i have learned so much this week about the writers strike going on and how little these writers are asking for and how there’s big people in rooms are giving them nothing and i heard this clip of barbie ferreira on the armchair expert the podcast with dax shepherd and suddenly it all connected in my head

barbie said in her interview i don’t think there was a place for her (kat) to go and i disagree wholeheartedly i have never seen myself relate to a character on tv as much as kat i think honestly and i don’t know how far i want to say we relate but just know it’s a lot

to my knowledge sam isn’t fond of the typical writers room and hearing barbie say this makes me feel like that has to be true there were so many places for her character to go and i understand that watchers and fans don’t know what’s going on behind the scenes or everything in hollywood

but to see plus size representation and a character many people relate to be downsized isn’t an easy feeling to get over many people who related to kats storyline in season one already felt like the side character she was in season two already felt like they weren’t worthy of a relationship to a guy who wasn’t treating them like shit or hyper sexual for euphoria a show with such a large audience fumble that by leaning into it instead of changing the story is such a shame

i understand that sam is rue and how important her story is and i agree but i think every great show and story makes sense and those things that you really wonder about are all wrapped up sometimes there is power in properly tying up loose ends instead of letting them be up to interpretation

i really loved the cold open backstories in season 1 and i understand in season two it transitioned to mainly the adults in the kids lives backstories but maybe by introducing their stories and leaving behind stories of people like kat and mckay everyone just kind of felt like they were disposable and i think the view of that them disposing the development of the fat and black characters felt like society in a nutshell

kat could’ve realized why she shouldn’t be online doing sex work underage, we could’ve found out who was behind the screen, she could’ve come clean to her friends and family, she could’ve got over it alone in her one way, she could’ve learned why she yearned for masculine men and understood her opinions on ethan, they could’ve had a beautiful love story or a toxic one. kat could’ve become a great author her fan fiction and smut era could’ve propelled her to be like anna todd she could be a spokesperson to prevent things like child promiscuity she could become a therapist for eating disorders she could be a plus sized influencer she could start a clothing line she could’ve struggled in school she could’ve graduated at the top of her class there is always a story that’s possible and entertaining if there are people to write it

there are many writers today on that picket line who are kat who know what kat would say how kat would act and they are asking to be compensated fairly they are asking to be able to live in the cities where they write and to be able to pay for the outfits they need to attend awards and live comfortably in general or world is scary and every day it gets harder in a field like entertainment where all they do is bring light to our harsh realities they should be able to comfortably live we all do

i think about all of the shows with spin offs and how no story has to ever be complete to kill her off which i know that was hypothesized in spoilers during season two would be a great disservice to a story that could help a lot of people take back their narrative thanks for listening and everyone look into the current writers strike the amount of information is insane and sad

PAY WRITERS! they deserve it fully. Thanks again :)

I went to my first music festival in my home state!!! I feel like i have said this a few times on here but i love music i grew up in virginia and i have wanted to go to SITW each year it has happened desperately and i got to go this year and it was so much fun!

I thought that it would be fun to manifest somethings id like to see and change as i was making dinner tonight i started to think of pharrell and all the artists he has helped and produced for and made music with and how vastly different all of their sounds are and one i would like to see literally as many of those people at something in the water as possible but also i would love for him to do an album with artists from virginia or even the dmv and have them at something in the water

i recently like today started to really listen to nerd and finally the merch that said all the girls waiting for the bathroom made sense and i was just thinking about how much merch could be made off of an album based on artists in va i think of the hamilton mixtape where tons of artists took the songs from the musical and remade them and how awesome it was and how i think it did great for the musical and the artists included in the mixtape a SITW mixtape could be awesome

i love the graphics for sitw the font is awesome and i feel like the graphic designers nail it in so many ways i think a tiktok trend similar to the adult swim could be cool to have and allow people to make the coolest videos being creative with the music and just being at the beach back to the design i think it would be cool if he could work with the amazing virginia universities graphic design programs to make merch specific to their school or just things at something in the water and give the proceeds to the education system in virginia i love so much that Pharrell talked about va education during his set and i can tell how happy is to bring music and things to Virginia i think a SITW youtube channel taking people like those performing to famous places in Virginia for the first time would make more people from out of state want to also come and bring tourism to va seeing kehlani surf on virginia beach for the first time would be awesome seeing lil yachty eating at the best wing spot in the 757 seeing lil wayne get his locs retwisted at a local hair salon i think that would be really cool to see so many of the artists said it was there first time in va or they haven’t been in a long time lets put it on the map latto could’ve gone to the crumbl on colonial and done a cookie review i know i wouldve ate all that shit up lil uzi vert going shoe shopping here like it could’ve been AWESOME to make it like a true production

obviously pharrell is a fashion icon i recently saw a tweet of a photographer outside of rico nasty concert taking pics of awesome outfits and when i tell you i saw the sickest cutest outfits all weekend i was in awe it was awesome i think there could be a campaign called like spread the drip at sitw or some shit where people are encouraged to take photos of awesome outfits they see at sitw it reminds me of that tiktok trend where people would go up to them and be like can i do a photoshoot of you or do an ad for your company the videos and pictures on the beach would be sick and maybe the photo with the most engagement pharrell could link up with them and do a line or an item with them and louis vuitton

same thing could be done with music

these are just some things that come to my head but i literally LOVED SITW it was awesome it was my first festival and i thoroughly enjoyed every moment of it thank you pharrell i know i mentioned him a lot because he is definitely the face but i know this was something that a lot of people put together and i am so happy they did and they did an amazing job.

thanks for listening and if you are in the area or like to travel and love good music go to SITW next year. Hopefully I will be there too :)

if you can’t tell i’m REALLY into astrology. it’s been nice to feel like there is a reason for why things happen the way that they do and to have an idea of how i should react to receive the best situation and circumstances

when i learned what a profection year and more specifically a 12th house profection year is i got so scared and nervous but leaving it i understand why it’s there and i’m so happy for what i learned during mine

i started my twelfth house profection year in blacksburg my college town where i stayed an extra year to work full time in my job for the first time

i was gearing up to move to where i live now in a few months and all i wanted to do was wait coast but everyone around me was hectic chaotic and i wasn’t listening to my intuition or my gut

i was isolated no friends i spent a lot of time indoors watching tv and stuff i felt like i was watching life pass me by through others and through my phone but i felt so weak so unable to move and finally start mine

i moved amd it was awful roaches everywhere weird neughbors one stole my couch the prior tenant waited until i came to move in to tell me how awful it was i didn’t even find my apartment my mom had found it for me because she thought i was taking too long to make a decision i didn’t listen to my gut

i cried like a baby the day before i moved in i had had second thoughts i thought maybe this wasn’t right something felt off and it was i eventually found a new apartment and it all worked out but let me tell you this i was driving in the surrounding towns of the office i work at and the city i lived in perfectly and i drove down this street and i felt envious i felt excited i felt comfortable i thought this would be where i should live and i ended up moving there it ended up working out

i settled in but didn’t settle into my job constant struggle i felt like an alien in my body and that everyone saw me as such i never fit in at all but i pushed through

i reconnected with an old friend and opened up to her about my mental state at the time i listened to my gut and took some time away from my family isolating to grow and learn honoring my 12h profection year i started my dread locs something my gut has been telling me to do for years but i felt like everyone around me was saying no

i got back into youtube and vlogging an old passion i used to love and here i am now at a standstill in my career where i’m at the point where i don’t know if i want to be that alien anymore where i can taste something big next but not know what move to make but looking back at the year i know if i listen to my gut it’ll all work out

and i spent my birthday at SITW all day relaxed by the ocean listening to amazing music sets. Mercury was still in retrograde i didn’t get home until 3 got rained and thunder and lightening on in a 2 hour line wearing sandals and a tank top but looking back it was worth it. listening to your gut honoring astrology was worth it. i did a lot alone this year i went to the movies alone for the first time i went to a concert alone for the first time went on many walks, shopping trips, and things alone and it was nice to know i can do it and that i can spend time by myself and be okay. but i really missed people. connecting with my old friend really saved me this year and i hope to make new connections during my first house year.

there’s so many things in this life i want to experience that i haven’t yet and i hope this first house perfection year opens my eyes to the future i hope i taste that success fall in love a couple times and laugh until i’m crying on the floor. thank you so much for listening and i recommend everyone to look to astrology it’s helped me so much and honestly got me so fucking excited for my first house profection year

nirvana once said no one likes you when you are 23 and i think that’s a great way to describe a 12h profection year:) thanks again for listening !!! look into human design too :)

I saw the clip of Trisha Paytas and Meghan Trainor talking about why they are going to choose to homeschool their kids and I was just like do people just forget to talk specifically when they are on podcasts? I know on here i have said some crazy shit and same with my podcast with my friend but also making such a broad statement like fuck teachers is just something i think i would do at 15 not as a grown woman

To me the issue is like confront the system not the people exploited i know megan trainer and trisha are constantly on social media like tiktok and tiktok and knowing teachers in real life has really opened my eyes up to the issues in the system

Teachers have to deal with a lot of shit everyone knows that and they are put in the most vulnerable situation daily because of our countries fucked up obsessions with guns to demonize them instead of the people who they answer to is a choice

To say fuck you to teachers who work day in and day out making pennies in comparison to these two ladies sitting here by the way who HAVE to take their work home and educate the youth in a world obsessed with social media is fucked up i would like to say……

I have learned that its hard to judge someone when you havent walked a day in their shoes i would like to see these two women teach classes for a day i doubt they would make it

There are many issues with public and private school systems but to attack teachers who have little to no say in their job is a choice

To not point out how we can help teachers and make schools safer for kids and teachers when you are sitting on platforms of millions of supporters is a choice

To not recognize that within those millions of followers a majority of them could be teachers who have worked their asses off faced emotional and physical pain is a choice

To not clarify your opinion on schools instead of making a broad claim is definitely a choice

And i recommend these ladies to think of the choices they make before getting online to talk to their audiences

To all the teachers out there i support you. A few months ago a teacher in a neighborhood close to me was shot by her student. Shot. And I would like to thank her and wish her the best for showing up as a teacher everyday and doing her job to the best of her ability.

Lets uplift people and focus on making the system better instead of saying fuck you about things and moving on to the next segment. I understand wanting to homeschool your kids but a lot of americans have no choice they have to fucking work. Not to be a woke queen but seriously, recognize your privilege.

Thanks for listening.

About a year ago I wrote about the perfect movie or book ideas and my mind automatically went to the trope of being stuck somewhere with someone so you really get to know someone and ask themselves question

I think it kind of is trauma bonding but I think its also just giving yourself time to strengthen a relationship

Covid allowed us to slow down and spend time with those we quarantined with and really see who we are and what we want in our lives

I feel like capitalist culture is work work work and relationships easily fall on the back burner its real its life sometimes its necessary because your relationships aren’t great sometimes it sucks because you miss being with the people in your life i think about the idea that people miss college so much because you constantly lived in walking distance to your closest friends and you were able to pretty much hang out whenever you also were in a walkable city most likely just a different world

I get it. I miss it. I spent the majority of covid walking outside and oh what i would do to go back to have that time i dont know what life is like in every country but costa rica in particular i have heard has this awesome community oriented culture that i feel like i only got to experience in a small quantity of people during covid

I loved this documentary it was just so raw and like a real love story you know like nothing is perfect your partner isn’t going to always not be cringe and have things and qualities that you may have not looked for you are going to have ups and downs and second guess your decisions and sometimes want to leave everyone wanted to leave quarantine

but being able to really get to know someone while traveling in a foreign culture for months is something many people will never get to experience but something i would love to

and documenting it no matter how cringey it looks to be able to in a way watch yourself fall in love a real life rom com love story of you and your partner is priceless

If anyone is listening and hasn’t seen it i recommend you to go watch it on netflix! Thanks for listening :)

I’ve seen the take that all plastic surgery is gender confirming surgery and I guess I kind of agree but I have been obsessed with facial feminization surgery recently.

I have always loved watching people recover and get plastic surgery in like vlog formats because it is always so interesting to me but for a while I have looked at a lot of facial feminization and nose jobs healing and stuff and I cant help but yearn for it as a cis women

I look in the mirror and just want to play surgeon its this game i have played for years its very scary and toxic and i think instead of having a culture that pushes loving your natural body and features, our American capitalist culture chants is you want to change something do it and praises altered bodies and faces

Its very scary how easy it is to fall into trends. I always say the hardest thing I can do is live in an untouched body.

I think the worst part about it is with transparency also comes opaqueness so many people are so open but so many people are so quiet to the point where you are comparing your body and face to someone you know who has had work done to someone you think was born that way baby

I think its hard to conceptualize that we do treat bodies and surgery like trends and how scary of a game that is like getting surgery is very scary and we haven’t progressed as far as a society in that field as i think a lot of us believe

i think with astrology you can see this weird line which i think is very age of Aquarius saturn in pisces where people are realizing how toxic and potentially dangerous surgically following trends can be

I want to love my body i want to love my face but i think the real kicker is i want other people to love my body and love my face and i know that they don’t because they get surgery to change it or they recommend me to get surgery too

its like every stride we made with body positivity and trying to reverse diet culture has shifted into get surgery so you can love your body or so you can be healthy

i think of the the uptick in plus size vloggers getting. body modifications and losing support i think the big thing is celebrity culture and the idea of everyone trying to make themselves stand out by going against what everyone they deem is normal or less than is doing and i think this is where people like the kardshians come in and why i think they need to be transparent

if you saw the clip of delores from RHONJ talking about being on ozempic and not wanting to be the fattest person there people in the comments were praising her and were like at least she’s honest but i do wonder if everyone was honest would everyone admit that chasing this beauty standard is making them miserable

i am fat and it makes me miserable so i know its hard for skinny people

i just don’t really get it why should we feel the need to change ourselves to be accepted, to be loved , to live?

i have been on my little loc journey and i have been miserable i am the most natural i have been since i was a pre-teen and i feel less like myself than ever its scary and i challenge more people to see who they are without everything we add on and maybe if more people embraced that we would all feel happier and more confident

i love makeup i love hair extensions i love nice clothes but i think our society has taken vanity to the extreme and normal people who have normal bodies and normal faces are made to feel like something is wrong with them and they are not

just been on my mind recently thx for listening :)

i feel like coachella has lost some of its steam and i want to throw some ideas out there of how it can be spiced up im think a challenge maybe like a tiktok challenge that puts a coachella dress code and theme i think creativity thrives with parameters i feel like coachella outfits have lost their spark and the plot and i think it would rope it in! i think normal people could do it too!!! i also feel like they should poll for lineups the line up this year was not great and seeing how slowly strides have been made for people of color and foreign acts to be allowed to headline coachella is so not taking into consideration of what people actually want to see i like how they split the stages up into like popularity and genre and i think people should poll for who they want to see at coachella as a normal person who isn’t an influencer a good line up is what would make me actually want to go bring back cool stages like wtf get some set designers that incorporate the feeling of being in the desert the artists sound and newer work and make it more of a production the stage design of the sets i watched on youtube this year have been fucking awful i remember brockhampton a set last year cardi b’s a few years ago doja cats and ari and billie last year i think that is what captivated me like the feeling and it makes me want to experience it more!!! as much as i don’t love the idea of hearing music i don’t know at the concerts i think artists with large fanbases would spread the videos of the performances like wildfire allowing for more buzz and people to see what’s going on on that same note unreleased music like songs that people know that never came out and maybe don’t plan on coming out if kanye brought out new body for nicki people would go fucking crazy i remember people loved TWERKULATOR by city girls before it came out but when everyone heard the full version it was not it people would go wild like frank oceans mixtape that people love but isn’t released anywhere if songs about women came on i would lose my shit!!!

creating things that are more unique to coachella that could become staples that people want to go back and see and remember and creating positive memories and associations with it i think of this like chalkboard wall in the downtown mall of where i’m from and how people love it and take pictures of it and go back to it the next time to see what they wrote and if it’s still there and things like the locks on barbed wire fences and stuff i think hiring top podcasters like alex cooper and joe rogan and dax shepard and drag queens and influencers to sit down and talk with the artists and recount their experience at coachella could help too just creating more BUZZ!

i feel like ease helps to like making things seem like they are already done for you like coachella making branded camping kits coukd help or having famous van life and car livers that sounds funny but people who live in their cars make branded sponsored content by coachella about how they would camp for it following the something in the water method coachella is fucking expensive im not sure how the tickets work but what i do like about something in the water is how pharrell offered residents a cheaper price and first serve to tickets the people who live closest are most likely to go and deserve that priority honestly and giving them an incentive to get a ticket early would be good i loved the coachella content on tiktok like it was interesting i was super sad that franks set wasn’t live-streamed that should be required for publicity and stuff like that’s been my ritual for a few years to watch from home and i’ve thouroughly enjoyed it one reason why i hope one day i can go to coachella again thanks for listening!!!

i waited almost an hour for the reunion and i know the questions are going to suck so here’s what i would ask!! my questions are mostly based on the pods i barely watched the last few episodes because it always starts to lose steam for me!

irina you had a business prior to going on the show did you ever think about how you are going to be filmed 24/7 and how that could potentially impact the success fullness of your business outside of the show?

irina did you feel threatened by bliss? if not clarify the intention behind your actions towards her

micah what made you realize you were more serious about paul instead of kwame? what made you want to say the failed engagement comment is there something we didn’t see on the show?

micah you seemed really giddy about having similarities to paul’s mother do you know about freud’s theory? why did that seem like a green flag to you?

micah did you take the show and wedding seriously? you seemed very disheveled and rushed on that day take us through that day!

paul: what made you choose micah over the other suitor you were so sad to break up with her and you saw how easy it was for micah with kwame was that a red flag for you?

paul: if you felt that micah wasn’t genuine and motherly how could you still tell her you love her and see a future with her if you couldn’t see her being the mother of your children? expand on that and revealing that to the audience at your failed wedding

bliss: did zach’s feelings towards irina turn you off from him a bit? you and irina are very different how did it feel knowing you and her had the strongest bond to him?

bliss: do you think you were prepared for the conversation with your dad? what did you tell him about the show before going on it?

chelsea: what does marriage mean to you? when does an issue or a disagreement become more than something you can tackle in a relationship? is every obstacle fixable?

chelsea: you talked about not being able to eat dinner alone was that an exaggeration? have you gone to therapy and talked through that? do you think that a mindset like that would lead you into bad relationships solely to not be alone?

kwame: when you thought about changing your name to alex in the pods what were you thinking would happen if someone who wouldn’t have picked kwame picked alex? would they resent you? would the hurt you? or would they leave you at the sight or the sound of your name? talk your way through that please.

kwame: why do love is blind seattle if you don’t want to live in seattle?

marshall: what made you overlook jackie as a project? you knew she was hurt but still pursued her why?

marshall: were there any other people in the pod you wish you would’ve gone for?

jackie: you were so open and honest in the first few episodes why did you start to lose that as the season progressed?

jackie: do you think you were ready for marriage? why did you come on the show if you knew you were still looking for toxic love?

tiffany and brett why do you think your relationship was so strong in and out of the pods? what’s your advice for people auditioning for love is blinds and how to navigate the pods ? okay i am going to talk about love is blind season four but i’m going to manifest too i need to see some country towns and midwest towns and less influencer tendency cities and more rural people i think it would be more of the drama the producers like but also more people genuine with getting in relationships and getting married

give me charlottesville where im from

blacksburg

richmond

charleston

charlotte

Tuscaloosa

wisconsin

montana

like let’s see that shit

Runway 1: Who is she? my drag name would be lil debbie or hailey’s comet or something like that im not 100% sure

i’m thinking like tree designed dress i love being outside like i’m think branches creating this like v shaped bra and like denser twigs and leaves going all the way down i think i would wear brown body wave wig in a messy up do and huge crystal earrings with a gold outline around them my shoes would be probably white heels in thinking a white silhouette underneath the sticks and leaves and stuff

runway 2: metallica okay the band metallica their logo im looking at it and i have an idea im looking at the letter a in the logo and i would do an all metal outside in the shape of the a

there would be an asymmetrical hat showing that diagonal on top and then there would be cuts slots and openings going down the dress it would be fairly short

the earrings would be kind of like the shape of a man’s tie sitting on a button up shirt and just metal ugh it’d be so simple and fun and then i think i would do knee high metal look silver boots i think that would be so fierce

runway 3: beautiful nightmare

i think i would be like myself possessed kind of in thinking a long as black gown and red bottoms and diamond earrings but the dress has like twisted elements like im thinking a snake wrapping around the busy down to the floor and going around my neck that’s like my biggest fear and maybe like venom dripping down the sides of my eyes red contacts and my hair would be in an audrey hepburn bun with the snake head going through my bun like it’s all together omg this is so freaking fun

runway theme: drag race fashion week

when i think fashion week i think street style i would do boxer braids baggy tee shirt cargo pants and a heel and i would have like a fun bag like a telfar the make up would be fierce and the shoe would be like an elevated sneaker into heel it would be very neutral tones but the glam would be awesome

runway theme tie dye to dye for

tie dye wig long af and then a floor length white dress with pieces of tie dyed fabric mimicking the process of rubber bands when you tie dye like in an x formation going down hair would be half up half down too bun shoes would be white heels but the heel would be color blocked combining the rubber band method with the tie dye on dress and wig this one i don’t know about

puffa please runway

i’m thinking gown puffer jacket where the puffs mimmick a puffer fish hair in bantu knots to complete the vision im thinking like a chartreuse pufferfish yellow maybe honey blonde wig

bubble realness makeup maybe bloated looking kinda

walk the crystal ball

i would literally do a genie in a bottle!! i think that would be so fucking fun like a turban idk

night of 1,000 beyoncé’s

i would do love on top music video DUH

rip her to shreds: fish nets look i think like playing on the idea of fish nets but doing like opening and closing could actually be really cool like a meshy type dress i think something black.. i feel like i’m falling into patterns with these ideas

everybody say glove : hand dress like the hand is in a glove and the dress is that kind of like a sculpture esque dress i think it could be really interesting and like that create the bust and then the dress has like a long train that is also a hand i don’t know how that would work exactly

drag excellence : pink gown pageant esque

i kind of think of mistress and how she did her marilyn monroe inspired look for rip her to shreds but very barbie esque and pageanty big diamond earrings hot pink drag rant going to concerts alone orville peck concert!!!

I have sat back for a while and just watched the Dad Challenge Podcast and not been too upset with his videos but this one really pissed me off. I feel like his channel set out to do one thing and switched to just being outrageous. I feel like he has lost the plot on critiquing parents exploiting their children and moved on to attacking their kids like its okay and fair game because the parents exploit the children so much its gross

The way he described April and Davey eldest son Zade and the things he insinuated he would or could do was fucking disgusting he is a minor he is a child and he doesn’t deserve slander because his parents put out his information his whole life

Josh moves off of tips from Reddit and online that could EASILY be false I am not saying they are but to come online to an audience of over 100,000 people accusing a child of doing something you most likely do NOT have the fully story to is gross.

I think its reached a point where its just gross. The things he said about the child i dont even want to repeat because they are false. And someone with a background in religion and dealing with religious trauma and being a pastor I would NEVER want my kids to go to him because to assume that one action that a child makes determines who they are and who they will forever be is gross and do judge them and start calling them names off of something you don’t know for certain is really sick.

People love to hate and critique and seem like they are above someone but at the end of the day the skeletons they have aren’t peachy either.

The way he talked reminded me of how Judd Apatow reacted to Will Smith slapping Chris Rock just like outlandish and jumping to conclusions. I think there comes a point where people feel like untouchable when they report on other peoples wrongdoings, i saw a tweet of his talking about lizzo and acting like lizzo is dying because she’s fat even though josh himself got weightloss surgery and isn’t small. Like Im sick of the public but men especially commenting on Lizzo’s size and insinuating that she is killing herself when she is touring and exercising and eating a pretty clean vegan diet like women’s bodies and health dont need your commentary. I then saw another DISGUSTING community post from him that i believe is deleted when i saw it i was sick to my stomach talking about the trans shooter in Nashville and pretty much saying that since that awful tragedy happened it was now fair game for him to go in on trans people and in his post he in my opinion acted like their was a connection just gross

No one is god here no one is perfect and i think a lot of people need to focus more on themselves and improving themselves instead of tearing down other people he can accomplish his mission without attacking children i feel like the whole video just left a bad taste in my mouth and to me ruined a reputation of a child who could be healing or going through something really hard.

I dont like josh at all i think she’s very abrasive and rude and a misogynist and today from the video ive seen it seems like he has a god complex. no adult should be online attacking children or minors or 18 year olds. IT’S WEIRD. Thanks for listening!!!!