I truly loved reading this experince! In the early 1990s, Pam experienced a near-death episode due to apnea. During a state between sleep and waking, she sensed her throat closing and struggled to breathe. Just as she was nearing a state of panic, the need for air vanished, and she felt her consciousness free, floating in an expanse like deep space. She reflected on her life, realizing that her identity as "Pam" was merely a role, like a game piece. This revelation filled her with joy, as she recognized her true self as the timeless "I Am," beyond ego and earthly concerns.
Turning her awareness outward, Pam perceived an immensely bright, loving Light—God—radiating a profound, unconditional love and joy at her return. In this ecstatic moment, she felt enveloped by the universe’s love and welcomed home. Just then, she thought of her family and felt an overwhelming need to share this experience. Instantly, she found herself back in her body, overcome by an intense, whole-body feeling of love and bliss.
This experience transformed Pam’s perspective on life and spirituality. She now perceives herself as a part of the divine Whole, with God's presence accessible within every moment. She describes life as a gift, a means to return to God, who is not distant but always present. This realization of boundless love and unity redefines her understanding of heaven as a state within, accessible when we embrace God's love and let go of ego-based limitations.