“All those thoughts were going through my head like you’re worthless, you’re a loser, you’re a failure, you can’t be happy, you can’t feel love…just this feeling of profound failure.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Sara Marinelli, Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A woman sinks into a psychological black hole following what was supposed to be the greatest moment of her life.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

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