The narcissist will never change some of my story because I know it's yours too . Your loneliness is real ! Sharing a little of my own experience here .. I found it hard to accept that I could be in such a relationship, can you relate ? The most important thing you can do is find support so that you can exit the situation because you can never have the life you want 🩵living in a situation as I am sharing is isolating . Take charge of your life my lovelies.. You need to think big picture and ask what will my life look like in 1 year, 5 years etc if I do nothing .,