience is your experience.

So, over the next several months, I’m going to be exploring Entrepreneurship as a Trauma Survivor here in The Resilient Career Academy Newsletter, and I’d love for you to be part of that conversation.

If you’re a trauma survivor who has started a business, is building one now, or has tried entrepreneurship in the past, I’d love to hear from you:

* What made you decide to become an entrepreneur?

* What has been harder than you expected?

* And what has surprised you about yourself along the way?

You don’t need to know whether any of those experiences are connected to trauma. In fact, I’m most interested in hearing what you’ve experienced before we try to explain why.

You can share as much or as little as feels comfortable. Your experiences will help me understand this intersection more deeply and inform our conversations going forward.

Last week I had a discovery call with a man who has spent almost three decades in the financial sector.

He's the kind of person people trust in a room.

Steady.

Reliable.

The one everyone assumes has it together.

He was diagnosed with CPTSD last year.

He told me that in the months since, nothing has felt safe.

Not the people he works with, not the meetings he used to walk into without a second thought, not even his own reactions.

He’s found himself questioning everything he thought he knew about himself.

The way he reacts to feedback.

The way he reads people.

The way he’s built his entire career on staying in control.

All of it suddenly looked different to him, like he was seeing his own life from outside of it for the first time.

Here’s what he described, and what I hear so often from people in the early days of a CPTSD diagnosis.

Suddenly, everyone feels like a threat.

Not because anything around him actually changed, but because his nervous system is finally being honest about how much it’s been protecting him, for how long, from how far back.

A coworker’s tone in a meeting.

A boss’s silence after he speaks.

Things that used to roll off him now land like something is wrong, something is dangerous, even when he knows, logically, that it isn’t.

That’s a dysregulated nervous system at work, and it’s showing up for him in ways I recognize from so many conversations like this one.

Common Workplace Struggles for Trauma Survivors:

* A hyperactive threat-detection system that reads colleagues and leaders as adversaries, even when no real threat is present

* A running fear about job security, about losing the income and stability built over years of hard work

* The daily exhaustion of managing an internal alarm just to keep functioning

* Defensiveness that others perceive as overreacting, while it feels like a necessary safety response from the inside

* Performing well on the outside while feeling like everything is falling apart on the inside

* A pull between ambition and the need to heal, unsure how to hold both at once

* Not feeling safe naming any of this at work, even in cultures that claim to value mental health

* A workplace moment reopening something much older, making ordinary stress feel exponentially heavier

* Hypervigilance that makes even routine, safe situations feel like something is about to go wrong

Do any of these sound familiar to you? They do to me, because I experienced the same things.

He has done what many of us do when we get this diagnosis…we research the heck out of it. We do a deep dive on Google, YouTube, Discussion Forums, Podcasts, and so, so many books.

I did the same thing, because I felt compelled to figure out “what was wrong with me and how to fix it.” Can anyone relate to that? Of course, you can.

The first couple of years on the CPTSD healing journey are the hardest and most vulnerable, because you have all the emotions and very inadequate coping strategies.

If you find yourself on this healing journey, I want you to know that you are not alone. You are really in good company, with over 80% of the workforce experiencing trauma at one point in their life.

Regulation is the Foundation

As someone who has walked this journey myself, and walked alongside countless other survivors, the first order of business is to get your nervous system regulated, because the rest of your healing journey is based on this foundation.

To help with this, I created a FREE tool called “The Workplace Trigger Tracker Toolkit”. It is a template you can use to create awareness of the workplace situations and scenarios where you are triggered, what set it off, and the intensity. Additionally, there is a picklist of coping strategies you can choose from to address the triggers. Almost 2K subscribers have requested this tool to help them in the workplace.

You can get yours for FREE here:

🌱 Become Grounded

Pattern Pivots

Is this fire, or is this toast?

Years ago, I set off my own smoke alarm making toast.

Not burnt toast. Slightly golden, barely-there toast.

The alarm didn’t know the difference. It just knew smoke, and smoke means danger, so it screamed the same way it would if the whole kitchen were on fire.

That’s what a dysregulated nervous system does at work.

You think the alarm is telling you:

* “That email was hostile.”

* “She’s building a case against you.”

* “This meeting is a threat.”

* “You need to defend yourself right now.”

Oftentimes, the alarm isn’t reading the room. It’s reading old smoke from a fire that happened somewhere else, a long time ago.

Let’s imagine you get a slightly terse Slack message and your whole body goes on alert before your eyes even finish reading it. How much of that reaction actually belongs to the message?

Listen, you don’t need to silence the alarm. Silencing it isn’t the goal.

The win is when you can hear it going off and ask, “Is there fire, or is there toast?”

The win is catching the half-second between the alarm and the reaction.

The win is when your body eventually learns the difference between smoke and danger, the same way it learns anything else, through repetition.

That takes more than white-knuckling through the moment. That takes naming it.

Like catching yourself mid-sentence and starting over, the kind of small correction that changes the whole outcome of the conversation.

🎬 Your Grounded Action Step

The next time your body reacts before your mind catches up, ask yourself one question:

Is this fire, or is this toast?

Not “am I overreacting.”Not “what’s wrong with me.”Be specific.

Examples:

* Is this person actually a threat, or does their tone remind me of someone who was?

* Is this deadline actually dangerous, or does urgency itself feel unsafe to me?

* Is this silence from my manager actually a bad sign, or does silence itself put me on alert?

Naming the alarm is what starts to change how loud it rings next time.

That's the first skill, not the last one.

If you're bracing before meetings, holding back what you actually think, or running on empty by noon just from managing what nobody else can see, that's the cost of staying here.

Emotional Regulation in the Workplace walks you through how to build this into a lasting practice, so naming the alarm stops being something you do once and starts being how you move through your day.

👁️ Become Seen

Spotlight Strategy

Stop Translating, Start Telling

For the first few years I coached, I described my work in the most polished way possible.

Trauma-informed methodology. Nervous system regulation. Resilient career advancement frameworks.

It sounded impressive. It also sounded like nobody, including me on a hard day.

You think being seen means:

* “Let me explain my expertise more clearly.”

* “Let me use the right terminology.”

* “Let me sound credible.”

* “Let me have the polished answer ready.”

Oftentimes, the polish is the thing keeping you unseen.

People don’t connect with your credentials.

They connect with the one true sentence underneath them.

Let’s imagine you finally tell someone, plainly, “I don’t feel safe most days at work, and I don’t know why yet.”

No framework. No explanation. Just that.

How much more real would that conversation become?

Listen, you don’t need the perfect language to be seen. You need one honest sentence.

The win is when someone hears you and thinks, “she’s not performing this, she’s actually in it.”

The win is when the polished explanation stops being the thing standing between you and being understood.

That takes more than finding the right words. That takes telling the true one first.

🎬 Your Seen Action Step

Before your next hard conversation, whether it’s with a therapist, a coach, or someone you trust at work, answer this one question:

What is the one true sentence I’ve been avoiding saying out loud?

Not the polished version.Not the explanation.Be specific.

Examples:

* “I don’t trust my own reactions right now.”

* “I’m exhausted from holding it together all day.”

* “I don’t know how to ask for what I need.”

Saying the one true sentence is what turns being unseen into being understood.

Learning how to build the rest of that language, and say it plainly to the people who could help you carry it, is exactly what I walk through inside the paid tier of The Resilient Career Academy.

🚀 Become Limitless

Ceiling Breaker

The Week You Don’t Split Down the Middle

A friend of mine trains for marathons.

Every training plan she’s ever followed has the same rule: some weeks you build, some weeks you rest. Never both in equal measure, every single week, forever.

She told me the runners who get hurt are the ones who try to do a little of both, every day, permanently, afraid that resting even once means falling behind.

That’s the same trap I see with healing and career.

You think becoming limitless means:

* “Balancing healing and work equally, every single day.”

* “Doing a little bit of both, all the time.”

* “Never letting one take more than the other.”

* “Proving you can carry everything at once.”

Oftentimes, that’s the exact plan that keeps people stuck, or hurt.

Let’s imagine you gave one full week to healing, on purpose, and let work be just enough to get by.

Not forever.

Just one week.

What would you actually learn about what you’re carrying?

Listen, you don’t need to hold healing and work in perfect balance every day.

The win is a week where healing gets more of you, on purpose.

The win is a week where work gets more of you, because you have the regulation to give it that, without it costing you everything.

The win is proving you can move between the two instead of forcing both at once, forever.

That takes more than willpower. That takes a plan with a season to it.

🎬 Your Limitless Action Step

Pick one week on your calendar and answer this question honestly:

Does this week need to lean toward healing, or toward work?

Not both equally.Not neither.Be specific.

Examples:

* This week I’m giving therapy and rest the lead, and work just needs to hold steady.

* This week I have the capacity to push at work, and healing can wait its turn.

* This week I need to name that I have neither, and that’s information too.

Letting a week lean is what proves the ceiling was never permanent.

If you’re ready to stop carrying this alone and start talking it through, the first step is a conversation, not a commitment. Book a free discovery call with me.

Reply and tell me: which action step are you going to try this week, naming the alarm, saying the true sentence, or letting a week lean? I read every reply.

P.S. If nothing has felt safe lately, you’re not the only one. Forward this to someone else who needs permission to stop researching and start talking.

"He's been a little fussy lately," the mom said, handing her baby over to me in the church nursery like it was nothing.

I’ve rocked six grandbabies to sleep over the years, so by the time she passed him to me, I was confident I could handle it.

I know the bounce that works, the hold that works, the lullaby that buys me another ten minutes.

And this baby was normally the calm one, the one who’d smile at you from across the room before you even picked him up.

So when she said “a little fussy,” I wasn’t worried. I had this.

Except nothing worked.

Not the bounce, not the hold, not the lullaby that had never once failed me with any of my six grandsons.

This baby, who usually lit up the second you picked him up, would not settle.

And somewhere in there I remember thinking, this isn’t fussy. This is something else, and none of my tricks are touching it.

I think about that Sunday a lot now, when I talk with managers about high-performing employees who’ve suddenly stopped showing up the way they used to.

Because most managers aren’t new at this either.

They’ve handled missed deadlines, skill gaps, off days.

They’ve got a toolkit too.

But nobody trained them for a high performer who’s quietly unraveling, someone who’s usually the calm, capable one, and none of the usual moves are working.

That’s a different kind of unsettling than a straightforward problem employee.

It’s the gap between what you know how to fix and what’s actually in front of you.

That gap is where most managers make the decision that ends up defining everything that comes after.

Standing there, not knowing what’s actually wrong, feels unbearable.

Doing something, even the wrong something, feels safer than doing nothing... and most managers aren’t careless; they’re just caught in that discomfort.

So they reach for the form. The Performance Improvement Plan (PIP).

The tool that’s already sitting on a shared drive somewhere, filled with deadlines and checkboxes, because at least it looks like leadership.

At least it looks like they’re handling it.

But there's a way to close that gap before it turns into a document. It comes down to three moves, and none of them require you to already have the answer.

The Pause, Plan, Pivot Framework

Most performance issues get documented before anyone actually understands them. That's not because managers are bad at their jobs; it's because there's no built-in step for finding out what's really going on before the process kicks in. This framework gives you that step. It doesn't replace formal processes when they're genuinely needed; it just makes sure you're not reaching for one before you know if it's the right tool.

Pause

Before anything gets documented, there’s a question worth asking that most managers skip entirely:

Is this a performance problem, or is this a human problem showing up as performance?

They look identical on paper.

Missed deadlines are missed deadlines.

But a skill gap and a person quietly struggling through something require completely different responses, and you can’t tell them apart from a spreadsheet.

The pause isn’t about waiting indefinitely.

It’s about resisting the pull to document before you understand what you’re actually documenting.

Sometimes what looks like a sudden drop in performance is actually a nervous system working overtime somewhere else, and the work in front of them just couldn’t compete.

Plan

This is where curiosity gets built into the process instead of skipped over it.

A conversation that starts with “I’ve noticed a change, and I want to understand it” lands entirely differently than one that opens with a PIP already drafted.

The plan isn’t the paperwork.

The plan is deciding how you’re going to find out what’s actually going on before you decide what tool the situation calls for.

This is also where safety matters more than most managers realize.

People don’t tell you what’s really happening in a room that feels like it’s building a case against them.

They tell you in a room that feels like it’s trying to understand them.

Pivot

Sometimes the answer really is a formal process, and that’s fine.

But sometimes the pivot is smaller than that.

An adjusted deadline.

A reduced load for a few weeks.

A direct, human question asked once instead of a form filled out by default.

The pivot is choosing the tool that matches the problem, instead of reaching for the one tool you already know how to use.

That baby in the church nursery wasn’t fussy.

He needed something none of my usual tricks were built for, and I only found out what by staying with him instead of running through the same routine faster and louder.

Employees aren’t babies, and managers aren’t grandmothers with a lifetime of bounces and holds.

But the instinct is the same.

The tools that have always worked will keep getting reached for, right up until someone decides to pause long enough to ask if this situation actually calls for something else.

Bringing it together

Pause before you document, so you find out what’s actually happening instead of assuming you already know.

Plan a conversation built on curiosity, not a case built on evidence.

Pivot toward the response the situation calls for, whether that’s a formal process or something much smaller and more human.

None of it requires you to have the answer before you start. It just requires you to be willing to find out.

That baby settled eventually, not because I found the right bounce or the right hold, but because I finally stopped cycling through my usual moves and just held him, quiet, and let him show me what he needed instead of telling him what I thought that was.

That’s the whole shift.

From having the answer to being willing to find out.

From the tool you already know to the one the moment actually calls for.

Want the full toolkit?

Everything in the Pause, Plan, Pivot framework works on its own, but if you want the scripts, the self-assessment, and the trigger response guide that go deeper into trauma-informed management, I put it all together in the Trauma-Informed Management Quick Reference Guide. It’s available to Paid Members of the Resilient Career Academy.

Joining gets you this guide along with the rest of the Premium Content Library, and it helps keep this work sustainable so I can keep writing pieces like this one.

Summary

In this episode, Cyndi Bennett uses a simple but honest metaphor to open the conversation: the moment you realize the house you loved no longer fits. That same tension, loving where you are and knowing you have outgrown it, is exactly what a lot of people are feeling in their careers right now. Cyndi gets personal here too, sharing what hitting the ceiling of her own knowledge with this podcast taught her about effort versus strategy, and walking through the three-step process she used to move forward on purpose rather than out of panic. The Pause, the Plan, and the Pivot. This is also a season finale of sorts, with the podcast going on a planned break until October while Cyndi works with a coach to redesign the show. She is not going anywhere, just building something better.

Key Thoughts

* The moment you stop asking whether to grow and start asking how to grow is the moment the real work begins.

* Effort alone hitting a ceiling is not a sign of failure. It is a sign that a different kind of knowledge is needed, one that effort cannot substitute for.

* A pause is not the same as stopping. It is the space that lets you see clearly before you commit to what comes next. Without it, most of us default to the fastest fix available just to make the discomfort stop.

* Planning requires your executive functioning brain to be online. If you are still in the middle of the storm, trying to plan from that state usually means reaching for the fastest exit rather than the right one.

* The clearer you get about what you are moving away from specifically, the less likely you are to walk into the exact same situation wearing a different name tag.

* You do not need the whole staircase figured out before you are allowed to move. You just need enough clarity to take the next right step.

* A pivot built from a real plan is different from a leap made out of frustration. You know what you are moving away from, what you are moving toward, and what is within your control. When you move, you are not moving blind.

What This Means For You

If you are sitting in that in-between space right now, here are some things worth working through:

* Check whether you are trying to plan from inside the storm. Before you map out next steps, ask yourself honestly whether you are regulated enough to think clearly. If the answer is no, giving yourself more time is not avoidance. It is information, and it is the smarter move.

* Get specific about what you are moving away from. Not just “unhappy” or “stuck.” Is it the role itself, the environment, the ceiling on growth, the mismatch between what you do and what lights you up? Specificity here protects you from repeating the same chapter.

* Get honest about what is actually within your control. You cannot control the job market or how quickly something shows up. You can control how you prepare, who you talk to, what you sharpen, and how intentionally you use the space you are creating.

* Bring in outside eyes if you have been inside the situation too long. When you have been standing in something for a long time, it can be genuinely hard to see the shape of it clearly. Someone outside the situation often can.

* Trust that you do not need the whole picture before you take the next step. The moving itself is often how the rest becomes clear.

Come Journey With Us

If this resonated with you and you would like to go deeper with the exact tools, resources, and community built specifically to support trauma survivors navigating their careers, consider joining us in the Resilient Career Academy. You don’t have to figure this out alone. There is a place where people understand exactly what you are carrying, and where your pace, your healing, and your story are not just welcomed, they are honored.

If you are ready to move from understanding what you are feeling to knowing what to do about it, the rest of this article is waiting for you inside The Resilient Career Academy. I would love to have you there.