One lamp lights a whole room.

One sun warms up the whole world.

One moon illuminates all the cities at night.

What is suppose to be complete darkness isn’t left without a light that he left on.

One line drawn in the sand and no further than that can the Ocean go.

One you can change people’s 🌎

One action is all it takes. ↓

I have always been the black sheep. Little did I know I was that one sheep that he would use 💕

💛All he needed was for one to say yes. This one.. all the things he can do with one is more than enough.

Begin again.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://bossbabeliving.home.blog/2021/01/24/all-it-takes-is-one/

My life slowed down when Covid first happened but I was still feeling like I never had enough time in a day. I had a 9-5 and it just seemed that my weekends and my time after work were spent doing things that needed to be done but weren’t exactly getting me anywhere.

Before COVID, I was always on the go. I had multiple bags in my car. A gym bag. A work bag. A beach bag. A just in case bag. (I strongly believe in mental health days.)

Then I didn’t have a 9-5 and the gyms shut down. Now I had the time I needed right? Nope. ‘What I would accomplish if only I had the time’ wasn’t happening.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://bossbabeliving.home.blog/2021/01/24/i-believe-in-my-ability-to-figure-things-out-1/

I didn’t and still don’t love every song but it was in my nature to notice the things I loved. I always found the most pleasure in the smallest of details. I have always found the things that God made to be the most beautiful things.

God put so much detail in so many things and a lot of the time unless you slow down you miss it. One of my favorite country songs is ‘I saw God today’ by George Strait. He talks about how God’s fingerprints are everywhere but we don’t look. My pastor covered this one time too. He said that God created beautiful things for us to capture our hearts. The proof is in the details.

Watching the sunrise, the ocean and its immensity, the sound of waves and the way I love to feel the sun on me. I really do feel sun-kissedbecause of how warm and fuzzy it feels to lay out in the sun. Summer is my favorite season.

Although I am able to tell you about these things now, I spent some time forgetting that all these things existed. My focus was not on the things that made me happy. My focus was on my insecurities and my fears.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://bossbabeliving.home.blog/2021/01/20/its-a-new-dawn-pt-2/

Growing pains. Experiencing heartbreak with lovers and friendships – let downs, disappointments, and trials didn’t make it easy for me to hold on to joy. Eventually my feelings caught up with me. My emotions began to run the way I showed up at work, with friends, family and in life. What I was trying to suppress on the inside was showing on the outside. At work sometimes I didn’t show up because I had been drinking the night before and I just couldn’t make it to work the next day, not with the way I was feeling. It was a “just can’t, today” kind of day. Those kind of days were starting to be less rare. I started missing birthdays and other things that were important to my friends and family. A flake. I was becoming a flake.

I started living my day to day in survival mode. I had two moods – If I could just get through today or drinks tonight?! How could I show up for anyone else if I could barely show up for myself? The only way I showed up for myself was in the most selfish ways. To feel better, for a little bit at least.

The things that use to bring me joy, didn’t anymore. Joy – the happiness that came when I truly felt content and at peace. I didn’t feel peaceful enough to be still anymore. Describing me before the heartbreak would sound like this; she loves to go for late night runs and back home to shower, get ready for a show or a movie and bakes brownies because that is her perfect balance. Other nights she likes to read or scrapbook (they call her young grandma at work). She has a cleaning playlist and early morning playlist because early mornings are her favorite. She loves her dogs and dogs that are not her dogs, so all dogs. She loves candles andcountry music. People ask her, “what don’t you love” because every song that plays she loves and every movie they watch, she loves!

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://bossbabeliving.home.blog/2021/01/20/dont-let-emotions-take-you-away-from-all-you-love-l-pt-1/

ON FEAR

On the other side of fear is your freedom.

The louder your fear gets, the busier you should get with creating, doing, and working on yourself.

It takes work. It takes time. It takes failing and not getting it done right the first time or the first couple of times. It will be lessons in learning to let go of old ways and old thinking patterns.

Eventually, you learn what old patterns and bad habits bring you and you'll choose better.

Sometimes you know better and don't do better until one day you do. Just keep trying to become it and eventually you will.

The intention set eventually becomes the action done.

Working out consistently is one of those things you say you'll do before you actually do. It takes time and when you finally stick with it there really is no going back -once you’ve been exposed and accustomed to better.

Feeling and looking better makes the work worth it. Once you know what that feels like you don't just stop. So expose yourself to better so that feeling alone will keep you from falling back.

You might have fallouts but it's never the same if you get what I mean.

Skipping months of workouts are a thing of the past.

We get used to the better we expose ourselves to.

If you want better, expose yourself to better and watch yourself keep going up a few levels.

Winning!

You'll be too busy doing stuff to ever think of what you're not doing.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://bossbabeliving.home.blog/2021/01/19/432/

TIME and FEAR have a way of keeping us from getting and doing what we want.

Avoiding offers comfort only for so long.

When fear is keeping you from making a life-changing decision it can seem like it's the path of least resistance but it's the opposite.

When you don't choose, you still choose and you're choosing to be in a limbo state (stuck in limbo; is to be unable to move from one position to another) and limbo state is torture.

It's not knowing if the light is green or red.

You make yourself sit at a broken light.

The only thing worst than spending so much of your time questioning your ability to make something happen is to later be too "behind" to even try.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://bossbabeliving.home.blog/2021/01/19/limbo-state-is-torture-1%f0%9f%9a%a6/

Life happens and there will always be something stealing our time.

I use to always say that if I didn’t have to work a day job then I would have time to do the things I wanted when it came to organizing and business. Fast forward to me not having a day job and I came to learn the hard way that it wasn’t how much time I had but how I badly I managed time.

Tell your time what to do

Do what you need to do to get the pressure off of you so you could get what needs to be done, done. Or else the excuses will be made (you know the ones that make us feel better about ourselves) and they’ll pile up. Once that’s over. Get to work.

The feeling will pass, the time will too. Don’t lose something permanent (action on that time that you will never get back) over something temporary (emotions).

You’ll be amazed at how much better you feel after you give yourself permission to let it all out.

Starting to win.

You managed your time, it didn’t manage you. and if you chose to cry for 5 minutes (like I do) … You get back to work refreshed.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://bossbabeliving.home.blog/2021/01/19/429/

“If the person you love makes you question over and over if you are enough, only thing is certain — they aren’t” (Beau,Taplin).

Things have never ended well with ANY guy where I felt confused over their feelings for me. Their mouths would say one thing but their actions would say another. The ending of those relationships would prove true of what I knew all along.

When it comes to dating I have learned not to trust a walking contradiction. To only trust people whose mouths and actions speak the same language. No point to keep on hearing it and not seeing it.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://bossbabeliving.home.blog/2021/01/18/not-worth-the-effort-2/

He tells you things to make you feel loved and more secure but it doesn’t. While your ears heard what they wanted to hear, your gut wasn’t convinced. It doesn’t make you feel what you were hoping to feel and while you know why, you don’t really know how to communicate it.

They can tell you you’re wrong in feeling a certain way and they can get real logical about it so anything you say that goes against their perception of reality isn’t going to get very far in the conversation. Recognizing that someone isn’t going to change what they’re too busy denying will help. First it hits your mind and eventually your heart will follow.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://bossbabeliving.home.blog/2021/01/18/not-worth-the-effort-1/

Wasted.

I didn’t want to have wasted my life being wasted.

Wasted time. Wasted life. Wasted potential.

I started cleaning up my life not because of a choice to follow through on it but because the pain and the emotions I felt when it came to my ex were already strong enough on their own and when I drank they became something I couldn’t handle.

Drunk me could not handle the heaviness of the pieces I was left with to pick back up.

I would drink enough in hopes of leaving his memory at the bar. I would end up losing everything but the memories. I went from wanting to can’t live without it.

But who I am now doesn’t need the drink or the man.

I wrote this ↓ letter to God because my emotions finally got the best of me or you could say worst. The messiest moments of my life came from the times I had a little too much to drink.

December 5th, 2017

Dear God, I’m sorry for not listening and for falling again. I know you love me and you want to protect me and I know you won’t force me to do anything I don’t want to do. I hope God that you could help me not keep falling for this temptation that is getting me in these situations. I don’t want to want to drink anymore and I don’t want to want all the bad things that I do anymore.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://bossbabeliving.home.blog/2021/01/16/you-are-you-going-to-have-to-put-the-drink-down/