Anonymous - Real Stories of Alcoholism, Addiction, and Recovery

006 - Erik’s Story: Feeling Actual Feelings


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Erik unpacks his journey through addiction and the ongoing miracle of his recovery. From navigating a childhood with an alcoholic stepfather and a teetotaler mother, to finding his "arrival" in the numbing embrace of alcohol, Erik talks about the insidious progression of substance use. He shares his dive into drugs like LSD and marijuana, the isolation of his drinking, and the "involuntary spiritual experience" that finally led him to the rooms of recovery. Erik's story is a testament to the power of willingness to let a higher power do the heavy lifting.

Key Topics & Themes Discussed:

  • Family & Early Influences: Erik reflects the complex family dynamics surrounding substance use.
  • The "High Bottom" Experience: Erik provides a candid definition of a "high bottom" addict – someone whose life outwardly appears functional, but whose internal world is consumed by addiction, often leading to deep isolation.
  • The Allure of Escape: He describes the powerful draw of his first drink, the feeling of stress melting away, and the rapid progression from social drinking to daily consumption and drug use, including "robotripping."
  • The Path to Recovery: Erik details his "moment of clarity" at Harvard Square, the promise he made to himself to attend AA by July 4th, and his initial, skeptical entry into a Zoom meeting called "Zombies."
  • The Power of Sponsorship & Steps: The conversation delves into the crucial role of a sponsor, Erik’s personal insights into Step 4 (including his unique method for getting sponsees through it), and how humility redefined his understanding of service.
  • Transformation & New Beginnings: Erik shares the profound shifts in his life, from making amends for past harms to experiencing real emotional relief and finding joy in previously unimaginable achievements, emphasizing the spiritual and neurological changes sobriety brings.

Memorable Quotes:

  • "I discovered that if I could be on LSD and drink and smoke weed, that was just like the perfect combination."
  • "I just didn't have it in me to do that because ultimately I want to live." - On being on the brink of suicide.
  • "I told myself, if you can make it past the Fourth of July, you'll go to AA. You'll give AA an honest shot."
  • "It just started to become easier." - On walking past the liquor aisle without obsession.
  • "I knew the promises were true. I just, I just didn't think it was possible. I didn't think it was for me."
  • "Remember this feeling. Not the pink cloud, but when I first noticed that, 'Wow, I actually feel something and it feels good.'" - Erik's advice for retaining positive feelings in early sobriety.

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