What happens when you stop hiding from the people who thought they knew you? What happens when you lay bare your deepest mistakes, your darkest moments, and your rawest pain for everyone to see? This episode isn’t just a story—it’s a reckoning. A moment where I finally let the world see the real me, scars and all. And maybe, just maybe, you’ll find a piece of your own story in mine. Because this journey? It’s far from over. And neither is yours.

Have you ever wished you could go back in time and speak to your younger self? What would you say? Would you offer comfort? Guidance? Maybe even a little tough love? In today’s episode, I’m taking you on a journey—one that’s deeply personal, raw, and vulnerable. I wrote a letter to the child version of me, the kid who felt lost, scared, and unsure of the future. But here’s the thing: this letter isn’t just for me. It’s for anyone who’s ever felt stuck, broken, or like the world was too heavy to carry. This is for the part of you that still believes in magic, still hopes for better days, and is ready to fight through the mud to find the light on the other side.

Stay with me, because what I’m about to share could be exactly what you—or someone you love—needs to hear today

What happens when love becomes tangled in lies and self-destruction?

In this raw and unflinching episode, I take you through one of the darkest chapters of my life—a time where love, betrayal, and chaos collided. This is the story of how I lost myself in the wreckage of my relationships, and how I eventually found the strength to rise from the ashes. It’s about owning the mistakes, confronting the demons, and realizing that even in the muddiest moments of life, redemption is still possible.

If you've ever felt broken or trapped in the aftermath of your own choices, this episode is for you. Together, we'll explore the lessons learned through love, loss, and the long road to self-discovery. This is the real, unfiltered truth of my journey.

It’s messy. It’s painful. But it’s proof that no matter how far you fall, you can still find your way back.

Ever had a therapy session while secretly sipping from a coffee mug filled with something stronger than coffee? I have. In this raw and revealing episode, I share my story of hitting rock bottom—getting drunk before therapy sessions, hiding my struggles in plain sight, and fooling myself into thinking I had it all under control. But that’s not where the story ends. I also dive into how I found a surprising source of strength in the one place I never expected—prayer.

Join me as I reflect on the absurdity of my past, the challenges I still face, and how I’m learning to deal with life’s toughest moments without losing myself. Whether you're fighting your own battles with addiction, looking for hope in dark times, or just trying to figure out how to make it through the day, this episode is for you. It’s about real progress, one messy step at a time. Tune in and discover how sometimes, the smallest actions—like prayer or simply not giving up—can change everything.

Today’s episode is the hardest one I’ve ever shared. It’s the story of my daughter’s battle with relentless bullying—and my own failure to protect her. For years, she was tormented by cruel kids, and I did what I thought was enough. I called the schools, had meetings, involved the police. But nothing stopped the cruelty. It only got worse.

It all hit a breaking point when those kids dug into her past, found a picture of her late mother, and photoshopped her into a casket. That moment shattered me. And while she was enduring that kind of pain, I wasn’t there for her. I was drowning in my own spiral of alcohol and drugs, letting the internet and her phone raise her while I was checked out.

This episode isn’t just about the bullies—it’s about me, the father who missed the signs, who let his own darkness blind him to his daughter’s suffering. But now, I’m owning my failure. I’m fighting to be the father she needs. It’s too late to change the past, but it’s not too late to fight for her future.

I hope by sharing this, it will help others reflect on their own journeys and confront their blind spots before it’s too late.

In this episode of Beyond The Mud, I take you into one of the most challenging days I’ve faced in a long time. A day where everything seemed out of my control, and the weight of stress could have easily pushed me to break—but I didn’t. I’m on day 11 of my sobriety journey, and today, I’ll share the raw truth of what it takes to stay grounded when life is anything but.

This isn’t just a story about staying sober—it’s about reclaiming my life, one small victory at a time. From early mornings in the gym to finding peace in the chaos, I’m learning to embrace the hard days with a sense of clarity and strength I didn’t know I had. The little moments, the ones that often go unnoticed, are becoming the pillars that hold me up—and they’re the moments I’ll never take for granted again.

If you’ve ever felt like life is testing you, if you’ve ever wondered how to keep going when the storm seems endless—this episode is for you. Join me as I reflect on the power of showing up, staying authentic, and finding hope in the middle of the mess. It’s a journey through resilience, love, and the belief that better days are always within reach.

Hook: What do you do when life pushes you to the edge? Do you crumble, or do you rise? This episode dives deep into the quiet strength of surviving the toughest days—and the surprising peace that comes when you choose to keep moving forward.

In this raw and unfiltered episode of Beyond the Mud, I dive deep into the battle we all face—between the person we are and the person we want to become. Ever feel like you're constantly running from your past, haunted by mistakes, trauma, and the weight of addiction? Me too. Today, I open up about the painful cycle of overthinking, procrastination, and how years of bad decisions and self-sabotage brought me to where I am now.

But this isn’t just about falling down—it’s about getting back up. From having my car repossessed to struggling with my credit, I share the real-life consequences of my choices, and how I’m fighting to change them. I also talk about the surprising clarity sobriety has brought me and what it means to finally face life without the crutches of alcohol and substances. Ten days sober, still juggling life as a single parent, and hustling to figure out my financial mess, I’ve never been more determined to rewrite my story.

If you’ve ever felt stuck in your own life—whether you’re battling addiction, dealing with past traumas, or just trying to survive day to day—this episode is for you. It’s real, it’s honest, and most of all, it’s about moving forward. So, grab a seat, hit play, and let’s figure this out together.

In this powerful episode, I break down how my journey of self-discovery is shaking up the people around me, revealing their insecurities and forcing them to confront their own shadows. We’ll talk about the difference between real growth and the false sense of superiority that some people hide behind, and why my honesty—about my mistakes and my progress—is not only liberating me, but shining a light on the truths others are too scared to face.

If you’ve ever felt like your growth makes others uncomfortable, or if you’re ready to dig deeper into the uncomfortable truths we all try to avoid, this episode is for you. Join me as I confront the real reason why some people are threatened by the truth, and why owning your story—no matter how messy—is the most powerful thing you can do. This episode is a call to action for anyone ready to rise, heal, and confront what’s been holding them back.

Listen now, and prepare to get real about what it takes to grow.”

In this episode, I dive deep into one of the most challenging chapters of my life—a time marked by love, conflict, and the struggle to find solid ground when everything felt uncertain. I recount the complicated relationships that shaped my path, from the moments of intense connection to the battles that tore us apart.

I reflect on the choices I made, the habits I developed, and the mistakes that left scars. This episode isn’t just about the darkness, though—it’s about learning to face it, understanding how the past can both shape and break us, and finding the courage to keep moving forward.

This is a raw and honest journey into the highs and lows of my life, a story of fighting through the mud when the storm feels endless, and of discovering the resilience needed to rise, even when the path ahead seems impossible to navigate.

In this episode of Beyond The Mud, we dive into an often-overlooked part of the sobriety journey — the boredom that creeps in once the chaos fades. Sobriety isn’t just about overcoming addiction; it’s about confronting the quiet, facing yourself, and learning to live without the distractions that once numbed the pain. I reflect on the struggle of feeling lost without the buzz of alcohol and the challenge of finding joy in everyday life. But through the silence, there's a powerful lesson: boredom isn’t the enemy — it’s where real growth happens. Join me as I share my own experience of navigating this phase and discovering strength in the stillness.